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[particle_man08]

Well last night was pretty fun i guess at the dance i got to hang out with people but im feeling like crap right now cuz its about 5am. Not to mention i didnt get my promised dance from someone and i cant stop thinking about that either.. Why is it that when you finaly decide that you like someone they end up losing interest in you at that moment?

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[tearswashedaway]

love and life dont work together, seriously most relationships, especially in middle school, never work out because i mean we're young and dont really know whats going on, you cant get so caught up in this, or take everything so seriously. you WILL move on, the time it takes to move on depends on you

[particle_man08]

so what if maybe what i wanted to i dunno go above middle school level relationships? Instead of being a young loser who just goes out with anybody that likes him like I know most people are at our school ive matured a lot even though most of the other people at our school havnt, I think ive finaly started to figure out which feelings are pretty real and not just some quick infatuation which i have been guilty of multiple times in the past

[tearswashedaway]

when you were going through those quick infatuations, didnt what you were feeling, feel so real so pure? but now that you look bac on it you see it wasnt, how do kno your not doing that again? and its good that you've matured but not everyone else has, and not everyone is looking for a big relationship

[particle_man08]

I know that most people arnt looking for that big of relaationships yet and thats why im so sad, i have this depth in me the people will never see for a long time and i feel sad for it. I also know that my feelings are probably more real than this time because im not basing my judgement on the way she looks this time which was very shallow of me to do in the past and which is also why i dont like a lot of the people that like me because most of them never talk to me and i never get a chance to know them like ive started know her. because i admit that i probably still dont know enough about her yet to be as close as id like but thats why im always trying to get closer to her. For some reason im almost completely different when im talking to someone one on one than i am with crowds because im not different when i hang out with different crowds just when im alone with someone or in the backround of a crowd.