the only thing keeping me from smashing my head open is definetely watching grey's anatomy over and over. and when i cant watch it i listen to the music on the show. and Of course, i have 2 days before my finals and im still sitting in front of my computer watching grey's anatomy that i've repeatedly watched 10 times already.
i'll stop the world and melt with youukissme_ukillmeJune 16 2005, 04:37:40 UTC
Confession #1 i'm not really looking forward to this summer either.
yet i don't want it to be this (last) year either. or next year for that matter.
can we just cease living in time? free ourselves from it's constraints and do what we want when we want? is this possible?
we could make it our goal during this inevitably mundane summer in which we all say "oh we should do this" or "we should hang soon !" with obviously feigned enthusiasm. a summer that promises nothing and returns nothing. except it may rationalize all those negative feelings of inadequacy that we all have for ourselves. the feelings of being not good enough, unwanted, the dreaded "un-cool". a summer where some of us will be forced to work like madmen or go on inane vacations with family that we really can't stand to be around anymore.
or maybe that's just my summer. but anyway. i feel your anguish and anxious anticipation for the sweltering hell of loneliness that i will fell this summer.
Re: i'll stop the world and melt with youukissme_ukillmeJune 17 2005, 05:37:24 UTC
what in the world would it be about? me wallowing in self-loathing and basking in self-love? full of self-depricating and humbling remarks, followed by chapters of supreme elitist and egoist thoughts in which i appear perfectly happy with myself, in fact, too pleased with myself? please, you don't want to read that. I wouldn't even want to read that, and it's about me.
but i'll take into serious consideration what you suggest. it might just be good and therapeutic for me at least.
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yet i don't want it to be this (last) year either. or next year for that matter.
can we just cease living in time? free ourselves from it's constraints and do what we want when we want? is this possible?
we could make it our goal during this inevitably mundane summer in which we all say "oh we should do this" or "we should hang soon !" with obviously feigned enthusiasm. a summer that promises nothing and returns nothing. except it may rationalize all those negative feelings of inadequacy that we all have for ourselves. the feelings of being not good enough, unwanted, the dreaded "un-cool". a summer where some of us will be forced to work like madmen or go on inane vacations with family that we really can't stand to be around anymore.
or maybe that's just my summer. but anyway. i feel your anguish and anxious anticipation for the sweltering hell of loneliness that i will fell this summer.
we should hang out soon !
yes, i the irony was intended.
loves.
kp
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this summer. i'll read it.
love you.
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but i'll take into serious consideration what you suggest. it might just be good and therapeutic for me at least.
love you more, lady, i love you more.
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