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[parispinning]

All my life I've been a victim of my parents ideology.  Adding up somewhere in the middle of where I'm supposed to be in a westernized world and where they expect me to be in an Iranian Tradition.  It's as if I've had no shape.  Physically you can see the the traits of an Iranian girl; almond shaped eyes, long brown hair and olive skin.  It's as if

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[outofthedust]

when i grew up, i never thought of my culture to have a huge impact on me. i was born and grew up here, but i always thought my iranian heritage would just be a sole alien to any of my american friends. i never hid where i came from, instead embraced it. i figured if they were going to be scared of my country, i better teach them about it. of course, i had doubts when i realized how useless the government was, and how poorly some people lived, but then i went there, and it was different. even though i loved the country and its people, i couldnt live there. at least not yet. but, now i think i am more involved with my culture because i leaned on it to make me someone i wasnt. i didnt like who i was, so i said well let me be more iranian and maybe people will like me, treat me like a special foreign exchange student. but i have my american habits. confused and dazed, yes, thats me. now i guess i liek my culture for itself. i dont really like the fact that i have to be either or for my american friends and my iranian family. it hurts me

[parispinning]

its find to hard iranians that are just as american as they are iranian. It's like a new state of being. The only thing I realize about it though, when you mix two extremely different cultures, we bring out the best in both.

[outofthedust]

yeah, but sometimes i have to switch my iranian mode off and then on for different groups or people. some of my iranian friends who live in western areas, but still very close to their culture, are like, dont you know farsi? speak farsi in this house. then i meet "american" iranians and when i speak farsi i feel like a big show off. mainly theyre focused on their coach bags or fancy clothes, not to say all persian girls are like that, just some of them in the long island area, but you get what i mean. so i have to be careful of "who i am" around different people, that ive just lost myself.