shew!
I just finished joining this community and they have a really long app... i LOVE long apps! it keeps me busy..lol*
hey....i found a couple of poems on the internet that are sad....here they are....
here's the first one:
Her friends tell her not to
that the scars will just remind her of the bad times
but she doesnt listen
8 o'clock again
locking the door
taking out the knife
pressing it against her wrist
letting out one last cry for help
when she goes downstairs
her mom asks what is seeping through her shirt
she tells her mom that the cat stratched her
but thats all bullsh*t
she runs to the bathroom
yells " WHY WONT IT STOP BLEEDING?!"
calls her best friend
asks what to do
of course her friend doesnt know because she doesnt cut
she is to smart to do something so dumb
but she is panicing because her best friend, the friend that has stuck by her for 10 years may have just made the biggest mistake of her life
yelling at her to tell her mom
she refuses
"make it stop, MAKE IT STOP!"
the last words from her best friend were..... "WE TOLD YOU NOT TO! WE TOLD YOU THAT IT WAS A BAD IDEA! and we told you that one day.... this day.... it will kill you.... i will always love you...."
and she hangs up the phone....
and then.... she falls to the ground....dead....
her mom finds her and SCREAMS!
wondering what the h*ll has happened to her daughter!
panicing! she calls the gurls best friend
"WHAT HAPPENED TO MY DAUGHTER?!?!?!"
she waits to reply... still shocked... then after about 30 second she whispers into the phone....
"she has cut herself to deep.... and this is the story of her suicide...."
here's another one by bleeding-black-rose it's called weakness:
Weakened,
Frail,
Slowly dying.
Something to control,
Dire need,
To have,
Anything,
Source of power.
Control,
Over self,
Everythin slipping,
Falling,
Round,
Crashing.
Pain to live,
To breathe,
Be accepted,
Beautiful,
To the mirror.
No lies,
No deceit,
Heart break?
None,
Loneliness is comfort.
Stop caring.
Helping,
Loving.
Not worth it,
Not beautiful,
Enough,
To be wanted.
Retch the pain,
The stress,
Loss,
No control.
Starve,
The will,
To be loved.
Weakened,
Frail,
Slowly dying.
Something to control,
Dire need,
To have,
Anything,
Source of power.
this one is by bleeding-black-rose and it's called slipping knives:
The shiver in your spine
The smirk of pleasure across your face
The tears rolling down your eyes
The knives sliding slowly across your wrist
Taking in the feel of content
From the pain
Wanting more and more
Blood dripping, dripping, dripping
Sense of pain and desire
Sense of distress and loneliness
A drop of blood
For every piece of torment
You have endured
Slice your wrist over and over
But not enough to die
Pop a pill one by one
Only enough for a high
Half way there everytime
Never reaching an end
This is right now
But later it is wrong
Regret will swarm your body
More pain and stress to come
Won't go all the way
Your just alittle frightened
Scare of you
Scared of your mind
Scared of what you could do
Scared of the people around you
But I'm always here for you
I'll catch the blood
And send it back
Try and take the tears away
Sitch up the slits
Along your bleeding wrists
Hug you till the high ends
Be there beside you
As your own loving friend
Never leave you when your hurt
Just because I love you
here's one from somewhere...i don't know where i got it! lol*
It's on her mind all day
telling her to succeed
keeping it to herself
a misconcieving deed
she tries to maintain
the smile on her face
one of which is broke
in desperate need of replace
her mind contains guilt
but tries to stay real
afraid to ask for help
while skipping every meal
she tries to be positive
but living in pretend
in her world all alone
with no ont to comprehend
in belief that one day
she could finally return
to a life that is normal
from her mistakes she would learn
her secrets burn inside
an indefinite sea of black
hopes eventually faded
her dreams are soon to lack
this was written by someone anonymous.....this is my favorite one! it gave me chills and made me think.
A demon lives inside my head
Telling me I should be dead
Forcing me to be this way
Thinking of food every day
A beast rages inside my soul
Helping me reach unatttainable goals
"Skip breakfast if you have to dear
Swallow your pride, forget your fear."
My teeth have started to decay
And my throat hurts constantly every day
They say I forced it on myself
But this monster had to have helped
I just want to be the same
To stop the fighting, stop the games
I want to be healthy just like you
There's nothing that I wouldn't do
So look into my bloodshot eyes
See the demon that lives inside
And then try to tell me i'll be okay
For you it's just another day
this one is cool how it's written.
Thin
Thin
Thin
NO
Thinner
Thinner
Thinner
Perfection in sight
Thinnest
Power of Food
Power of my Body
Self-Control
NO WEAKNESS
Right???
Whatever it takes…
Starving
Throwing-up
Pills….
It doesn't matter
Love / Hate
Running….
Get away….
Go faster…
It's gaining on me!
NO!
It can't!
I hate it!
Hate What?
I don't know
Confused
Lost
Searching!
Two Endings
Life or Death
Eat or Starve
A Choice….
HELP!
this one is written by someone named dionne:
TRYING HARD
It’s been a long time since I was free,
To eat what I wanted and wanted what I eat.
But just like gazing at a distant star,
Obtaining my old happiness seems to far.
I’m too weak to fight it, to weak to try,
Only finding the strength to curl up and cry.
I didn’t want this illness, I’ve never felt such pain,
If I knew where it came from, I’d send it back again.
Subjecting my body, mind and soul,
To this madness that I can’t control.
“Just one more pound then you are free”
Yet all along it’s lying, the voice of my ED.
The torment of starving, craving and fainting
Obsessed, depressed, continuously contemplating,
Whether I should eat to ease the pain,
Or exercise non-stop for hours again.
Avoiding the comments, ignoring the stares,
Doubting the idea that anyone cares.
I need to do this, I need to achieve,
Ignoring the dangerous web that I weave.
Yet part of me knows that all is not lost,
I may lose more weight but at what cost?
Trying hard to conquer and beat it,
I know with belief in myself I’ll defeat it.
alrighty!! that's all for now..♥ yall!
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