i fell in love with seattle. i really dont want to be in eugene any longer. im so sick of the same old thing all the time. i feel like i want some kind of change. i dont know what but im bored. i've been bored for a long time and it just gets worse till i feel like im gonna explode. maybe i will. one day ill just pop. or maybe..ill get away in time ( Read more... )

i had to be home at like 9 his morning so last night esther set the alarm on her phone for 9. but then this morning i had a dream that esther was telling me i slept through the alarm so then i woke up and thought it had really happened. so i left. but..when i got home it was 5:45!!!! ahh so i went to sleep and it was sad.

kinda sick ( Read more... )

i had a really good day.and a really good diner. mmmmmm

i read lorleis latest update and it made me really happy. it was really sweet!so that got me thinking. and now my thought are everywhere. im gonna do all my homework tonigt. i promised myself i would. i got like half of it done and then i was like wow this is dumb and stopped but im gonna do more when im dont with this. so im done.

WHY AM I ALWAYS SICK?!?!?!?!?! im starting to think that theres somthing seriously wrong with me. i have a kidney infection and so today i had to spend 4 hours at the hospital.me and dad played rock paper scissors while we waited for the doctor for a half hour. when he came he gave me a shot of antibiotics and a i have to take more for 10 days. ( Read more... )

life is fantastic ( Read more... )

ahhhhhh i have to get blood drawn tomorrow!!!! im sooo scared!!!! i cant eat from midnight to 8 tomorrow morning!!!! and i have to take some pills to make me happy while they do it!!! thats sooo much wore to me cause i will have no control of myself!! i think htye are giving me valium which is kinda funny really. they doctor said i would be "loopy ( Read more... )

last night i ended throwing up twice. that was gross. my mom thinks i have food poisoning. i bought garden state yesterday that was very good. i was gonna go to my grandfathers house for lasagna dinner cause hes old and dying but then i couldnt. im really sad. i is ellie. she was just here but i already miss her. i think i should just move to ( Read more... )

i want to draw. i want to paint. i want to make clay things. i want to take pictures. i want to dance. i want to sing. i want to make sculptures. i want to make music. i want to be in the rain. i wan to be in the sun. i want to express my self and be interested in something.
i just have to make it a reality.