'piece a chit!'
so. ive come to the realization that everytime i right in here, i right bc im procrastinating something - or - im just that damn bored. tonights excuse - the first one. im staring at a blank word document (actually it has about 4 sentances!) with no ambition to write this 5-8 page paper on the new overtime laws affecting non-exempt employees. so bland. dont get me wrong, i think that topic kicks ass. i just hate learning and writing boring papers. i would much rather talk about what i learned and discuss the implications and issues that are evolving from it(them). learning on 'my watch' then someone elses is a better idea then what is going on now. thats why i dig museums, historical sites, art galleries, and reading because i get a sense of fufillment that no college textbook can give me. like damn i learned something on my own. that rocks. and going into debt for that thing called 'book knowledge' is a piece of shit. ive learned more from my real life job and experiences then anything ive learned in college. maybe i got better at jeopardy...but thats a different subject =D
btw. i watched ken jennings throughout his running on jeopardy. and i missed the fucking last episode. man. i was heated. you will be missed ken <3 lol.
school and work have sucked the life out of me. i knew it would though. it always does towards the end of the semester since each prof usually has at least a lengthy paper and a final to complete. of course you have the whole semester for the paper -- but who the fuck does it in the begining ;p the beg. months are the omg there is nothing due! lets party months. now its the shit i havent slept in 24 hours bc ive been at the library all night feeling and the damn its saturday night and im typing a paper routine. blah. and friends. what are they? lol. i mean i know what they are. but during this season of madness they sadly get put on the back burner. that probably sounds like a bitch statement but its true that my school is my number one priority. not only do i need it for my future but IM SHELLING OUT THE CASH. college is FUCKING EXPENSIVE. mind you that i go to the damn near cheapest for year college in the state -- BUT ITS STILL 8 GRAND. ive decided not to go to grad school in the fall. that was one of my hardest decisions. =[ but my monthly loan amount after i graduate is going to be somewhere in the 200's and im not going to be able to afford that and more bills that i dont have now plus another 30 grand loan. it is only going to take me close to a little over 2 years to pay it off. 25 is a good age to start grad school...right?
you dont have to read this rant if you dont want to...bc it might get a little confusing...but i NEED to get it off my chest. this one class im in. i have a HUGE group project. my group members procrastinate more then i do. thats really fucking scary. but my group assigned me 'leader'. we really dont have a 'leader' but they have put me in that position by not doing shit. so i have to take initiative if anything gets done. i asked people suggestions for a topic. i got i dont knows. and you pick one. so yea. i picked one. they bitched. i said new suggestions? i got -- no, i dont care, etc. so I emailed the teacher our topic, I proceeded to divide the work up among the team members in which i got NO response. so finally last week i decided i would pick what i was writing on and go for it. the beg. of this week i still did not hear from anyone. THE FUCKING THING IS DUE THIS SUNDAY. i finally get a email from someone saying all assholish -- you know the project is due this sunday right. like what the fuck you asshole. i bitched dude out so bad. then all the other emails came pooring in about how it was due 'soon'. i simply said -- i will be at the library to do this saturday at 11am. if you are there -- your there -- if not -- too bad. it just erks me how people can be sooooooo lienant with their education. i remember in the beg. of the semester i wanted to try and have the project divided up so all we had to do was our part and not worry about the whole. i asked the group members to meet up for 20 mins one night and one said -- i cant im going to the bar. the other said its night with the girlfriend and the other made up some bullshit excuse. i was in awe. i cant wait until peer evaluations cuz they are gunna get a new asshole riped.
so anyway. good book = how the light get in. read.
katie- i still love you even though you are a bush supporter. i actually love people more for actually having an opinion in our political system. i mean an opinion is something that we hold dearly with confidence but it really isnt supported by proof or facts. like for instance the government -- some of us have opinions that republicans are more for the people then democrats and vice versa. but we dont know this for fact. none of us are actually sitting in the oval office or in the senate seeing what is going on and what is being said. im not going to argue or fight with someone just bc they have a different belief set then i do. thats what makes this world go 'round is bc of the differences. thats the main reason im angry at politics. if you arent a majority then life sucks for you bc your voice isnt heard.
its those people out there that say i dont care and undecidedness that are weak.
it only takes one person to start a revolution =D
this entry has given me a headache.
im off to write my paper.