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[passercul]

Starting to understand just how insidiously toxic my family members are for me. Yay, psychotherapy.

I think... I might just need out of this house, out of this dependence. Knowing them, I'll have to fight and murder for the right to my independence. It irks me tremendously.

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[evilstorm]

I don't know if this will make you feel any better--well, obviously I hope it does, else I wouldn't say it, but still--but I have a loving family and I still have to beat them off my personal territory (physical and mental) with a stick sometimes. The Asian model of kids-don't-move-out-ever isn't really conducive to becoming your own person. Means that a lot of us have to fight. Good luck.

[passercul]

Thanks.

Truth is, I'm not a person who thrives in any way on conflict. Knowing this, I'd rather murder once and for all than have to deal with offending people in an enduring manner. Unfortunately not literally viable, but moving out? They can guilt me all they want but I'm still going to make it happen one day. I just hope that day is long before they die, because as toxic as they are, I would like to have the chance to enjoy them from a good distance, as per my brother's model.

[evilstorm]

Ah. Yes, that sounds like a good plan. Clean is easier than lingering messiness.