I lost my notebook. I write everything in my notebook, which is why I am typing this. I hate losing things. I have a spare notebook at home but it doesn't have all the things I have found important enough to jot down. It is aggravating ( Read more... )

I have been thinking a lot lately. A little too much actually. I get into these weird stints where I can't express how I feel to anybody and I close myself off every chance I get. I have spent more time in my room than anywhere else in the past month, and I think I might go mad. I hate being like this. A few specific things happen when I get like ( Read more... )

I wish I could tell you how I feel about you, but then maybe things wouldn't be the way they are. Maybe it would be better that way. Fuck if I know. All I know is this is the most frustrating thing in the world to me right now. If you aren't single by the time you leave for school, I am spilling my guts with no expectations of what you may do or ( Read more... )

I feel really good right now. This is weird because I have a lot to do this week and I as wanting to go home some time this week but that doesn't look very possible. So all things considered I shouldn't probably be feeling the way I am feeling. But I think the fact that summer is so near is what is keeping my spirits high. No matter how much I have ( Read more... )

Summer is so fucking close I can see it growing near from off in the distance. I'd probably be able to smell it if the air wasn't so frigid and I wasn't so stuffed up. Two weeks and classes are over. WTF!?!?!? That's including finals. SO messed up. It feels like I have at least a month left in me, but I'm not going to argue.

Bring on the summer...

I love Delaware. I really really do. Anyone and anything I have ever cared about live or have lived in or around there. And currently most of whom I call friends live there, at least during the summer. So I just absolutely love being there ( Read more... )

Currently, I weigh 158 lbs. Over the course of about 3 months my max goal is to lose 35 lbs. I haven't weighed less than 130 lbs since about eighth grade. But, I guess it can be done.

Honestly, losing 20 will be an accomplishment, but I am still aiming for 35.

The past two weekends have been fantastic. But this one is just plain horrible. It just doesn't make any sense to me. I mean, I understand that every weekend can't be as fun and memorable as the past two, but whenever I am here, at school, I never have one of those kinds of weekends. It doesn't help that I haven't really clicked with anyone yet, ( Read more... )

I am glad Christmas is over. It wasn't nearly as bad as i had expected but I still had some problems. My mom made it easier. Visiting Peter's grave also put things into perspective. I looked all around me at the cemetery and realized that I am nowhere near alone. So many people are missing loved ones on the most beloved holiday of the year. It was ( Read more... )

I neeeeeed sleep, God damn it. What is going on recently? It is impossible for me to sleep. I've been trying for hours now and have finally given up. I have work at 10:30 and before that I need to find a car to use so I can get there. This is ridiculous, I work a double my first day back. I don't think I remember how to do anything with the ( Read more... )