I wanna be more then fine
you take in everything with a certainty i envy
it's somehow all i need
just keep me guessing please
darling, all of these awkward jump-start stalling conversations
mean much more to me than anything
and it comes down to me and you
and whether we're supposed to or not, we still will
we're so much better off than them
all the possibility and promise just weighs on me so heavily...
a look, a laugh, a smile
a second passes by and i regret it
words just aren't right
sometimes i just can't explain
all the ways you devastate me makes me happy.
I can really explain or understand it, but its perfect in that sense.
Funny the conversations people start with you when your in a clearly irritated mood :P "ohhh...so Kaities annoyed, lets talk about how annoying she has been!" Yeah...I know your gonna reading this...
I just thought that getting my summer and fall plans finalized would make me feel less scared about the future. That is not the case, I'm back to where I was in January. "I'm a plane in the sunset with nowhere to land".
This is important. I'm learning important things, my faith is being tested and stretched in directions I didn't know existed. I'm learning the importance of trust, like, honest, wholehearted, I clearly have no control and most likely will never have control, kinda trust.
I took a nap today. It was nice and refreshing. A great way to relax. I highly recommend naps. <3