well it's going for 6:00 in da morning n im still up.... another night of lost thoughts and dreaming with open eyes. damn this vampiric nature of mine, must have been the full moon or somthin, oh well... it was much enjoyed n-e way. one thing is for sure my music collection at this rate is gonna be pretty impressive in about a week. which reminds ( Read more... )

hey guys and girls, howz it hanggin... me low loose and full of juice as always... lol. n-e ways im sitting here listening to tunes and waiting for the doc to call me. other than that life is pretty boring :0 (yawn). i want somethin to do, but there is nothing around cept clicks and whistles in my head. suprisingly i feel lonely, which is very ( Read more... )

i have come to the conclusion that i need to expand my friend list, cause there's never anything new to read or respond to, thank god someone's been keeping in touch, it keeps me occupied, and brings me a smile, you know who you are, yeah you, thanx again... but anyways i guess i find out my surgery dates tomorrow (YAY!!) it's about f/in time, ( Read more... )

an elemental design of controled chaos takes my mind ( Read more... )

hello mr journal, i am bored! it's 2:49 in da mornin and like i said im really F-ing bored. my head's getting worse, i can tell :(... but im still positive about the whole thing. it got bigger, im just hopin that my nerves arn't already damaged. (sigh) life is so crazy. last night i actually got to go out. bruce called from dave's house, then jeff ( Read more... )

well its been awhile since i updated this thing but im back and here to inform everyone of my visit to philly. the doc gave me tests for my hearing, nose, throat, coordination, and a bunch of other weird stuff. the tumor is located on my brainstem and is about two centemeters around. he said there is a 95% chance that they can remove it without ( Read more... )

Well my summer took a complete u turn. right now my good buddy joe is living my dream. but thats good cause he deserves it. it makes me happy to know that he is out there having the time of his life right now. everything for me has been like a dream. a lot of people are worried about my brain tumor, but the optimism that everyone has had has been ( Read more... )

today is the day that it all falls apart ( Read more... )

well i guess im unsure on how i feel today, im still upset about not being able to go to disney, but none the less im here awaiting my fate. i don't know what to expect anymore. i feel so tired, my emotions have become disorted figmints of my imagination. i don't know whats real. on the upside my friends have been with me and i know that no matter ( Read more... )

Well everyone as you know im suposed to be leaving for florida soon. and as most of you know ive been having problems with my head recently. well i finally got the results from my MRI, and the news i guess ins't the greatest. basically the doctor said that i have a brain tumor. the good news is it's not cancerous, the bad news.... i cant go to ( Read more... )