Dear PQQP...
PqqpTheSexyBeast (5:36:09 PM): I was pulling for kevin cuz i didnt expect him to be there and he was just doing so well, but after that discrepency i knew what i was doing, i was being one of them
PatMic@Mac.com (5:38:41 PM): yeah
PqqpTheSexyBeast (5:41:19 PM): i knew the whole time you shoulda won by one, but i argued anyway becuz i wanted to see kevin win, fuckin stunna and everyone got to me, then after i saw how happy everyone was and the look on ur face i looked around and i just felt evil, im serious. Then it was too late cuz I wanted to say "no wait, Pat won" and then it would be over but u guys were already playing songs and I didnt know what to do I just wanted to go into the bathroom and not be a part of it cuz I knew what I was doing. But then I just wanted it to be over so I just tryed to pick a song u both were good at then finally when u guys played the tie breakers and stuff i just wanted to leave cuz i realized what a dick I was being. then after the match and everyone was going "omgomgogm kevin won", kel looked straight at me and said "yes, and the way it should be", and i just looked at him and nodded the word "no" and i knew it was all wrong
PatMic@Mac.com (5:42:06 PM): wow
PqqpTheSexyBeast (5:42:08 PM): and now its on my conscious and im sorry, now I dont know hopefully I'm a better person and wont think like that ever again no matter who and when it is
PatMic@Mac.com (5:42:18 PM): that's probably the best thing ever said
PqqpTheSexyBeast (5:42:59 PM): I feel like a traitor and I dont get it, I love you and I dont get why I did that, but i think its from hearing stunna for for 3 and ahlaf hours about how hes only going to see you lose
PqqpTheSexyBeast (5:44:05 PM): not love you love you, but I want you as a friend becuz ur a good one and no matter how good of a sport kevin is(which he's one of the nicest people I've met) that dosent mean you arent either becuz u are a good person
PatMic@Mac.com (5:44:30 PM): good person, unlike stunna
PatMic@Mac.com (5:44:36 PM): i know what you mean though
PatMic@Mac.com (5:44:51 PM): I just felt like ... wow, what's the point of this anymore
PatMic@Mac.com (5:44:56 PM): tournaments are supposed to be fun
PqqpTheSexyBeast (5:44:58 PM): but look this is stunnas LJ:
PqqpTheSexyBeast (5:45:00 PM): Went to GOM2. I didnt want to go at first but the main reason I went was to see Pat lose. It ended up being pretty fun and I met a lot of sweet new people. Played lots of DrumMania/Guitarfreaks. I also won 3rd place, Kevin beat me and I never had the chance to face Pat but the Kevbo won 1st anyways (UHB 4 life)
PqqpTheSexyBeast (5:45:04 PM): exactly
PatMic@Mac.com (5:45:19 PM): and it's not fun when I get to the finals and the system is rigged against me
PqqpTheSexyBeast (5:45:26 PM): exactly
PatMic@Mac.com (5:45:48 PM): I felt like you were supposed to be my friend and just kinda felt like betrayed
PqqpTheSexyBeast (5:46:28 PM): I know you did, and it finally took a second for me to look around at hte other peole to realize thats how you felt
PqqpTheSexyBeast (5:46:41 PM): but by that time it was too late
PatMic@Mac.com (5:46:52 PM): like stunna would keep saying shit
PqqpTheSexyBeast (5:46:58 PM): this is exactly why the people running the tournament should always keep score
PatMic@Mac.com (5:48:45 PM): but I remembered at PPX when I tried to argue for you against Kel yet stay fair the whole time ... like talking about how pad stuff was being counted as greats the whole time
PatMic@Mac.com (5:48:55 PM): even though it shouldn't have been and how it kept switching
PatMic@Mac.com (5:48:59 PM): and telling that to rob
PqqpTheSexyBeast (5:49:02 PM): yeah
PatMic@Mac.com (5:49:09 PM): and i was just hoping somebody would do that for me
PqqpTheSexyBeast (5:49:16 PM): and now its time for me to stick up for you and yep
PqqpTheSexyBeast (5:49:33 PM): it doesnt happen
PqqpTheSexyBeast (5:50:17 PM): wtf, i dont get it, i never let people tell me what to do, its like something evil inside me said that, i look at it now and I'm like "what! that wasnt me"
PqqpTheSexyBeast (5:50:25 PM): but it was thats why its so hard to deal with