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Sunday was a pretty cool day. I saw "42nd Street" which made me want dance to start again. Monday Eric and I went out to run some errands and then he came over. we played ddr and i wonnnnn which never happens, wait maybe he let me win? he left at 11 and i played Old school video games. today i didn't feel well so i layed in bed for a lonnnnnng time. first i was gunna shop w my sis and mom but i didnt feel well. then i was gunna see a movie with a bunch of girls but my ride didn't have a car anymore and i still didn't feel that great. then i was gunna just see a movie w kelly and amanda and amanda didnt feel well. so then kelly ended up coming here to watch spice world for a little while lol. i remembered like every line- thats kinda sad. we decided we should dress up as them again one day. tomorrow jenn and maggie r sleepign over. rachels coming here to stay til idk when. my mom and i might go shopping. its gunna sound dumb but i need to say it- I LACK CLOSURE. yeah ppl change and im not friends with them anymore and i need to stop reading their away messages and missing all the good times-but that isnt gunna happen anytime soon. its driving me crazy. ill never b strong enough to leave any relationship. where do u find strength? i wish i could buy some. or santa can give me sone hehehe since when am i such a negative person? jeez. like i cry more and more now and i dont know why. nothing makes sense. i just need to write it all out. i dont want pity. i hate pity as much as i hate attention. on a happier note- i havent let myself think about hw :-) haha im doing that all day thursday. im gunna go watch csi with kristen even though it scares me. tomrrow nights gunna be fun :-) i love my girls! to the ppl that invited me to the movies today thanks for inviting me :-) sorry that it didnt work for anyone- it woulda been cool