I never thought of my self as a masochist until recently.  i always felt more at home in control of my world! i really wish i knew why things can never stay good!!! that's why i hate soap operas!! you wait and struggle with some one watch them grow, change, root for them to get together and after a BRIEF "honeymoon" they throw in infidelity or ( Read more... )

I'm just haveing a mind purge! I got on line and saw he was on...didn't he know i'd see him on my messanger? asshole!!! I sent a goodbye letter very short and actually sweet! I'm going to still consider it his loss!! and as i sit here writing i'm filled with anxiouse butterflys or pins and needles wondering if he'll try and IM me..........but no he ( Read more... )

Stuipid is now catching!!! I have woken from the bizzar world of boy head games and am SOOOOO Un amused!!! Why are people so broken!!! I mean this I turned into the girl i hate most!!! I was very needy ,cryed!! through tantrums cuz he wouldn't call or text me, and then did a total 180 becouse he CALLED!!! AHAHAHAHAHHAHA I hate that!! Lucky for me ( Read more... )

I meet some one! I have a guy who has been actively prusuing me for 3-4 mo. and gained enough cool points (yes i said that) to move himself above some of the other guys i was talking to! Of course we talk -we talk alot on the puter, phone, and text messages. We talk, he's much more emotionally available than even ME! (I usually fall for men who don ( Read more... )

OK life sure likes to fuck with you!!! WTF!!! so a week after my car conks out I finally get funds together to get it towed to the wrecking yard!!! So i meet the driver and he slames the car in to reverse and getts it out of where it is.....cool right......He tells me he thinks it's my front breaks that caused the problem..........he looks at it ( Read more... )

Just another day in Hell at the Devil's Picnic!!!   (Warning alot of Swearing!!!)

They say the Devil's in  the details!.......... Ya fucking bastard quite messing with ME/ us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Got up this morning went to coinstar with all the change cuz payday is tomorrow! and then went out to meet at starbucks for some work stuff. left the ( Read more... )

OK so I'm SOOOO glad I didn't pay for dinner tonight!!! I do wish i drank becouse it may have made that shitty meal a bit better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We all me at Atlas in the U-Village. They had a room ready for us with printed menus and it all looked so nice from the surface...............Then the giant alligator chomped your head off!..... um i ( Read more... )

YAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The Audit is done!!!!!! I repeat (for myself! J ) THE AUDIT IS DONE!!!!!!!!!!!! Feeewwwwwwww ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh SIGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FEEL LIKE DANCING AND SLEEPING FOR A THOUSDAND YEARS!!

The hell is done for 2 more years and that’s awesome!!  We doubled the size of our company, clients, houses and staff.  We serve ( Read more... )

*sigh** I have a migraine! I have an idiotic bunch of staff who are trying to drive me insane!!!!! I have 10 days to get my and only my houses at work ready for State Bigwigs to come and take a tour!!!!!!!!!!!! and this morning my coordinator is giving me attitude!!!!!!!!! Fucking hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm all jacked up and think I should ( Read more... )

Some of you may know in december my dad had a hart attack! He spent 3 weeks in the hospital came home for 3weeks went back came home for 2 more weeks and went back in needing another heart surgery! At 1st they said he needed a transplant as his heart was sooo weak they weren't, sure how long he would live with out it and if he coaded on the table ( Read more... )