Fanfic: My Lungs Ache Filled With Water - Masterpost
Title: My Lungs Ache Filled With Water
Author: paula_lirio
Pairing: Sam/Dean (mentions of Dean/OCs and Sam/OCs)
Rating: NC-17
Word count: ~19,500
Warnings: AU (Canon Divergence), Mention of prostitution (OC), mention of suicide (not Sam or Dean), minor character death, mention of suicide thoughts.
Summary: It’s like when you remember you’re breathing. Every breath feels unnatural and mechanic. It’s like trying to forget about it so you can breathe properly, but never being able to again. It’s like spending the rest of your life feeling like you’re doing it wrong, like you’re not getting enough air. That’s what if feels like for Dean, being in love with Sam. And then one day, Sam goes and makes it worse.
PART 1 / PART 2
On AO3
bt_kady's Art Post
Author’s Note: Written for this year's spn-reversebang. Title from Emiliana Torrini's Sea People. First, thank you to bt_kady for creating the piece that inspired this all and for being the most understanding, most awesome artist ever. And for beta-ing so quickly. You saved my life! Also thank you to lightthesparks and Travellerintime for letting us use their arts. And Sydnee for inspiring me and for constantly breaking my heart with her writings.
And finally, thank you to ivanabh for being great and fantastic and never giving up on me or this fic. This whole thing is completely her fault. I went, “I wonder if…” and she enabled me and picked at my brain until I was sitting with my computer and crying on my keyboard while I typed. Though she was mad at Dean the whole time, and more than once dedicated Kate Nash’s Dickhead to him. I love you, honey! This is your baby! *sigh* Thank you!
Author: paula_lirio
Pairing: Sam/Dean (mentions of Dean/OCs and Sam/OCs)
Rating: NC-17
Word count: ~19,500
Warnings: AU (Canon Divergence), Mention of prostitution (OC), mention of suicide (not Sam or Dean), minor character death, mention of suicide thoughts.
Summary: It’s like when you remember you’re breathing. Every breath feels unnatural and mechanic. It’s like trying to forget about it so you can breathe properly, but never being able to again. It’s like spending the rest of your life feeling like you’re doing it wrong, like you’re not getting enough air. That’s what if feels like for Dean, being in love with Sam. And then one day, Sam goes and makes it worse.
PART 1 / PART 2
On AO3
bt_kady's Art Post
Author’s Note: Written for this year's spn-reversebang. Title from Emiliana Torrini's Sea People. First, thank you to bt_kady for creating the piece that inspired this all and for being the most understanding, most awesome artist ever. And for beta-ing so quickly. You saved my life! Also thank you to lightthesparks and Travellerintime for letting us use their arts. And Sydnee for inspiring me and for constantly breaking my heart with her writings.
And finally, thank you to ivanabh for being great and fantastic and never giving up on me or this fic. This whole thing is completely her fault. I went, “I wonder if…” and she enabled me and picked at my brain until I was sitting with my computer and crying on my keyboard while I typed. Though she was mad at Dean the whole time, and more than once dedicated Kate Nash’s Dickhead to him. I love you, honey! This is your baby! *sigh* Thank you!