happy loman

[pbjelly]

it seems like everyone is either mad at me, annoyed with me, hates me, is tired of me, doesnt have enough patience with me, or just has some sort of problem with me, no matter how much they do actually like me. im too needy, im too much of a beggar, i get in the way, im too lazy, im too stupid, im too smart, i want it my way, im too mean, im too

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[yuenmei]

Aw Casey, now I feel like shit. I'm so sorry for everything I've done to hurt you. I know you know we didn't mean it all those times we poked fun, and I think we knew all along that it must hurt in some way, so I really can't explain why we're so mean. I do love you Casey, soooo much. I do regret anything I've done that was catty or cruel. I will make a conscious effort to be more respectful. I am so sorry.

And about the test scores, I didn't mean to make you feel bad at all, and I'm sorry if you do. I have impossible standards for myself, and like you said everyone has some kind of competition. What I consider bad for myself I don't neccessarily consider bad for everyone else... it's just the expectations that I've been trying to meet my whole life. I don't think anyone else should use my measuring stick to judge themselves, just like I shouldn't use anyone else's. I'm really sorry if I made you feel bad.

[pbjelly]

dont feel like shit! its the holidays...we all do stuff we regret...i regret a lot is well...u didnt make me feel bad about the test scores, i just thought your scroes were incredibly well...and wow i have such smart friends!

[lapinguina]

Casey, I don't think you're any of those things. I like you and I think you are a fun girl to be around.

Sure, there will always be superficial friends and mean, selfish people. But don't hurt yourself by thinking everyone hates you... there also will always be people who love you and care about you and don't want you to be sad.

And I know I may not be your first choice when itr comes to inviting people to parties or calling up on the phone or whatever, but I am one of those people who cares about you. And it'd take an awful lot to make me hate you.

<3 <3 <3