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Tulips
Went out to see some daylight this afternoon. Looked like an eskimo between all these people who were dressed like it was a hot summer day. Then İ realised, it really WAS hot. İ was just getting over a cold so İ didn't dare to strip down. İ went to Starbucks, because İ was starving and got a coffee, then went to the park. Searching for the bench, ( Read more... ) -
A Teacher's Homework
İ had a very stressfull week because İ had early classes every day and came home very late in the evening. İ think İ haven't mentioned before that İ give private lessons. Right now İ have a little german kid (he's nine, like my borther) who needs support with his homework and he's being very complicated. He is very difficult to motivate and İ ( Read more... ) -
Ars rhetorica
Today was the first time since İ've moved here İ cried about my failing medical career. The one who almost begun and have already ended. Hello, me, who has not been around anything sicker than a cold for quite a while now. They say you get bitter from failing. İ don't think so. There is no bitterness. Just constant sadness. Which leads to tears of ( Read more... ) -
Good Night
Tired, but annoyed of going to bed like an old woman, so staying awake till İ drop to the ground. There's nothing else than horror movies on TV, so i'm watching VH1. But it's 'Boogie Night' and it really starts to get on my nerves.. OMG now they're playing Walking On Sunshine.. This reminds me of that girl in Highschool İ used to hate because..well ( Read more... ) -
'A city full of chumps over there, can't see the diamond that you are'
İ eat in the living room, in front of the computer or the TV. Waterglasses everywhere. Bowls. Whatever. Eating stuff that is not even healthy. Meeting no one, as always. But İ'm an optimist since yesterday. Meaning: İ don't hate people anymore. They seemed so disgusting and strange and not worth knowing. Then İ had there was this thing. İ felt ( Read more... ) -
Speak İn Tongues
İ thought: There better be a godd reason for you to write another post today. But then İ thought: What the heck, why am İ torturing myself with these kind of restrictions? Who is this higher call which leads me to do something? To follow moral values? Why am İ listening to it ( Read more... ) -
Hegel and Oranges
Today, İ had a very serious conversation with myself. İ explained myself why İ do things the way İ do them. Why İ am where İ chose to be, why İ chose that place and explained that İ'm never standing still. Even if it feels like that sometimes. İ told myself,, that İ was never again losing myself in judgemental illnesses. That İ enjoy being and ( Read more... ) -
Standing still while running
İ wonder when all of this started. Me being so over-emotional and people being so annoying. Me never knowing, when İ reached the right path. İ wish İ'd be less insecure. Always losing my nerves, always furious when not getting where İ want, exactly the way İ want. Life's just not that simple. İ really do know that. İ feel some kind of inner ( Read more... ) -
Oscar Wilde vs Gossip Girl
İ've fallen in love with English Literature of the 19th century. And it's not all about P&P and S&S (Yeah... İ don't think İ need to write out their names on full, right?). Because aren't we all sick of these annual Jane Austen adaptations? But İ've just finished 'An İdeal Husband' and 'The İmportance Of Being Earnest' and the latter İ may be ( Read more... ) -
Strolling through New York
Just walked along Fifth Avenue with Google Maps. İt's amazing what one can do without moving his ass lately. İ've even listened to Sinatra crying about New York on YouTube while İ was checking out the Shops on Broaday (Zara, Banana Republic) and got a strange reminder that the yellow school busses are not just a joke in Hollywood-movies but are ( Read more... )