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peekaydee

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Dec 15, 2009 15:52

❝permanon post❞Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. Say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me about your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. Tell me about what's inside of you when you're reading through these entries on your friends list, and tell me why ( Read more... )

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anonymous December 15 2009, 21:02:20 UTC

Hi!

anonymous December 15 2009, 21:04:59 UTC

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU

... y'know. just thought you should know. :)

anonymous December 15 2009, 21:13:07 UTC

NOT OP
but agreed!

anonymous December 15 2009, 22:16:28 UTC

Sometimes I honestly think about going into my grandfathers closet and shooting myself in the head with one of his guns. I imagine every detail of the act. The feeling of the metal key between my fingers as I unlock the case. The heavy weight of the gun in my palms. The cold of the barrel against my temple. I think of the way the blood and brain matter would spread and splash against my belongings. I wonder how long it would take for someone to notice I'm gone, since I spend days locked in my room anyway. I wonder if I'd feel anything...

I think about doing it everyday, even if I'm happy. Maybe especially when I'm happy, because I feel guilty for enjoying anything. I'm a worthless person who hasn't accomplished anything in my life that warrants me being happy. All I am is a pathetic drain on my family and friends.

I know I'm going to do it eventually, I just don't know when.

peekaydee December 16 2009, 03:04:11 UTC

Please don't kill yourself. Please. For one thing, you are not worthless. You are absolutely far from it. If you are loved, then you have accomplished something. And people would notice. When you think of this, think about the people who are closest to your heart. They would miss you. They would cry. I bet you that the last thing anyone wants is to make their friends and family cry. Just. Please don't kill yourself, if you do then you won't ever get your life back. It may be hard but if you just try try try, then you'll be able to do anything. It's okay, I'll be here for you❤

anonymous December 16 2009, 02:24:38 UTC

Friends forever, dear ~

OHSHIT I SOUND SO EMO ;_; anonymous December 16 2009, 10:51:28 UTC

I know I'm not supposed to complain. I do well in school, I have an awesome group of friends, my family is together, blah blah blah. My life is going smoothly and yet... I feel like there's something missing.

I'm not performing as excellently as I'd like in school. My potential is squandered because of my laziness. I love my friends... but why do I always get the feeling that they don't value me? I don't think they take me seriously at all, and sometimes I feel like I am just alone in this world.

I hate it that I can't complain. I feel as if I have no right to. I feel like a whiny, picky little bitch who doesn't value what she has. Maybe I am. I don't know anymore.

...I want to escape. To get out of here and see the world. I will, once I'm older. I'm leaving and I'm not looking back.