Hating the rollercoaster ride of life...
I am all over the place. One moment life is fine, the next I’m ready to jump off a bridge or something.
Right this second, I’m OK. Not “great”, but not suicidal either. I do need to get dressed and get on with my day. The pain in my neck is still irritating, even if it’s not life-threatening. Definitely slows me down though. What I really need to do is make a very detailed list of what I want to get done before Mr. Cruise gets here. I keep having all these little thoughts of needing to do this or that, but my mind goes blank later when I try to remember what those things might be.
Fuck, I wish I had some energy. That would make this all a lot easier. I just can’t seem to get my ass in gear enough to get ANYTHING done. I ran my dishwasher for the first time in a week like two days ago…do you think I’ve actually emptied that dishwasher yet? I guess the quick and obvious solution would be to go find something with some caffeine…but I swear I’m becoming immune to that stuff. It doesn’t seem to do much of anything for me these days.
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Okay, now dressed. In spite of having zero energy, I still feel kind of restless today. I need to figure out a new routine or something. Being home has its perks, but damn, is it boring. I feel like I have all the time in the world to get stuff done…yet nothing ever happens. I need to work on this. I think I’ll feel a little better if I give myself some purpose.
Right this second, I’m OK. Not “great”, but not suicidal either. I do need to get dressed and get on with my day. The pain in my neck is still irritating, even if it’s not life-threatening. Definitely slows me down though. What I really need to do is make a very detailed list of what I want to get done before Mr. Cruise gets here. I keep having all these little thoughts of needing to do this or that, but my mind goes blank later when I try to remember what those things might be.
Fuck, I wish I had some energy. That would make this all a lot easier. I just can’t seem to get my ass in gear enough to get ANYTHING done. I ran my dishwasher for the first time in a week like two days ago…do you think I’ve actually emptied that dishwasher yet? I guess the quick and obvious solution would be to go find something with some caffeine…but I swear I’m becoming immune to that stuff. It doesn’t seem to do much of anything for me these days.
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Okay, now dressed. In spite of having zero energy, I still feel kind of restless today. I need to figure out a new routine or something. Being home has its perks, but damn, is it boring. I feel like I have all the time in the world to get stuff done…yet nothing ever happens. I need to work on this. I think I’ll feel a little better if I give myself some purpose.