I wished sometimes I could be a politician. Someone who could just win you over with some smile or some wink of the eye. But no. Tonight I cried because I couldn't take it anymore. It wasn't even the big things in my life that made me cry... it was the fact that I was being disrespected. I mean, I can come off as very caddy or very bitchy at times ( Read more... )

I felt like a 16 year old sneaking into a club. I mean...granted, I kinda still look 16 (according to my ex Kevin), but still. It must have been the green band which I was wearing, signifying my underage-ness. Damn me for forgetting my chalked ID. Then again I was designated driver. Linda, Jordan, and I didn’t really know what we were getting ( Read more... )

So the new design isn't really what i was going for...i'll admit there was something totally different from this, but alas I got angry and pissed off. I was ready to slam a stapler into whatever got in my way ( Read more... )

I must love roller coasters because they parallel my life. And what a effed up life...

I felt down. I broke up with Eric. It hurt me very much so. A lot more than i thought it would have.

Today I felt a lot better, helping friends, hanging with friends, being a friend. I just wanna help.

If my life has to suck, that doesn't mean others have to

So I'm confused. I don't love him do I? I'm not too sure. I'm questioning things and it has put me in an awkward spot. If i really don't fully love someone, isn't it a bad thing that I have someone that loves me? No. I like having someone that loves me...i just fear whether or not I love him the same. I am a big astrological person and my chart ( Read more... )

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It feels like my love for Eric is growing stronger.

And I'm happy about it.

Very Happy.

(Why do i feel like LiveJournal has a different sentiment than Blogger? Well check my blogger if ever you get bored)

I've fucked myself in the face. I decide to talk to people that i didn't need to... I made some peoples lives a living hell, and yet others don't even know what's happening. Names are rushing though my head of people ( Read more... )