One month... *sigh* One month too long ( Read more... )

I'm reminded of "Empire Records". ha. How ironic. "You think you can can fix me, Joe? Then go ahead, fix me..." I love Debb. Truth is, you are the only one that can fix yourself. Other's can only plant the seeds and hope that they will grow. I've done this before. Sometimes you suceed, sometimes you fail. You can only hope for the best. ( Read more... )

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Life is changing before my eyes. I used to HATE change, but now I think I like it. I mean, could it be worse? I probably just screwed myself by saying that. But really, I've been so unhappy with or without reason, it matters not. The point is that I have been unhappy. I've once again taken control over my life though. As I have had to do ( Read more... )

My diet: Coke (a-cola) and granola bars. Yeah. Go Dawn. Really gunna lose weight that way. *laughs* I am so lazy anymore! geez. At least I go to work everyday. Maybe that is why I am so lazy. My schedule sucks. I work for 20days this month until I get a day off. Well, It's only cuz I am going to be gone for a week. Going to New ( Read more... )

My birthday was fun. Went to Canadia with Joanne. Lots of fun. I don't really drink anymore so it was nice to do it as a once in awhile thing, and LEGALLY! Actually I don't really do anything anymroe. I work a LOT and hang out with Joanne. It's about all I have time/energy for anymore. It's good though. I love my Jo. She cares. It's nice ( Read more... )

what the hell am i doing here? i don't belong here...

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hey hey... CONGRATS to all the grads TOMORROW!!! (actually today)
Free at last! Free at last!

oh and justyn... how you doin'? *wink*

I need to blow my freakin' head off! I see myself, rocking back in forth in my room yelling "STOP IT! STOP THINKING!" This behavior has been going far too long. I guess it is just more appearent now. Not really. There's jsut a lot on my mind. Someone close to me asked me what was wrong, you don't want to know I say, yes I do he says, so I ( Read more... )

I'm not there yet, but I feel like I am having one. I hate small talk. Small talk is so phoney. It's bullshit. Something amazing happened and it has left me in a sticky situation. Win win, or possibly lose lose. I guess only time will tell...

I sit here with my thoughts. Too bad I can't type as fast as I can think. That's proably a good thing. I feel so alone, lost, confused, used, fake, misunderstood and...happy. (manic depression symptoms or what? lol) Yeah... um, oh yeah. I just finished reading Douglas Coupland's "Life After God". I love the feeling you get after finishing a ( Read more... )