"I had this revealing experience with mushrooms and learned so many things about myself-- have you ever tried, we should do it together sometime--"
Hahaha. I totally get this. I enjoy my relationship with substances, yet only a very small portion of the people in my life know that this relationship even exists.
I also have the same dilemma - freelance vs. daily human contact. I find people drain me, but also invigorate me, and I can never tell which will happen when. I suppose the ideal would be to freelance and have an active social life, but I don't have enough solid relationships for that at this point in my life.
A couple of years ago I had a dream that I lived 20-something years as some British girl. It was extremely jarring coming back to reality, as it felt like I had forgotten all of this and had to re-remember myself. For a few weeks my thoughts even had a British accent. It was intense, having to put myself back together like that.
I enjoy my relationship with substances, yet only a very small portion of the people in my life know that this relationship even exists.
Yes, exactly! And I find this so difficult sometimes, not being able to talk about some things with certain people.. Maybe because I find it so important in defining myself and it would be perhaps easier for the others to understand my world if they knew about this relationship. They'd have a whole picture of me. But... on the other hand someone might as well use it against me. So.
I find people drain me, but also invigorate me, and I can never tell which will happen when.You put this so well. And also it depends so much on the person. Some people have this... it can be a way of talking or the things they talk about or just the general appearance that just makes you want to avoid all contact with them. But you learn these quite fast I think
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Hahaha. I totally get this. I enjoy my relationship with substances, yet only a very small portion of the people in my life know that this relationship even exists.
I also have the same dilemma - freelance vs. daily human contact. I find people drain me, but also invigorate me, and I can never tell which will happen when. I suppose the ideal would be to freelance and have an active social life, but I don't have enough solid relationships for that at this point in my life.
A couple of years ago I had a dream that I lived 20-something years as some British girl. It was extremely jarring coming back to reality, as it felt like I had forgotten all of this and had to re-remember myself. For a few weeks my thoughts even had a British accent. It was intense, having to put myself back together like that.
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Yes, exactly! And I find this so difficult sometimes, not being able to talk about some things with certain people.. Maybe because I find it so important in defining myself and it would be perhaps easier for the others to understand my world if they knew about this relationship. They'd have a whole picture of me. But... on the other hand someone might as well use it against me. So.
I find people drain me, but also invigorate me, and I can never tell which will happen when.You put this so well. And also it depends so much on the person. Some people have this... it can be a way of talking or the things they talk about or just the general appearance that just makes you want to avoid all contact with them. But you learn these quite fast I think ( ... )
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