how do you just stop being with someone you've been with for so long? i do love him, but we have this tendency to hurt each other in turns. but maybe this time it will be different. i have to try. i'm not just going to give up. i'm just a fool in love. people in love are probably the most foolish people...EVER ( Read more... )

and i still don't know...

my day has been long and uneventful. i'm going to say the highlight of the day was driving around with karina listening to the smiths and smoking cigarettes in the cold. i love when it's cold and not rainy ( Read more... )

i got a phone call yesterday and i have to say that it was one of the scariest phone calls of my life. i didn't know what to say or do when they started screaming at me and yelling at me and everything at me so i just hung up. my heart was beating so fucking fast and i almost got an asthma attack. i was so fucking scared. i have never been so ( Read more... )

came home early. wasn't really in the mood for hanging out tonight. so i'm home now, thinking that my dad hates me ( Read more... )

so i worked a double yesterday.
and then i had work today in the morning.
just keeping myself busy.
i guess that's all i can do right ( Read more... )

leave me alone.

i lost him.

and there's absolutely nothing i can do because he's far away and hating me.

it sucks.

and my eyes are poofy from crying.

i think that i may very well be coming down with something. my throats all ache-y and sore. so i guess the smoking two packs in a matter of 4 hours is finally starting to catch up with me ( Read more... )

it pisses me off to think about you ( Read more... )