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Rant-ish.
I've been so close lately with the people that I love to death.
and it makes me so angry! How some people have so much goddamn pride, to let things linger.
I can never do that!
If I care about someone I am never afraid to show it.
I would lay myself out every time and say exactly what I want to say no matter how much "pride" it may take away from me.
we don't know how much time we have here.
How horrible would it feel to have someone that you care about die without getting to say all the things that you ever wanted to say to that person. Or what if you were on bad terms and something happened to them. It blows my mind how people can let stupid trivial bullshit just sit. It disguasts me.
if that is life, a stupid fucking game, then fine. I quit.
I don't want that. I know that if I do something wrong, I try to fix it the second after I do it.
Maybe that is why I always get fucked over because I can not let things just be un-resolved. But I guess if it hasn't happened to you and you haven't experienced the pain of losing someone close to you, forever, then it is easy to turn your back and keep walking.
It's easy to think your better then it all..
but it's not easy to live with regret when you realize what was actually important.
I hate hearing from people, "you've won. Don't do anything about it, it's not worth it."
It was NEVER a game to me.......I actually cared.
How could something, that I cared about with all my heart EVER have been a game.
that is sick.
but I guess in a sense it was a game, I just didn't realize it till it was too late.
point being.
You only have one chance.
Take it! Do everything you need to do.
Live in the NOW, because tomorrow may not come.
sure.. some people will call you rash, impulsive and crazy...
but fuck them!
they are the ones who lose out in the end.
too scared to live their lives to the fullest just in case something doesn't go as planned and they get hurt.
so which one is worse?
chasing everything you've ever wanted,
or being too scared and pretentious to get off your ass?
EDIT!
this goes with my other post!! up top.
my bestfriend just called because she got in a car accident, her and her boyfriend are perfectly fine!
BUT YOU NEVER KNOW!!!!
I feel the need to run around and tell everyone I love them, just incase.
I've been so close lately with the people that I love to death.
and it makes me so angry! How some people have so much goddamn pride, to let things linger.
I can never do that!
If I care about someone I am never afraid to show it.
I would lay myself out every time and say exactly what I want to say no matter how much "pride" it may take away from me.
we don't know how much time we have here.
How horrible would it feel to have someone that you care about die without getting to say all the things that you ever wanted to say to that person. Or what if you were on bad terms and something happened to them. It blows my mind how people can let stupid trivial bullshit just sit. It disguasts me.
if that is life, a stupid fucking game, then fine. I quit.
I don't want that. I know that if I do something wrong, I try to fix it the second after I do it.
Maybe that is why I always get fucked over because I can not let things just be un-resolved. But I guess if it hasn't happened to you and you haven't experienced the pain of losing someone close to you, forever, then it is easy to turn your back and keep walking.
It's easy to think your better then it all..
but it's not easy to live with regret when you realize what was actually important.
I hate hearing from people, "you've won. Don't do anything about it, it's not worth it."
It was NEVER a game to me.......I actually cared.
How could something, that I cared about with all my heart EVER have been a game.
that is sick.
but I guess in a sense it was a game, I just didn't realize it till it was too late.
point being.
You only have one chance.
Take it! Do everything you need to do.
Live in the NOW, because tomorrow may not come.
sure.. some people will call you rash, impulsive and crazy...
but fuck them!
they are the ones who lose out in the end.
too scared to live their lives to the fullest just in case something doesn't go as planned and they get hurt.
so which one is worse?
chasing everything you've ever wanted,
or being too scared and pretentious to get off your ass?
EDIT!
this goes with my other post!! up top.
my bestfriend just called because she got in a car accident, her and her boyfriend are perfectly fine!
BUT YOU NEVER KNOW!!!!
I feel the need to run around and tell everyone I love them, just incase.