Fic: We Used To Be Friends
Title: We Used To Be Friends
Author: pegm81484, but you can call me Paula
Pairing/Character: Logan/Veronica
Word Count: ~10,600... it’s a whopper lol
Rating: NC-17 for the sex
Summary: What would have happened if Veronica had stuck around after Aaron was stabbed in “An Echolls Family Christmas?”
Spoilers: This is set after 1x10, but you should know the characters and what happens to them on the show throughout the first season.
Warnings: In my VM world, the characters curse more. There also may be violence and sexual situations. In addition, I try to normally be good with characterizations, but I took a lot of liberties with this fic!
Disclaimer: Rob Thomas and The CW own all these characters, I own almost nothing. If you sue me, the only thing you could possible get is my dog. Please don’t take my dog!
Author’s Note: I had planned for this to be a Christmas present to all my readers (you know all 5 of you lol), but alas the actual holidays impeded that idea. I hope you like it all the same and Happy Easter instead!!!
AN #2: Thank you as always to my fabulous beta, candlewaxdreams. We both agree that Logan and Veronica’s relationship is too rushed in this story, but we don’t care all the same!!!
AN #3: We’re going to pretend that Cassidy didn’t give Veronica Chlamydia.
*****
“You didn’t have to stay.”
“No, I didn’t.”
“Then why did you?” Logan didn’t look up from his video game. Maybe if he ignored her, she would go away and he could be alone like he wanted.
Veronica took a deep breath. She knew her next statement was bound to make him ridicule her, but it didn’t matter- he had to know how she really felt. “Because a long time ago we used to be friends.”
“The operative words being used to.” Logan finally glanced in Veronica’s direction. He would never tell her how adorable he thought she looked in her hoodies and butch boots these days, but that never stopped him from thinking about it.
“Yeah, well, you and the rest of the ‘09ers may be able to pretend that everything before junior year didn’t happen, but it’s not that easy for me.” Veronica knew she was opening up way too much, but something about being in this house during the holidays and alone with Logan made her want to connect with him again.
“It wasn’t easy.” Logan mumbled the words, not sure whether he wanted Veronica to actually hear them or not.
“What was that?” Veronica took a step closer to Logan where he was sitting on the floor leaning against the foot of his bed. He had paused the game, which led her to believe he was at least pretending to actually listen to her.
“It wasn’t that easy for me either.”
“Really? You could have fooled me.”
“Yeah well I’ve gotten really good at honing my acting skills over the years. Like just a few hours ago, I acted like the frightened son and I acted like I was relieved when my mother called to say my father would be okay. In reality, I couldn’t give two shits either way.” Logan had stood up while he was talking and was gesturing emphatically with his hands the whole time.
“Well maybe you’re not as good of an actor as you think- I never once believe that you were frightened during the attack or relieved after it was over. Perhaps you were thankful during and irritated afterward, but that’s about it.” Veronica stepped closer to Logan and was staring him down. Well at least she was staring him down the best she could since she was a whole foot shorter than him.
Logan chuckled a little at her observations. “Or maybe you’re one of the few people in my life who can actually see my father for the asshole he really is.”
Veronica smiled in return and gestured between the two of them. “Something we can finally agree on!”
“Well if I remember correctly we used to always agree on food, too. If you’re sticking around we might as well go downstairs and see what the caterers left for us to eat.”
Veronica turned and followed Logan as he walked out of the room. “I like the way you think, young man.”
*****
“So I noticed you and Duncan talking to each other earlier. Everything okay between you two?” Logan was aiming for charmingly nonchalant, but was pretty sure his voice was more awkwardly concerned.
Veronica smirked at him and took a drink of her soda before answering him. “Be careful, Logan, people might think you care.”
“Well people may say a lot of things about our relationship, but they’d be wrong if they ever thought I didn’t care.” Logan took a bite of his sandwich in an attempt to avoid eye contact with Veronica. He should have known it wouldn’t work. When he looked up again at her, she was staring with her mouth slightly open and a weird look of confusion in her eyes.
“I’m having a hard time believing that you’ve always cared about me. I remember the things you said… the things you did. Those weren’t the actions of a man who cared about me.” Veronica was weirded out for many reasons, the first of which was definitely that Logan had brought up his feelings for her. The second was that he was acting like it was no big deal that he apparently cared about her.
Logan smiled at her. “I never said that I cared about you in a positive way.”
Veronica was even more confused now. “I don’t know what that means, Logan.”
“Okay, well, from the time we were 12 until… Lilly died, I cared about you as a friend. After that, I cared about you, but it was more in a ‘how can I hurt Veronica today as much as possible?’ kind of way.” When Veronica’s eyes began to water and she had to look down Logan felt like shit and wanted to stop, but knew he couldn’t. “I know that makes me a horrible asshole and I’m sorry, but honestly Veronica, I felt more betrayed by you than anybody in my entire life. And I’ve been betrayed by a lot of people.”
Veronica wiped furiously at her eyes. She could not believe that she was crying in front of Logan Echolls, it just wasn’t allowed anymore. You must not let ‘09ers see your pain. It was her freaking mantra for God’s sake! “You think you own the market on being betrayed?”
Logan opened his mouth to defend himself, but Veronica halted his efforts by putting her hand up. “No, you got your chance- now it’s my turn. How dare you? How dare you make it seem like I betrayed you? Lilly died and I lost everyone. Within a few months I lost my boyfriend, my best friend, my mother and all of my friends.”
“You chose to lose us, Veronica. I gave you the choice and you chose your father over us.” Logan wanted her to remember that this was just as much her fault as it was his- not that he believed that at all. It was just easier to keep up the charade than admit defeat, especially to Veronica.
“All I fucking had left was my father. How was I supposed to abandon the one person in my life who loved me unconditionally?” The tears were freely flowing down Veronica’s cheeks by now and she couldn’t even bother wiping them off. If he wanted this fight, then he sure as hell was going to get it. “I’m sorry that my father isn’t an abusive bastard like yours, but some of us actually love our parents and want them to be integral parts of our lives.”
Logan looked liked he had been sucker punched after that comment and Veronica was almost ashamed it was all her doing. She really didn’t want to bring up Aaron’s abuse like that and she definitely didn’t want to use that information to hurt Logan.
“I…I d-didn’t know you knew… about the… about my fath-father.” Logan was mindlessly rearranging things on the countertop now. He was barely lucid enough to know what he was saying, never mind process what he was doing.
Veronica folded her hands in her lap. She wished that she could get off of her stool and go around the island to hug Logan, but was positive it would end badly. Sure she could spit venom like the best of them, she just hated the aftermath of her poison.
“Logan.” When Logan wouldn’t look at her, Veronica called him a little louder, “Logan- look I’m sorry. That was wrong of me to say. I never should have brought up your father like that. It’s just that-”
Veronica didn’t get to finish her sentence because Logan cut her off. “How long have you known?”
“Almost three years.”
Logan looked up at the ceiling as if it was going to provide some answers for him. “Huh. All this time I thought I hid it so well. Guess I’m not as good of an actor as I thought.”
“No, it’s not that. It was the summer before our freshman year and we were all supposed to go to the beach. You had cancelled, but Lilly called and asked if I would come to your house and pick up a CD she left here. I guess you guys weren’t talking at the time or something. I assumed that’s why you weren’t coming with us, but then when I got here I went out to the backyard and saw you laying face down on a raft in your pool. When I came closer I could see all the welts on your back. I put two and two together and left without talking to you. I was a horrible friend for never bringing it up. I just always assumed that if you wanted to talk, you would have told one of us about it.”
“Lilly knew.”
Veronica gasped loudly. “What?”
“Lilly knew, Veronica, and she never gave a crap. She would still come over and flirt with my dad and pretend like everything was just peachy keen in the Echolls residence. I’m pretty sure DK knows also and is just too passive to mention it.”
“Oh my God, Logan, we’re all such horrible friends. I thought… I don’t know what I thought, but it doesn’t excuse my actions, or lack of them.” By this point Veronica had gotten up and was standing a few feet away from Logan.
“Please don’t, Veronica. We both know that I’ve been equally cruel to you, if not more so.”
“Yeah.” Veronica knew that she may never have this opportunity again so she put all her cards on the table. “Cruel enough to drug me?”
Logan’s guilt over drugging Duncan came to head and he lashed out at Veronica. “What the fuck are you talking about?” If he was being honest with himself, he was also angry at the fact that someone would do that to Veronica. No matter how far he took his jokes and comments, he never meant for her to be physically harmed.
“Do you remember Shelley’s end of the year party in December?” Veronica tried to slow down her breathing; she was pretty sure that Logan thought she was hyperventilating. Plus, for some reason all those months of not showing anyone her tears had led the floodgates to open and she felt like Sally Field in Steel Magnolias.
Logan moved closer to Veronica; he wanted them to still be friends enough for him to comfort her when she was crying. In reality he knew that she would freak out if he touched her right now and he was still kind of pissed that she accused him of drugging her. Also, he was mad at himself that her inadvertently being drugged could have to do with him; he did have drugs at that party after all. “Yeah, of course I do. I couldn’t believe it when you showed up.”
“I… I thought that if I showed all of you that I was still strong, that you would leave me alone. My plan backfired big time.” Veronica took the tissue that Logan handed her. She tried to wipe the majority of the tears off her face, but knew it was a futile effort. “After I got there and no one would talk to me I decided to just walk around, but I ended up seeing Duncan make out with some girl and I just couldn’t handle it. Somebody held a cup out and I started drinking from it. I thought it was just rum and coke, but after a few minutes I was really dizzy and didn’t know what was wrong.”
Logan was captivated by Veronica’s story and couldn’t help it anymore- he moved closer to where she was standing and put his hand on her upper arm. When she didn’t immediately shake him off, he led her to the dining room table. Chances were this was a ‘let’s-be-sitting-while-this-unfolds’ kind of conversation.
“Anyway I thought I was going to be sick, so I went outside for some air. I ended up lying down on a lounge chair outside. I don’t really remember much after-”
“I think I can fill in some of the gaps.” Logan knew telling Veronica could possibly end whatever little connection they had left, but not telling her would be worse in the long run. “Dick and I went outside because someone had said there was a girl naked in the hot tub. Anyway, when we got outside she was gone and Dick spotted you passed out on the chair. In his infinite wisdom and my drunken state he thought doing salt licks off your body would be a good idea.”
Veronica was crying even harder now if possible and Logan felt like the worst scum on the earth. He reached out to touch her face, but she flinched and he knew he had to finish even if she would never trust him again. “I’m so sorry. I know how wrong I was, but if we’re being completely honest, part of the reason I agreed was because I was just so damn mad at you. You had chosen your father over us and then you had the nerve to come to the party and you looked so good and I felt like I was dying and it just wasn’t fair.”
Logan realized he had slipped with the ‘looked so good’ comment when Veronica stopped staring at her hands long enough to look him in the eyes after he said it. They could discuss that later, now he had to forge through his recollection. “So Dick got all the stuff together and we started doing body shots. Then after a minute or two Casey and Sean came over and joined in. I guess that’s when Duncan saw us because he came over and reamed me out for taking advantage of you. Which he was totally right for doing.”
Veronica wiped a few of the tears from her cheeks and looked up at Logan. She could tell he was genuinely sorry and hated himself right now. She still didn’t trust him but she knew when he was telling the truth or not. “I guess I could forgive you for that. But that still doesn’t explain about the drugs.”
“Yeah well it gets worse.” Logan cringed a little as he said the words and hoped Veronica didn’t slap him. “Duncan came over and helped you up, but then we were talking and he just hadn’t been himself for so long and I just wanted my friend back and…” Logan wasn’t sure how to admit what he did so he let his sentence trail off.
“So what, Logan? What did you do?” Veronica’s voice pleaded with him to answer. She had to know once and for all what happened at that party.
“I took some of the liquid X that I had scored in Tijuana the weekend before and slipped it into his cup. I just- I just thought that if he could loosen up a little, he would be Duncan again. But I swear to God, Veronica, I never gave any of it to you.”
Veronica got up from the table and walked over to the kitchen island. With her back to Logan she asked, “Why would you buy drugs in the first place?”
“Because we were supposed to go to a rave the weekend before, but Dick was punished so we didn’t go.”
“Who else had drugs at the party?”
Veronica still wouldn’t look at Logan, but he figured it was better than her leaving. “Luke and Sean, but I’m pretty sure Luke gave his stash to Dick at the party.”
“Why would Luke do that?” Veronica had turned around now and Logan could tell she was trying to fill in all the missing pieces by the perplexed look on her face.
“Umm, I’m not really sure because I wasn’t there during the conversation, but I think Dick wanted to drug Madison since she hadn’t been putting out lately. I realize how big of an asshole he is, but what does this have to do with you? What happened to you that night?”
As Logan was finishing his statement, Veronica realized who drugged her and sank to the ground, her body racked with sobs. Panicked, Logan knelt down in front of her. “Veronica, what the hell is going on? Veronica? You’re really starting to scare me! Veronica!
“It was Dick,” Veronica hiccupped out. “D-Dick drugged me. I drank the drink that was meant for Madison… he drugged me and that’s why…” Veronica couldn’t even bring herself to finish the sentence, she was sobbing so hard now.
Logan pulled Veronica into his arms because he didn’t know what else to do. “Veronica, that’s why what? What happened that night after Duncan carried you away from us?”
Veronica buried her face in Logan’s neck. She didn’t even know if she liked Logan right now and it was his friends that did this to her, but she had never really been able to grieve for what happened. She had never known the details around that night and she still didn’t know who raped her, but at least she knew how. Although she never ruled Logan out as being the one that drugged her, she never once thought he was the one who had raped her. It was just some instinctual feeling inside her knowing he couldn’t do that to anybody, especially not someone who he once cared about.
When her sobs didn’t subside, Logan began stroking Veronica’s back. He wasn’t sure what the protocol for comforting friends-turned-enemies-turned-something else was, but he didn’t care as long as she stopped crying and explained what was going on. Even though Veronica was always sweet and pure, he had a hard time believing that just being drugged made her feel like this. There had to be something more. “Veronica, please tell me what happened that night. I want to help you.”
Veronica let out a laugh that was anything but humorous. “There isn’t really much to do now. Although I probably could have used you when I walked home the next morning, wondering who had stolen my virginity the night before.”
She said it so casually that it took Logan a second to realize the implication of her words. “Wait? Are you saying you were raped at Shelley’s party?”
Veronica’s head was still on Logan’s shoulder and she didn’t have the energy to move it so she just nodded.
Logan forcibly took her face in his hands so that he could look in her eyes. “I’m so sorry that that happened to you. And I will do everything in my power to help you. We’ll figure out who did this to you and make them pay.” Logan continued after Veronica let out a little moan of weariness. “I know I’ve done a lot of shitty things to you and I’ve let my friends say things to you, but you have to know I would never ever do that to you. I would never have left you alone that night if I thought that was going to happen. You have to believe me when I say I didn’t know that anyone was planning that.”
Veronica put her hands over Logan’s on her face and nodded. “I know you wouldn’t do that. I just- I’ve never told anyone about that night before except for Lamb.”
“Wait, if you told Lamb about being raped, why weren’t any of us questioned? I know we would have all been on the top of your list.”
Veronica dropped her hands while pulling Logan’s down off her face as she looked down and steeled herself to tell him the other humiliating detail about that night. “He didn’t believe me. He thought I was lying because of everything that had happened.”
“Fucking asshole!” Logan was so mad he wanted to go and beat the shit out of the current sheriff.
Veronica chuckled a little. “Yeah, I agree.” Then she slumped back down against Logan’s chest.
“So maybe I’m going to sound like an insensitive jerk, but are you okay?”
“What do you mean?” Veronica looked up at him without moving.
“Like… you didn’t get anything from whoever did this to you, right?” Logan felt Veronica stiffen against him. “I swear, Veronica, I just was asking as someone who cares about you- not to mock you at a later date. I would never do that… not anymore.”
“No, I didn’t get any STDs. I made the doctor check like 5 times and I think I took a pregnancy test every week for almost a month after it happened.”
“Well I’m glad at least you didn’t have to deal with any of those things. That could have been a crippling daily reminder.”
“Yeah, I just have my terror of all things related to sex and intimacy to deal with now.” Veronica closed her eyes and moaned a little bit after admitting that. It was one thing for Logan to know what happened; he didn’t need to know her hang-ups. “I’m sorry, that was an over share.”
Logan brushed some of the hair out of Veronica’s face. “It is more than understandable that you would be afraid to be with someone now. I’m just sorry that I made all those comments about your promiscuity. If it helps, I never really believed them. I was just a stupid jerk who was going with what everyone else was saying.”
“That’s okay, the whore comments never really hurt as much as the mom ones did.” Veronica looked up at Logan and saw how visibly pained he was with how much hurt he had caused. She lightly stroked his jaw. “Hey, I gave as good as I got.”
Logan closed his eyes briefly as Veronica caressed his skin; he could not believe how good it felt to have her touch him. When he opened his eyes, she looked just as affected by the contact as he was. “No, you didn’t. We both know that you had a lot more ammo you could have used than you did.”
Veronica knew he was talking about Aaron’s abuse so she responded in kind. “I would never do that to you.” As she finished speaking, she leaned towards him and chastely kissed him. The kiss landed on the corner of his mouth. Even Veronica wasn’t sure whether it was meant to be on his mouth or his cheek.
Logan was surprised by Veronica’s move; he thought that after everything she had told him tonight, a kiss would be the last thing she gave him. A black eye seemed much more likely. He was never one to let a good opportunity go by though. Moving his shoulder slightly so that she was in a better position, Logan kissed Veronica for real.
They were kissing for a few seconds when Veronica slowly slid her tongue along Logan’s bottom lip. Knowing what she was doing, he opened his mouth slightly to give her access. Aware that he was kissing a girl he had dreamed about since he was 12 years old made this one of the most erotic moments of Logan’s life. He took over the kiss and let his tongue explore her mouth in depth. He battled with her tongue for a little while and then ran his along the roof of Veronica’s mouth. She obviously liked it judging by the gasping moan she let out.
After a few more seconds the two broke apart, struggling for air. Logan ran his hands through Veronica’s hair while staring at her. He thought she had never looked more beautiful. Her eyes were still a little glassy from crying so much, but they were also filled with lust; her lips were swollen and red from his kisses. Logan was about to tell her so when she spoke first, “Wow. That was quite a kiss.”
He smirked at how cute she was. “Yes, I’d have to agree that was a good kiss. Top ten in my life.”
She laughed and playfully punched him in the arm. “Screw you! That was a great kiss. I should be in the top three at least.”
Jokingly rubbing at his injured arm, Logan responded, “Fine I’ll bump my 18 year old babysitter down to number four if it will make you happy. I was young and inexperienced then anyway.”
“Eww, Logan. Tell me you didn’t actually make out with your babysitter. That’s so clichéd and perverty.”
Veronica was becoming more and more aware of the fact that they were still sitting on the floor of his kitchen. She was still in his lap and that kiss had definitely affected him, if the beginning of his erection was any indication. Normally, Veronica would have jumped up and away from a guy in a situation like this, but for some reason she felt safe. Maybe it was that Logan was who she was sitting with and no matter how big of a man-whore he may be, he would never force her. Or maybe it was that she liked knowing little ol’ Veronica could have such an awesome effect on someone as experienced as Logan with just a kiss.
“Okay, how am I the pervert if she was the adult? I was just an innocent child who was taken advantage of.”
Veronica giggled. “Yeah okay, I believe that. You were never innocent.”
Logan chuckled in response. Veronica shifted slightly in his lap and he had to force himself not to moan at how good the friction felt on his dick. When she moved again, he looked at her and saw the mirth in her eyes. Logan’s voice was strained when he asked, “You’re doing this on purpose, aren’t you?”
Veronica smirked in reply. “I have no idea what you’re talking about.” And to contradict herself, she moved again, purposely rubbing her ass against him.
Logan didn’t hold back his moan this time. “Uhhh, Veronica, you’re really going to want to stop that before something embarrassing happens.” When she didn’t stop moving, he placed both his hands on her hips and physically restrained her from moving.
In her brain, Veronica knew that she should feel frightened by the restrictive hold he had on her, but the rest of her body was tingling in anticipation. Logan began to trace patterns on the fabric of her jeans and Veronica felt like the skin underneath was burning. He was barely even touching her, but her nipples were tightening under her clothes and there was a distinct ache between her legs. She hadn’t felt that ache in almost two years; Long before she was raped, before her best friend was murdered and before she broke up with Duncan. There had been a game of Spin the Bottle at her 15th birthday that required Logan and Veronica to kiss. It hadn’t been as explosive as the one they shared a few minutes before, but it had done just as much damage to her body.
Just remembering made Veronica reach up and kiss Logan again. This time there was a passion and urgency that had been missing before. Veronica wasn’t sure what she was searching for as she explored Logan’s mouth, but she wasn’t going to stop until she found it. Not to be outdone, Logan gave as good as he got; it had been a long time since he wanted to just make out with someone.
While they were still kissing, Veronica managed to swing her leg so that she was now straddling Logan. His hands were frantically roaming underneath her shirt, rubbing up and down until Veronica thought she would go crazy. Knowing he was waiting for permission, Veronica broke the kiss and breathed out, “Jesus Logan, just take the damn thing off me already.”
Logan’s hands were practically ripping the shirt off before Veronica was able to even finish. When she was finally free of the garment, she thought she should feel more self-conscious to be in front of him with just her bra on, but she wasn’t. Logan began kissing her clavicle and throat. Light butterfly kisses were turning into wet, sucking ones that made Veronica’s breath shallow. She gripped onto the back of his head when he told her how beautiful she was. Logan slowly made his way towards Veronica’s nipples, kissing and biting ever so softly as he went. When he thought he had tortured her enough, he leaned down and blew on her right nipple. It pebbled just the way he wanted and he took it into his mouth. When Veronica gripped his head a little harder, he gave in and sucked on the pink bud.
Logan was about to switch to the other side when Veronica forced his head up for another blinding kiss. It was like she was trying to consume him through her kisses. He had never felt so wanted in his whole life. Veronica began rubbing herself against Logan through their jeans and they both lost it. Letting out loud moans at the same time, they were forced to look at each other and started laughing.
“I have to say, Logan, this not how I imagined my evening ending.” Veronica was playing with the hair at the nape of his neck.
Logan looked up at the clock on the wall and replied, “No worries, it’s officially tomorrow. Is it how you thought you would start today?”
“Not really, but let’s go upstairs anyway.” Logan willingly followed Veronica up the stairs towards his room. He had almost forgotten what a nice ass she had.
*****
Logan was sitting on his bed with Veronica standing between his legs when he told her, “We don’t have to do anything you don’t want to. I’m perfectly fine with just lying down and going to sleep, if that’s what you want.”
Veronica smiled at his concern and kissed him sweetly. “I know you’re not forcing me. I want to be with you. I want you to be the one to make me forget.”
Logan entwined their hands. “Are you sure?”
“Yeah, I’m sure.” Veronica moved closer into his body and started to kiss him again, but Logan stopped her.
“Just… if you need to stop, whenever, we can. We can stop whenever you want. Don’t be afraid to just push me and say no.”
Logan’s face was so earnest that Veronica almost wanted to cry. “Logan, if I honestly thought you wouldn’t give me that option, we wouldn’t be here. I trust you. Before, you didn’t have to tell me all those things… you chose to. That’s a big deal to me. I want us to sleep together and if for some reason I change my mind in the middle, you’ll be the first to know.” She smiled and began kissing him again, hoping this time he wouldn’t interrupt.
After a few minutes, Logan began kissing all along Veronica’s neck and shoulders. She took the opportunity to take off his sweater. When she was met with a t-shirt underneath, Veronica groaned. Logan laughed a little at her frustration, but she was able to quickly rid him of that too. While she was letting her hands explore all over his torso, Logan seemed to find a particularly sensitive area on Veronica’s neck that made her shiver and pant in his ear. He tongued the spot for a few seconds and then sucked on it, making Veronica’s knees weak. She practically fell into his arms and was barely able to gasp out, “Are you trying to give me a hickey?”
“No, that will just be a bonus prize if I do.” Logan’s hands were traveling down Veronica’s back and when the found her bra he looked up to ask, “Can I?” After she nodded her approval, he unhooked it and slowly slid the black lingerie off her body. “My God you’re beautiful.”
Veronica looked down at Logan and then at herself. “I’m sure you’ve seen better. Actually I’m sure of it, since I saw Lilly naked. She had a much nicer body than me.”
When she went to cover herself up, Logan took her hands in his. “Don’t. Don’t ever do that, don’t compare yourself to her. You’re beautiful, believe me.”
Seeing how serious he was, Veronica agreed and placed her hands back in his hair. She loved how soft it was; so much softer than it ever looked.
Veronica thought that Logan sucking on her nipple before had felt good, but it didn’t even compare to how good it felt without her bra in the way. Apparently he felt the same because she could feel his hard-on grow underneath her. Hoping to alleviate some of the pressure she was feeling between her legs, she began to rock back and forth over him.
Logan let out an animalistic growl. “Christ, Veronica.”
Immediately, she tensed up. “Oh, god! Did I hurt you? Was that wrong?”
“No, no.” He kissed her forehead. “It didn’t hurt at all; in fact it felt a little too good. So good that this is going to end before it begins if you don’t stop.”
Veronica smiled in relief. “Oh good, I’m glad I didn’t hurt you. I’ll stop then, but only because I want to see what comes next.”
“Oh really?” Logan stood up with Veronica still in his arms and she yelped in response. He placed her in the middle of his bed and began taking her pants off. “Is this okay?”
“Absolutely,” Veronica answered cheekily. When her pants were completely off, Logan placed his hand on the waist band of her panties and questioned with his eyes. She nodded in answer and he pulled them off as well, but he made sure to caress her legs on the way down this time. Veronica’s whole body was covered in goosebumps now in anticipation. She was completely naked in front of Logan and all she could think was ‘I can’t wait.’ Something about their night had definitely healed her.
Logan was resisting the urge to stare at Veronica’s naked body because he knew it would make her uncomfortable, but he was definitely appreciative of it. He lifted up her left leg, began kissing her ankle and slowly continued up her leg until he reached her thighs. Logan repeated the same path with her right leg, knowing that it was driving Veronica crazy. When she reached up and starting massaging her breasts, pulling on her nipples, Logan was sure he would come in his pants. He made the very deliberate decision to keep said pants on until the last possible moment in hopes that it would help his situation.
After completely kissing every inch of Veronica’s tiny legs, Logan spread her legs slightly and kneeled on the bed between them. Seeing that Veronica looked a little nervous about what he was going to do, he hovered over her and began kissing her again. She linked her arms around his neck and pulled him down so that he was completely covering her naked form. Moaning at the skin to skin connection, Logan moved slightly to better feel Veronica’s breasts brushing up against him. While they were still kissing, she wrapped her legs around his waist and starting moving her hips in a seductive rhythm.
That’s when Logan began to make his way down Veronica’s body, kissing, licking and sucking as he went. He lightly blew in her navel and smiled at the way she giggled. As he made his way closer to her sweet center, Logan let his fingers initiate the trail as to not scare Veronica. He laid his hand over her and just left it there, feeling her femininity but nothing more. Then he used just the tip of his index finger to part her, running it all along her opening. Veronica was clutching at the sheets and panting, more from frustration than anything. “Logan, please,” she sobbed.
“Please, what?” Logan asked while lazily stroking her.
“I need more. More…something.” Veronica twisted her hips to emphasize her point.
“I know, baby, I know.” With that Logan took his index finger and began to gently enter Veronica’s pussy. She was tight and wet and his every dream come true. “Oh God, you feel so good.”
“Oh Logan, more,” Veronica cried out. “More, please.” -
He added another finger and began circling her clit with his thumb. Veronica’s hips shot off the bed with the intensity of it all. “That feels so good,” she panted out.
Logan slowly withdrew his hand and Veronica rose to her elbows. “Why did you stop?” she asked.
He chuckled at her panicked look. “No worries, I have something better in mind.” And with that he laid down on his stomach, using his hands to part Veronica’s thighs.
When Veronica realized what he was doing, she started to object. “No, Logan, I don’t want you to do-” but then his tongue licked her clit and she was a goner. “Fucking hell, don’t stop.”
From his position, Logan smiled and continued to lick at her, switching between probing her opening with his tongue and swirling around her clit. When Veronica began to tense and he knew her climax was close, he moved two fingers inside of her, fingering that spot he knew would drive her crazy, and sucked on her clit simultaneously. It had the desired effect; within seconds Veronica was screaming out her climax. “Fuck, Logan, yes, yes, yes!
He continued lapping up her juices until her orgasm had receded and her breathing was back to normal. After inconspicuously wiping his mouth on the sheets, Logan moved up and kissed Veronica. “So was it as good as it sounded?”
Veronica hid her face in his shoulder. Her voice was small and horrified when she asked, “Was I really loud?”
Logan rubbed her back soothingly. “Well I’m glad my parents weren’t home, but I don’t think the neighbors heard.”
“I’m sorry. I’ll try not to be so loud anymore.” Veronica was nervously playing with the hair on Logan’s chest.
He took her hand in his and stared into her eyes. “You’re kidding right? The most amazing thing a guy can hear is how well he’s doing during sex. Don’t ever censor yourself. On the same note, don’t ever fake it with me. I want to know when I’m not doing it right.”
Veronica laughed at his statement. “Yeah that, what just happened, wasn’t anything but right. Thank you for that. You didn’t have to-”
“I wanted to,” Logan countered.
“I know, but maybe now we could work on you.”
“Work on me? Am I getting plastic surgery?”
Veronica slapped his chest and said saucily, “No, but if you want we can play doctor.”
Logan rolled back on top of her and said, “Oh, I definitely want.” He began to kiss her again, but Veronica stopped him. “What’s wrong?”
“I’m feeling a little cheated here. You’re going to have lose the clothing.”
Logan stood up and started undoing his belt, but Veronica took it from his hands and did it for him. Then she began unbuttoning and pulling down the zipper of his jeans, all while kissing his chest and stomach. When he was left with just his boxers, she reached out and palmed his dick through the soft cotton. Logan threw his head back and closed his eyes, “Damn that feels good, Veronica.” As he opened his eyes, he saw Veronica staring at his dick with her hand on it and licking her lips. He was going to say something, but she began pulling his boxers down.
When he was completely naked, Veronica just stared at him. At first he thought she was just admiring, but then Logan realized she was afraid. “Veronica?” No reply. “Baby, what’s wrong?”
She snapped out of her fear induced haze and looked him in the eye. “You’re so… big.”
Logan looked down at himself and then back to Veronica, “It will be fine, I promise I won’t hurt you.”
“Bu-but you’re huge! There’s no way that,” Veronica pointed to his hard cock and then to herself, “is going to fit inside of me!”
Logan didn’t want laugh, but she sounded so cute and innocent the way she had just spoken. “Veronica, I promise it will be okay and if it hurts too much we’ll stop. But you have to know, it might hurt a little bit. I mean I know you’re technically not a virgin, but you really are. You’ve never been with anyone in a real sense and even what happened was a long time ago. It’s most likely going to hurt a little…” Veronica was looking more and more frightened while he spoke. “But I promise I will make it feel good for you. Even if you can’t get there during, I’ll make sure that after, it feels amazing.”
Veronica steeled her shoulders and looked away from Logan’s erection long enough to answer him. “Okay.”
“Okay.” Logan got back on the bed with her. “We’ll start slow.”
Veronica lay down on the bed again and Logan hovered over her while they kissed. She wanted to feel his weight on top of her again so Veronica pulled him down. Logan’s erection was pushed against her stomach and Veronica was amazed that it could be so hard, but feel so soft. She reached down to stroke him and he moaned into her mouth. It felt like hard steel covered in the softest velvet. Even though Logan was barely even touching her, she could feel herself getting wetter with every stroke. Knowing she was getting Logan off was the best foreplay ever.
Logan was so turned on by Veronica touching him like this that he had to force himself not to thrust into her tiny hand. It felt so good to have her jerking him off, but he knew they had to stop so he took her hand off of his dick and brought it up to his shoulder. “You have to stop doing that before I lose it.” Logan used his fingers to test Veronica’s pussy. She was definitely wet enough for him now. “I think you’re ready now, so I’m going to get some protection.”
Veronica placed her hands on Logan’s shoulders to stop him. “Wait, just… have you been tested?”
“Yeah, I got tested a few months ago after Caitlin. I figured since she was cheating and everything…” Logan kind of trailed off not wanting to really bring this topic up.
“Okay, then I think… I don’t want you to wear a condom.” Veronica looked up into Logan’s shocked expression. “As long as it’s okay with you.”
“But… but Veronica, what about getting pregnant?” Logan had never even thought about having sex without a condom. There were just too many scary consequences out there.
“I’m on the pill. I have been since last year. This may not make sense to you; I just want my first real time to be a first for you also. I’m assuming you’ve never had sex without a condom before either. And this way it will be something that we both do for the first time together.”
Logan looked down at Veronica’s face and how nervous she was. He realized how much courage it must have taken for her to admit that and knew he was going to agree. Besides, the idea of fucking Veronica without a condom was about the hottest thing he had ever imagined. “I understand and if you’re sure that’s what you want to do, then it’s fine with me.”
“Yeah?” Veronica smiled up at him.
“Yeah.” Logan sealed the deal with a kiss and gently thrust his dick against her pelvis. He was pleasantly surprised when she thrust back. “Ready?”
“I think so,” Veronica answered nervously. When Logan smoothed her bangs off her forehead she felt a little bit better. He wasn’t going to hurt her.
“Just tell me if you need me to stop.”
“Okay.”
Logan reached down again and used his fingers to circle her clit a few times before spreading her legs. When his hips were surrounded by hers, he gently nudged her opening with the head of his cock. Looking up to make sure Veronica was okay, he began using just the head to rub from her clit to her opening and back up again.
He did this over and over again until she looked up at him with a pained expression on her face. “Logan, I need you now. Enough teasing.”
“Okay, baby, I’m sorry.” He kissed her mouth sweetly and guided himself inside her. Just a few inches at first, judging how much it hurt by Veronica’s facial expression. She tensed up at first, but after a few seconds was moving her hips in an invitation for him to go further. He started moving in and out, in and out until about half of his erection was inside her and he knew he had reached the point where it would hurt the most.
Logan began passionately kissing Veronica. She responded in kind and after a few moments he began trailing kisses down her throat towards her shoulder. Once he reached the fleshy part of her shoulder, he bit down on her skin and thrust all the way inside her.
Veronica wasn’t sure which startled her more, the bite or the fullness of Logan inside her. Neither one was actually painful, but more a feeling of tenderness. Logan whispered ‘sorry’ in her ear for the bite and began thrusting in and out of her. At first his movements were slow and easy, but then Veronica whispered in his ear, “Don’t hold back,” which spurred him on.
Logan began pumping his cock into Veronica harder and faster. She had never felt so full in her life; it was amazing and she didn’t want it ever to end. The harder he fucked her, the more she wanted him. The faster he went, the longer she wanted it to last. Veronica’s orgasm was quickly building and she could feel herself coming closer and closer to the edge. With one especially strong thrust, her whole world shattered and she screamed out his name. All she could see were the colors behind her eyelids and all she could feel was Logan long and hard inside her.
Fucking without a condom on was by far the best thing Logan had ever done. He had never felt anything as soft or tight as Veronica’s pussy. He was fine with his cock never leaving her hot core. After Logan felt Veronica’s climax, it wasn’t long before he had to give into his own. A few more thrusts and he filled her completely with his come. Once he was done, he slumped down on top of her and lightly kissed the spot he had bit earlier. He knew he was too heavy for her, so he tried to roll them over but Veronica locked her legs around his to prevent the movement.
“No, just stay where you are. I like feeling you on top of me, inside of me.” She kissed him all over his face, light butterfly kisses.
Logan let out a small chuckle. “Oh believe me, I like the feeling myself.”
A few minutes later they were both sound asleep.
*****
Around 5 o’clock in the morning, Logan awoke to Veronica tracing patterns on his back. Somehow he had ended up lying on his stomach and she was now on her side next to him. It took Logan a few seconds in his sleep fogged brain to realize what Veronica was doing. By the time it dawned on him that she was examining his scars, she had leaned down and was kissing each one.
Veronica knew the second that Logan had awoken and figured out what she was doing, but she didn’t care. She wanted him to know that she knew and still wanted to be with him. That she knew and wouldn’t ignore it like every other girl he had ever been with.
Logan didn’t cry about his abuse, not anymore. It wasn’t worth the time or the effort. He had stopped crying when he was a little boy; it only made everything worse. But right now, feeling Veronica’s soft lips lightly tracing the outlines of each scar, he wanted to cry. He knew he could and she would never judge him, but he didn’t want to. No use in ruining a perfectly good night/morning by bringing his father into it.
“So are you ever going to give me a real good morning kiss or do I have to steal one?” Logan turned over onto his back and smiled up at Veronica.
She was leaning on her elbow and quickly swooped down to plant a kiss on his mouth. “There. Happy now?” she asked, even though she knew the answer.
“Not even close. Come here,” Logan said while pulling Veronica on top of his body. Giving her a real kiss, he began running his hands all over her naked body. The skin to skin contact combined with his morning wood was going to drive him insane.
Veronica noticed it as well because she smiled against his mouth and rubbed herself against him. “Well at least I know some parts of you were thinking of me while we slept.”
“Baby, every part of me was thinking about you.” Logan winked at her.
“You know that’s like the fourth time that you’ve called me ‘baby’… I don’t remember you having pet names with Lilly.” Veronica hoped bringing up Lilly wasn’t a mistake.
Logan let out a little sigh. “No, Lilly called me a sentimental idiot when I tried using nicknames on her. After that I stopped even attempting it because no one mattered enough to have one. But then I don’t know, with you it just comes out naturally.”
“Just don’t call me ‘honey’,” Veronica said seriously.
“Umm… that’s an old person’s nickname so I never would, but why not?”
“Duncan used to call me that when we were together.” Veronica smiled when Logan started laughing. “…and I hated it.”
“I can understand that.” Logan kissed Veronica on the forehead and placed his hands on her lower back.
“Be careful mister, your hands are very close to dangerous territory,” Veronica warned playfully.
“What you mean here?” he asked while palming both cheeks and squeezing her ass.
“Logan!” Veronica pushed his hands back up. “Can I ask you something?”
“Anything.” Logan said seriously.
“Where does Aaron do it?” Veronica asked.
“Veronica, don’t ruin this by talking about him,” Logan admonished.
“No, we don’t have to actually talk about it just- does he always do it in the same room?”
Seeing that she wasn’t going to let this die Logan just answered her. “Yeah, his office.”
Trying to summon up her courage, Veronica sat up and took Logan’s hands into her own. “Then I want us to have sex in there.”
“What?” Logan was sure that if he had been drinking at that moment he would have spit it out like in the movies.
“I just- I was thinking about it and what better way to get revenge than to be in the room that is supposed to be hell for you and make it a room that you get to have sex with me in? I don’t know, it just seems like a way to fuck with Aaron without actually letting him know you’re fucking with him.”
“And I get to fuck you in the process?” Veronica slapped Logan’s chest and he chuckled in response. “I’m sorry that was just too good of a comment to pass up. But seriously, thank you for wanting to do that for me but you don’t have to.”
“I know I don’t have to- I thought of it. I want to do it. Logan let me do this for you.”
“Alright.”
*****
“So how do you want to do this?” Logan asked while looking around at the various furniture options in Aaron’s office. There was a desk, sofa and two chairs in the room and he was running through all the various ways they could do this.
“Anyway you want,” Veronica replied while looking at the gaudy display case with all of Aaron’s ridiculous and undeserved awards on them. She wanted to smash them all to smithereens.
“Veronica, you do not tell a 17-year-old boy that you will have sex with him anyway he wants. There are just far too many sick things going on in my head.” Logan glanced over at her and was awestruck by how amazingly beautiful she looked. Thankfully still naked, the sun was hitting her in just the right way to make it seem like she was glowing. If her statement hadn’t ensured his erection, the sight of her would have.
“Alright, that’s probably true.” Veronica turned towards him and listed her new amendment, “I’ll do anything you want that involves regular intercourse and doesn’t require pain of any kind.”
“Much better. I think you might have to come a little closer first though.” After he finished they both moved towards each other in the center of the room, automatically leaning towards the other to kiss. Logan ran his tongue along the seam of Veronica’s lips and she quickly opened her mouth for him. Logan palmed both of her breasts and she gasped into his mouth. He tugged on both her nipples and Veronica sucked on his tongue. Logan tested her boundaries and tugged even harder. Veronica threw her head back and cried out. When he was sure it wasn’t in pain, he bent down and sucked on her left nipple while continuously pulling on the other with index finger and thumb.
After a few minutes, Veronica needed more and removed Logan’s hand from her breast and placed it on her pussy. He got the hint and started finger fucking her. When she was close to climax Veronica pulled away and told Logan, “I want you to be inside me when I come.”
Logan could only nod his head and went back to kissing her. In his head he was questioning whether she would allow him to fuck her in the position he wanted to. It was the position that he always imagined them in whenever he jerked off. He would never admit how often when he was touching himself he was thinking of Veronica, even when they were pretending to hate each other. He figured if she could be brave enough to tell him all the things she had, he could ask her this. The worst that could happen is she said no.
Logan pulled away from her mouth slowly and asked, “Veronica, can we do it a little differently than last night?”
“Bored with me already?” Veronica quipped.
“No, it’s just that I kind of had this position I wanted to do with you and I don’t know if you’ll want to and if you don’t that’s fine. I just I figured I should ask since you did say anything I want, and I think it fits into your rules.”
Veronica found Logan’s rambling adorable. “Logan, I can’t do it if you don’t tell me what it is.”
“I was hoping that I could be behind you?” Logan’s voice sort of lifted at the end so that neither was sure if it was a statement or a question.
Veronica was more than a little turned on by his idea, but she had to clarify first. “You mean you want to do it doggie style?”
“If you want to call it that, sure.” Logan wasn’t sure if using the name would make it more or less appealing to Veronica.
“Okay, let’s do it.” Veronica began to move towards Logan again and he pulled her into a fierce kiss. When she lifted her hands around his neck he placed his hands on the backs of her thighs and picked her up. Veronica quickly wrapped her legs around Logan’s waist and licked the roof of his mouth. “Where do you want us to be?” she whispered in his ear.
Logan walked them over to the one arm chair. “Right here.” Veronica could tell by the look in his eyes there was a reason for this specific spot, but she didn’t want to press so she slid down his body, making sure to make contact with his hard shaft. Once she was standing again she wrapped her hand around Logan’s dick and began stroking. “Yeah, baby, harder. Squeeze me harder.” Veronica obliged and used her other hand to fondle his balls. “Fuck Veronica, that’s nice.”
Logan pulled Veronica closer and palmed her ass with both hands and slowly moved one hand down to her pussy. He pushed one digit in from behind just like his dick would be doing in a few minutes. She jumped in surprise and then moaned in appreciation. “I can’t wait anymore, I’m ready, Logan.”
“Okay, turn around for me.” Logan helped Veronica turn so that her back was to his chest and her front was facing the side of the chair. The arm of the chair came up to just below her stomach and she quickly saw how this was going to end up. Yesterday, she never would have thought the prospect of being fucked over the arm of a chair by Logan Echolls would be so arousing. But today her dripping core was proof that it was.
Logan stepped up even closer to Veronica and played with her breasts. Her head fell against his chest and she put her arms around his neck, which just served to push her cleavage further into his hands.
Slowly, Logan positioned his erection right near Veronica’s center and when she nodded slightly he surged inside her. Veronica fell forward with the force of it and Logan used his hands on her hips to steady her. “Was that too hard? I’m sorry.”
“No, it felt good, just a little unexpected.” Veronica turned around and smiled at him. “Keep going.”
Logan began thrusting in and out of Veronica, but it wasn’t as pleasurable as it could be because she was still standing and he had to strain to hit her spot. Running his hand from her hips up to her shoulders he gently pushed her so that she was leaning over the chair. Once he was sure she was comfortable, he began thrusting again. This time the feeling was amazing for the both of them and Veronica screamed his name.
“Oh god Veronica, I can’t believe how tight you are.” Logan was holding onto her hips again and pounding into her. Nothing had ever felt this good before.
“Logan,” Veronica panted out, “you feel so good, so long and hard inside me.” Veronica was sure that if Logan was any deeper he would come out her mouth, but it was the best feeling she had ever had.
Logan continued to pound into Veronica harder and harder; all the while she kept urging him on with her sexy words of encouragement. He knew she was saying those things because of where they were and it was a way to give him back a part of himself that he had lost in this room. But hearing her say things about how big his dick was or how much she loved feeling him inside her, was just about the most amazing present ever.
Veronica knew her orgasm was coming quickly so she started pushing back into Logan every time he thrust into her. When Logan reached around her hip and began using his fingers to play with her clit, she came hard. “Oh fuck, Logan, Logannnnnn.”
He had never felt a girl who came the way Veronica did. It was like the orgasm took over her whole body and all she could feel was it and him. Plus, her tight channel was amazing before, but after she came it was the wettest, hottest pussy he had ever felt.
Logan kept pounding into her for a few more minutes and wasn’t sure why, but his orgasm didn’t feel that close. He had always had staying power but now he wanted to let go because he would start hurting her soon, and it just wouldn’t happen. Veronica turned around and saw the anxiety on his face over the situation. “Do you want to change positions? We could sit or lay down if you want.”
“It would figure that the one time in my life I can’t come it would be his fault.” Logan slowly pulled out of Veronica and balled his hands into fists.
Veronica took his hands and uncurled them. She kissed each of his palms and then kissed him chastely on his mouth. Logan thought she was going to say something, but instead she abruptly got onto her knees in front of him. She was so quick that it took him a few seconds to register and by then she was already licking the head of his cock.
“Holy shit, Veronica.” He stared down as she licked the underside of his dick and then looked up into his eyes as she took him into her mouth. Logan just about died when she began to move slowly up and down. Veronica used her hand to hold the base of his cock and try to keep the same up-down rhythm with her hand and mouth. After she was able to figure out her rhythm, she began to suck on each upstroke.
Logan watched as the sweet, innocent Veronica he once knew sucked him off with all her might. It was one of the sexiest things he had ever seen in his whole life. He knew she had never done this before and that made it even better. She was a natural pro.
He placed his hands lightly on the back of her head and ran his hands through her short hair. Logan had realized very quickly last night and this morning that Veronica liked when he talked dirty. “Just a little bit harder baby… that’s it, suck me off just like that.” Within minutes he could feel that tingle in his lower back letting him know what was about to happen. He tried to warn Veronica, “I’m gonna come… sweetheart, you need to get up if you don’t want me to come in your mouth.”
But Veronica just kept sucking and stroking like she had been. A few seconds later Logan grabbed the sides of her face and held on while he came into her mouth. He was afraid that she would be mad, but she just kept sucking and didn’t stop until she had swallowed every last drop. Logan pulled her up and into his arms. “You didn’t have to do that. You could have stopped or spit. I wouldn’t have been offended.”
Veronica stood on her toes and kissed him. “I wanted to. You gave me plenty of chances to stop if I wanted to. Let’s go back to bed. I think we should get some more sleep.”
“Whatever you want, beautiful.” Logan kissed the top of Veronica’s head as he led her back to his room.
*****
While they were lying in bed spooning, Veronica started giggling. Logan ran his hand along her stomach and asked, “What’s so funny?”
“I can’t wait to see Dick’s face when we come back to school after break as a couple.”
Logan smiled into her hair. He didn’t want to be a girl and bring up the subject of whether they were a couple or not and was thankful she did it without it being a big drama-filled conversation. “I think Madison’s reaction will be even better.”
Veronica pulled his arm tighter around her body and nodded. They would deal with all the complicated stuff later. Right now she just wanted to lay in Logan’s arms and be happy.
Author: pegm81484, but you can call me Paula
Pairing/Character: Logan/Veronica
Word Count: ~10,600... it’s a whopper lol
Rating: NC-17 for the sex
Summary: What would have happened if Veronica had stuck around after Aaron was stabbed in “An Echolls Family Christmas?”
Spoilers: This is set after 1x10, but you should know the characters and what happens to them on the show throughout the first season.
Warnings: In my VM world, the characters curse more. There also may be violence and sexual situations. In addition, I try to normally be good with characterizations, but I took a lot of liberties with this fic!
Disclaimer: Rob Thomas and The CW own all these characters, I own almost nothing. If you sue me, the only thing you could possible get is my dog. Please don’t take my dog!
Author’s Note: I had planned for this to be a Christmas present to all my readers (you know all 5 of you lol), but alas the actual holidays impeded that idea. I hope you like it all the same and Happy Easter instead!!!
AN #2: Thank you as always to my fabulous beta, candlewaxdreams. We both agree that Logan and Veronica’s relationship is too rushed in this story, but we don’t care all the same!!!
AN #3: We’re going to pretend that Cassidy didn’t give Veronica Chlamydia.
*****
“You didn’t have to stay.”
“No, I didn’t.”
“Then why did you?” Logan didn’t look up from his video game. Maybe if he ignored her, she would go away and he could be alone like he wanted.
Veronica took a deep breath. She knew her next statement was bound to make him ridicule her, but it didn’t matter- he had to know how she really felt. “Because a long time ago we used to be friends.”
“The operative words being used to.” Logan finally glanced in Veronica’s direction. He would never tell her how adorable he thought she looked in her hoodies and butch boots these days, but that never stopped him from thinking about it.
“Yeah, well, you and the rest of the ‘09ers may be able to pretend that everything before junior year didn’t happen, but it’s not that easy for me.” Veronica knew she was opening up way too much, but something about being in this house during the holidays and alone with Logan made her want to connect with him again.
“It wasn’t easy.” Logan mumbled the words, not sure whether he wanted Veronica to actually hear them or not.
“What was that?” Veronica took a step closer to Logan where he was sitting on the floor leaning against the foot of his bed. He had paused the game, which led her to believe he was at least pretending to actually listen to her.
“It wasn’t that easy for me either.”
“Really? You could have fooled me.”
“Yeah well I’ve gotten really good at honing my acting skills over the years. Like just a few hours ago, I acted like the frightened son and I acted like I was relieved when my mother called to say my father would be okay. In reality, I couldn’t give two shits either way.” Logan had stood up while he was talking and was gesturing emphatically with his hands the whole time.
“Well maybe you’re not as good of an actor as you think- I never once believe that you were frightened during the attack or relieved after it was over. Perhaps you were thankful during and irritated afterward, but that’s about it.” Veronica stepped closer to Logan and was staring him down. Well at least she was staring him down the best she could since she was a whole foot shorter than him.
Logan chuckled a little at her observations. “Or maybe you’re one of the few people in my life who can actually see my father for the asshole he really is.”
Veronica smiled in return and gestured between the two of them. “Something we can finally agree on!”
“Well if I remember correctly we used to always agree on food, too. If you’re sticking around we might as well go downstairs and see what the caterers left for us to eat.”
Veronica turned and followed Logan as he walked out of the room. “I like the way you think, young man.”
*****
“So I noticed you and Duncan talking to each other earlier. Everything okay between you two?” Logan was aiming for charmingly nonchalant, but was pretty sure his voice was more awkwardly concerned.
Veronica smirked at him and took a drink of her soda before answering him. “Be careful, Logan, people might think you care.”
“Well people may say a lot of things about our relationship, but they’d be wrong if they ever thought I didn’t care.” Logan took a bite of his sandwich in an attempt to avoid eye contact with Veronica. He should have known it wouldn’t work. When he looked up again at her, she was staring with her mouth slightly open and a weird look of confusion in her eyes.
“I’m having a hard time believing that you’ve always cared about me. I remember the things you said… the things you did. Those weren’t the actions of a man who cared about me.” Veronica was weirded out for many reasons, the first of which was definitely that Logan had brought up his feelings for her. The second was that he was acting like it was no big deal that he apparently cared about her.
Logan smiled at her. “I never said that I cared about you in a positive way.”
Veronica was even more confused now. “I don’t know what that means, Logan.”
“Okay, well, from the time we were 12 until… Lilly died, I cared about you as a friend. After that, I cared about you, but it was more in a ‘how can I hurt Veronica today as much as possible?’ kind of way.” When Veronica’s eyes began to water and she had to look down Logan felt like shit and wanted to stop, but knew he couldn’t. “I know that makes me a horrible asshole and I’m sorry, but honestly Veronica, I felt more betrayed by you than anybody in my entire life. And I’ve been betrayed by a lot of people.”
Veronica wiped furiously at her eyes. She could not believe that she was crying in front of Logan Echolls, it just wasn’t allowed anymore. You must not let ‘09ers see your pain. It was her freaking mantra for God’s sake! “You think you own the market on being betrayed?”
Logan opened his mouth to defend himself, but Veronica halted his efforts by putting her hand up. “No, you got your chance- now it’s my turn. How dare you? How dare you make it seem like I betrayed you? Lilly died and I lost everyone. Within a few months I lost my boyfriend, my best friend, my mother and all of my friends.”
“You chose to lose us, Veronica. I gave you the choice and you chose your father over us.” Logan wanted her to remember that this was just as much her fault as it was his- not that he believed that at all. It was just easier to keep up the charade than admit defeat, especially to Veronica.
“All I fucking had left was my father. How was I supposed to abandon the one person in my life who loved me unconditionally?” The tears were freely flowing down Veronica’s cheeks by now and she couldn’t even bother wiping them off. If he wanted this fight, then he sure as hell was going to get it. “I’m sorry that my father isn’t an abusive bastard like yours, but some of us actually love our parents and want them to be integral parts of our lives.”
Logan looked liked he had been sucker punched after that comment and Veronica was almost ashamed it was all her doing. She really didn’t want to bring up Aaron’s abuse like that and she definitely didn’t want to use that information to hurt Logan.
“I…I d-didn’t know you knew… about the… about my fath-father.” Logan was mindlessly rearranging things on the countertop now. He was barely lucid enough to know what he was saying, never mind process what he was doing.
Veronica folded her hands in her lap. She wished that she could get off of her stool and go around the island to hug Logan, but was positive it would end badly. Sure she could spit venom like the best of them, she just hated the aftermath of her poison.
“Logan.” When Logan wouldn’t look at her, Veronica called him a little louder, “Logan- look I’m sorry. That was wrong of me to say. I never should have brought up your father like that. It’s just that-”
Veronica didn’t get to finish her sentence because Logan cut her off. “How long have you known?”
“Almost three years.”
Logan looked up at the ceiling as if it was going to provide some answers for him. “Huh. All this time I thought I hid it so well. Guess I’m not as good of an actor as I thought.”
“No, it’s not that. It was the summer before our freshman year and we were all supposed to go to the beach. You had cancelled, but Lilly called and asked if I would come to your house and pick up a CD she left here. I guess you guys weren’t talking at the time or something. I assumed that’s why you weren’t coming with us, but then when I got here I went out to the backyard and saw you laying face down on a raft in your pool. When I came closer I could see all the welts on your back. I put two and two together and left without talking to you. I was a horrible friend for never bringing it up. I just always assumed that if you wanted to talk, you would have told one of us about it.”
“Lilly knew.”
Veronica gasped loudly. “What?”
“Lilly knew, Veronica, and she never gave a crap. She would still come over and flirt with my dad and pretend like everything was just peachy keen in the Echolls residence. I’m pretty sure DK knows also and is just too passive to mention it.”
“Oh my God, Logan, we’re all such horrible friends. I thought… I don’t know what I thought, but it doesn’t excuse my actions, or lack of them.” By this point Veronica had gotten up and was standing a few feet away from Logan.
“Please don’t, Veronica. We both know that I’ve been equally cruel to you, if not more so.”
“Yeah.” Veronica knew that she may never have this opportunity again so she put all her cards on the table. “Cruel enough to drug me?”
Logan’s guilt over drugging Duncan came to head and he lashed out at Veronica. “What the fuck are you talking about?” If he was being honest with himself, he was also angry at the fact that someone would do that to Veronica. No matter how far he took his jokes and comments, he never meant for her to be physically harmed.
“Do you remember Shelley’s end of the year party in December?” Veronica tried to slow down her breathing; she was pretty sure that Logan thought she was hyperventilating. Plus, for some reason all those months of not showing anyone her tears had led the floodgates to open and she felt like Sally Field in Steel Magnolias.
Logan moved closer to Veronica; he wanted them to still be friends enough for him to comfort her when she was crying. In reality he knew that she would freak out if he touched her right now and he was still kind of pissed that she accused him of drugging her. Also, he was mad at himself that her inadvertently being drugged could have to do with him; he did have drugs at that party after all. “Yeah, of course I do. I couldn’t believe it when you showed up.”
“I… I thought that if I showed all of you that I was still strong, that you would leave me alone. My plan backfired big time.” Veronica took the tissue that Logan handed her. She tried to wipe the majority of the tears off her face, but knew it was a futile effort. “After I got there and no one would talk to me I decided to just walk around, but I ended up seeing Duncan make out with some girl and I just couldn’t handle it. Somebody held a cup out and I started drinking from it. I thought it was just rum and coke, but after a few minutes I was really dizzy and didn’t know what was wrong.”
Logan was captivated by Veronica’s story and couldn’t help it anymore- he moved closer to where she was standing and put his hand on her upper arm. When she didn’t immediately shake him off, he led her to the dining room table. Chances were this was a ‘let’s-be-sitting-while-this-unfolds’ kind of conversation.
“Anyway I thought I was going to be sick, so I went outside for some air. I ended up lying down on a lounge chair outside. I don’t really remember much after-”
“I think I can fill in some of the gaps.” Logan knew telling Veronica could possibly end whatever little connection they had left, but not telling her would be worse in the long run. “Dick and I went outside because someone had said there was a girl naked in the hot tub. Anyway, when we got outside she was gone and Dick spotted you passed out on the chair. In his infinite wisdom and my drunken state he thought doing salt licks off your body would be a good idea.”
Veronica was crying even harder now if possible and Logan felt like the worst scum on the earth. He reached out to touch her face, but she flinched and he knew he had to finish even if she would never trust him again. “I’m so sorry. I know how wrong I was, but if we’re being completely honest, part of the reason I agreed was because I was just so damn mad at you. You had chosen your father over us and then you had the nerve to come to the party and you looked so good and I felt like I was dying and it just wasn’t fair.”
Logan realized he had slipped with the ‘looked so good’ comment when Veronica stopped staring at her hands long enough to look him in the eyes after he said it. They could discuss that later, now he had to forge through his recollection. “So Dick got all the stuff together and we started doing body shots. Then after a minute or two Casey and Sean came over and joined in. I guess that’s when Duncan saw us because he came over and reamed me out for taking advantage of you. Which he was totally right for doing.”
Veronica wiped a few of the tears from her cheeks and looked up at Logan. She could tell he was genuinely sorry and hated himself right now. She still didn’t trust him but she knew when he was telling the truth or not. “I guess I could forgive you for that. But that still doesn’t explain about the drugs.”
“Yeah well it gets worse.” Logan cringed a little as he said the words and hoped Veronica didn’t slap him. “Duncan came over and helped you up, but then we were talking and he just hadn’t been himself for so long and I just wanted my friend back and…” Logan wasn’t sure how to admit what he did so he let his sentence trail off.
“So what, Logan? What did you do?” Veronica’s voice pleaded with him to answer. She had to know once and for all what happened at that party.
“I took some of the liquid X that I had scored in Tijuana the weekend before and slipped it into his cup. I just- I just thought that if he could loosen up a little, he would be Duncan again. But I swear to God, Veronica, I never gave any of it to you.”
Veronica got up from the table and walked over to the kitchen island. With her back to Logan she asked, “Why would you buy drugs in the first place?”
“Because we were supposed to go to a rave the weekend before, but Dick was punished so we didn’t go.”
“Who else had drugs at the party?”
Veronica still wouldn’t look at Logan, but he figured it was better than her leaving. “Luke and Sean, but I’m pretty sure Luke gave his stash to Dick at the party.”
“Why would Luke do that?” Veronica had turned around now and Logan could tell she was trying to fill in all the missing pieces by the perplexed look on her face.
“Umm, I’m not really sure because I wasn’t there during the conversation, but I think Dick wanted to drug Madison since she hadn’t been putting out lately. I realize how big of an asshole he is, but what does this have to do with you? What happened to you that night?”
As Logan was finishing his statement, Veronica realized who drugged her and sank to the ground, her body racked with sobs. Panicked, Logan knelt down in front of her. “Veronica, what the hell is going on? Veronica? You’re really starting to scare me! Veronica!
“It was Dick,” Veronica hiccupped out. “D-Dick drugged me. I drank the drink that was meant for Madison… he drugged me and that’s why…” Veronica couldn’t even bring herself to finish the sentence, she was sobbing so hard now.
Logan pulled Veronica into his arms because he didn’t know what else to do. “Veronica, that’s why what? What happened that night after Duncan carried you away from us?”
Veronica buried her face in Logan’s neck. She didn’t even know if she liked Logan right now and it was his friends that did this to her, but she had never really been able to grieve for what happened. She had never known the details around that night and she still didn’t know who raped her, but at least she knew how. Although she never ruled Logan out as being the one that drugged her, she never once thought he was the one who had raped her. It was just some instinctual feeling inside her knowing he couldn’t do that to anybody, especially not someone who he once cared about.
When her sobs didn’t subside, Logan began stroking Veronica’s back. He wasn’t sure what the protocol for comforting friends-turned-enemies-turned-something else was, but he didn’t care as long as she stopped crying and explained what was going on. Even though Veronica was always sweet and pure, he had a hard time believing that just being drugged made her feel like this. There had to be something more. “Veronica, please tell me what happened that night. I want to help you.”
Veronica let out a laugh that was anything but humorous. “There isn’t really much to do now. Although I probably could have used you when I walked home the next morning, wondering who had stolen my virginity the night before.”
She said it so casually that it took Logan a second to realize the implication of her words. “Wait? Are you saying you were raped at Shelley’s party?”
Veronica’s head was still on Logan’s shoulder and she didn’t have the energy to move it so she just nodded.
Logan forcibly took her face in his hands so that he could look in her eyes. “I’m so sorry that that happened to you. And I will do everything in my power to help you. We’ll figure out who did this to you and make them pay.” Logan continued after Veronica let out a little moan of weariness. “I know I’ve done a lot of shitty things to you and I’ve let my friends say things to you, but you have to know I would never ever do that to you. I would never have left you alone that night if I thought that was going to happen. You have to believe me when I say I didn’t know that anyone was planning that.”
Veronica put her hands over Logan’s on her face and nodded. “I know you wouldn’t do that. I just- I’ve never told anyone about that night before except for Lamb.”
“Wait, if you told Lamb about being raped, why weren’t any of us questioned? I know we would have all been on the top of your list.”
Veronica dropped her hands while pulling Logan’s down off her face as she looked down and steeled herself to tell him the other humiliating detail about that night. “He didn’t believe me. He thought I was lying because of everything that had happened.”
“Fucking asshole!” Logan was so mad he wanted to go and beat the shit out of the current sheriff.
Veronica chuckled a little. “Yeah, I agree.” Then she slumped back down against Logan’s chest.
“So maybe I’m going to sound like an insensitive jerk, but are you okay?”
“What do you mean?” Veronica looked up at him without moving.
“Like… you didn’t get anything from whoever did this to you, right?” Logan felt Veronica stiffen against him. “I swear, Veronica, I just was asking as someone who cares about you- not to mock you at a later date. I would never do that… not anymore.”
“No, I didn’t get any STDs. I made the doctor check like 5 times and I think I took a pregnancy test every week for almost a month after it happened.”
“Well I’m glad at least you didn’t have to deal with any of those things. That could have been a crippling daily reminder.”
“Yeah, I just have my terror of all things related to sex and intimacy to deal with now.” Veronica closed her eyes and moaned a little bit after admitting that. It was one thing for Logan to know what happened; he didn’t need to know her hang-ups. “I’m sorry, that was an over share.”
Logan brushed some of the hair out of Veronica’s face. “It is more than understandable that you would be afraid to be with someone now. I’m just sorry that I made all those comments about your promiscuity. If it helps, I never really believed them. I was just a stupid jerk who was going with what everyone else was saying.”
“That’s okay, the whore comments never really hurt as much as the mom ones did.” Veronica looked up at Logan and saw how visibly pained he was with how much hurt he had caused. She lightly stroked his jaw. “Hey, I gave as good as I got.”
Logan closed his eyes briefly as Veronica caressed his skin; he could not believe how good it felt to have her touch him. When he opened his eyes, she looked just as affected by the contact as he was. “No, you didn’t. We both know that you had a lot more ammo you could have used than you did.”
Veronica knew he was talking about Aaron’s abuse so she responded in kind. “I would never do that to you.” As she finished speaking, she leaned towards him and chastely kissed him. The kiss landed on the corner of his mouth. Even Veronica wasn’t sure whether it was meant to be on his mouth or his cheek.
Logan was surprised by Veronica’s move; he thought that after everything she had told him tonight, a kiss would be the last thing she gave him. A black eye seemed much more likely. He was never one to let a good opportunity go by though. Moving his shoulder slightly so that she was in a better position, Logan kissed Veronica for real.
They were kissing for a few seconds when Veronica slowly slid her tongue along Logan’s bottom lip. Knowing what she was doing, he opened his mouth slightly to give her access. Aware that he was kissing a girl he had dreamed about since he was 12 years old made this one of the most erotic moments of Logan’s life. He took over the kiss and let his tongue explore her mouth in depth. He battled with her tongue for a little while and then ran his along the roof of Veronica’s mouth. She obviously liked it judging by the gasping moan she let out.
After a few more seconds the two broke apart, struggling for air. Logan ran his hands through Veronica’s hair while staring at her. He thought she had never looked more beautiful. Her eyes were still a little glassy from crying so much, but they were also filled with lust; her lips were swollen and red from his kisses. Logan was about to tell her so when she spoke first, “Wow. That was quite a kiss.”
He smirked at how cute she was. “Yes, I’d have to agree that was a good kiss. Top ten in my life.”
She laughed and playfully punched him in the arm. “Screw you! That was a great kiss. I should be in the top three at least.”
Jokingly rubbing at his injured arm, Logan responded, “Fine I’ll bump my 18 year old babysitter down to number four if it will make you happy. I was young and inexperienced then anyway.”
“Eww, Logan. Tell me you didn’t actually make out with your babysitter. That’s so clichéd and perverty.”
Veronica was becoming more and more aware of the fact that they were still sitting on the floor of his kitchen. She was still in his lap and that kiss had definitely affected him, if the beginning of his erection was any indication. Normally, Veronica would have jumped up and away from a guy in a situation like this, but for some reason she felt safe. Maybe it was that Logan was who she was sitting with and no matter how big of a man-whore he may be, he would never force her. Or maybe it was that she liked knowing little ol’ Veronica could have such an awesome effect on someone as experienced as Logan with just a kiss.
“Okay, how am I the pervert if she was the adult? I was just an innocent child who was taken advantage of.”
Veronica giggled. “Yeah okay, I believe that. You were never innocent.”
Logan chuckled in response. Veronica shifted slightly in his lap and he had to force himself not to moan at how good the friction felt on his dick. When she moved again, he looked at her and saw the mirth in her eyes. Logan’s voice was strained when he asked, “You’re doing this on purpose, aren’t you?”
Veronica smirked in reply. “I have no idea what you’re talking about.” And to contradict herself, she moved again, purposely rubbing her ass against him.
Logan didn’t hold back his moan this time. “Uhhh, Veronica, you’re really going to want to stop that before something embarrassing happens.” When she didn’t stop moving, he placed both his hands on her hips and physically restrained her from moving.
In her brain, Veronica knew that she should feel frightened by the restrictive hold he had on her, but the rest of her body was tingling in anticipation. Logan began to trace patterns on the fabric of her jeans and Veronica felt like the skin underneath was burning. He was barely even touching her, but her nipples were tightening under her clothes and there was a distinct ache between her legs. She hadn’t felt that ache in almost two years; Long before she was raped, before her best friend was murdered and before she broke up with Duncan. There had been a game of Spin the Bottle at her 15th birthday that required Logan and Veronica to kiss. It hadn’t been as explosive as the one they shared a few minutes before, but it had done just as much damage to her body.
Just remembering made Veronica reach up and kiss Logan again. This time there was a passion and urgency that had been missing before. Veronica wasn’t sure what she was searching for as she explored Logan’s mouth, but she wasn’t going to stop until she found it. Not to be outdone, Logan gave as good as he got; it had been a long time since he wanted to just make out with someone.
While they were still kissing, Veronica managed to swing her leg so that she was now straddling Logan. His hands were frantically roaming underneath her shirt, rubbing up and down until Veronica thought she would go crazy. Knowing he was waiting for permission, Veronica broke the kiss and breathed out, “Jesus Logan, just take the damn thing off me already.”
Logan’s hands were practically ripping the shirt off before Veronica was able to even finish. When she was finally free of the garment, she thought she should feel more self-conscious to be in front of him with just her bra on, but she wasn’t. Logan began kissing her clavicle and throat. Light butterfly kisses were turning into wet, sucking ones that made Veronica’s breath shallow. She gripped onto the back of his head when he told her how beautiful she was. Logan slowly made his way towards Veronica’s nipples, kissing and biting ever so softly as he went. When he thought he had tortured her enough, he leaned down and blew on her right nipple. It pebbled just the way he wanted and he took it into his mouth. When Veronica gripped his head a little harder, he gave in and sucked on the pink bud.
Logan was about to switch to the other side when Veronica forced his head up for another blinding kiss. It was like she was trying to consume him through her kisses. He had never felt so wanted in his whole life. Veronica began rubbing herself against Logan through their jeans and they both lost it. Letting out loud moans at the same time, they were forced to look at each other and started laughing.
“I have to say, Logan, this not how I imagined my evening ending.” Veronica was playing with the hair at the nape of his neck.
Logan looked up at the clock on the wall and replied, “No worries, it’s officially tomorrow. Is it how you thought you would start today?”
“Not really, but let’s go upstairs anyway.” Logan willingly followed Veronica up the stairs towards his room. He had almost forgotten what a nice ass she had.
*****
Logan was sitting on his bed with Veronica standing between his legs when he told her, “We don’t have to do anything you don’t want to. I’m perfectly fine with just lying down and going to sleep, if that’s what you want.”
Veronica smiled at his concern and kissed him sweetly. “I know you’re not forcing me. I want to be with you. I want you to be the one to make me forget.”
Logan entwined their hands. “Are you sure?”
“Yeah, I’m sure.” Veronica moved closer into his body and started to kiss him again, but Logan stopped her.
“Just… if you need to stop, whenever, we can. We can stop whenever you want. Don’t be afraid to just push me and say no.”
Logan’s face was so earnest that Veronica almost wanted to cry. “Logan, if I honestly thought you wouldn’t give me that option, we wouldn’t be here. I trust you. Before, you didn’t have to tell me all those things… you chose to. That’s a big deal to me. I want us to sleep together and if for some reason I change my mind in the middle, you’ll be the first to know.” She smiled and began kissing him again, hoping this time he wouldn’t interrupt.
After a few minutes, Logan began kissing all along Veronica’s neck and shoulders. She took the opportunity to take off his sweater. When she was met with a t-shirt underneath, Veronica groaned. Logan laughed a little at her frustration, but she was able to quickly rid him of that too. While she was letting her hands explore all over his torso, Logan seemed to find a particularly sensitive area on Veronica’s neck that made her shiver and pant in his ear. He tongued the spot for a few seconds and then sucked on it, making Veronica’s knees weak. She practically fell into his arms and was barely able to gasp out, “Are you trying to give me a hickey?”
“No, that will just be a bonus prize if I do.” Logan’s hands were traveling down Veronica’s back and when the found her bra he looked up to ask, “Can I?” After she nodded her approval, he unhooked it and slowly slid the black lingerie off her body. “My God you’re beautiful.”
Veronica looked down at Logan and then at herself. “I’m sure you’ve seen better. Actually I’m sure of it, since I saw Lilly naked. She had a much nicer body than me.”
When she went to cover herself up, Logan took her hands in his. “Don’t. Don’t ever do that, don’t compare yourself to her. You’re beautiful, believe me.”
Seeing how serious he was, Veronica agreed and placed her hands back in his hair. She loved how soft it was; so much softer than it ever looked.
Veronica thought that Logan sucking on her nipple before had felt good, but it didn’t even compare to how good it felt without her bra in the way. Apparently he felt the same because she could feel his hard-on grow underneath her. Hoping to alleviate some of the pressure she was feeling between her legs, she began to rock back and forth over him.
Logan let out an animalistic growl. “Christ, Veronica.”
Immediately, she tensed up. “Oh, god! Did I hurt you? Was that wrong?”
“No, no.” He kissed her forehead. “It didn’t hurt at all; in fact it felt a little too good. So good that this is going to end before it begins if you don’t stop.”
Veronica smiled in relief. “Oh good, I’m glad I didn’t hurt you. I’ll stop then, but only because I want to see what comes next.”
“Oh really?” Logan stood up with Veronica still in his arms and she yelped in response. He placed her in the middle of his bed and began taking her pants off. “Is this okay?”
“Absolutely,” Veronica answered cheekily. When her pants were completely off, Logan placed his hand on the waist band of her panties and questioned with his eyes. She nodded in answer and he pulled them off as well, but he made sure to caress her legs on the way down this time. Veronica’s whole body was covered in goosebumps now in anticipation. She was completely naked in front of Logan and all she could think was ‘I can’t wait.’ Something about their night had definitely healed her.
Logan was resisting the urge to stare at Veronica’s naked body because he knew it would make her uncomfortable, but he was definitely appreciative of it. He lifted up her left leg, began kissing her ankle and slowly continued up her leg until he reached her thighs. Logan repeated the same path with her right leg, knowing that it was driving Veronica crazy. When she reached up and starting massaging her breasts, pulling on her nipples, Logan was sure he would come in his pants. He made the very deliberate decision to keep said pants on until the last possible moment in hopes that it would help his situation.
After completely kissing every inch of Veronica’s tiny legs, Logan spread her legs slightly and kneeled on the bed between them. Seeing that Veronica looked a little nervous about what he was going to do, he hovered over her and began kissing her again. She linked her arms around his neck and pulled him down so that he was completely covering her naked form. Moaning at the skin to skin connection, Logan moved slightly to better feel Veronica’s breasts brushing up against him. While they were still kissing, she wrapped her legs around his waist and starting moving her hips in a seductive rhythm.
That’s when Logan began to make his way down Veronica’s body, kissing, licking and sucking as he went. He lightly blew in her navel and smiled at the way she giggled. As he made his way closer to her sweet center, Logan let his fingers initiate the trail as to not scare Veronica. He laid his hand over her and just left it there, feeling her femininity but nothing more. Then he used just the tip of his index finger to part her, running it all along her opening. Veronica was clutching at the sheets and panting, more from frustration than anything. “Logan, please,” she sobbed.
“Please, what?” Logan asked while lazily stroking her.
“I need more. More…something.” Veronica twisted her hips to emphasize her point.
“I know, baby, I know.” With that Logan took his index finger and began to gently enter Veronica’s pussy. She was tight and wet and his every dream come true. “Oh God, you feel so good.”
“Oh Logan, more,” Veronica cried out. “More, please.” -
He added another finger and began circling her clit with his thumb. Veronica’s hips shot off the bed with the intensity of it all. “That feels so good,” she panted out.
Logan slowly withdrew his hand and Veronica rose to her elbows. “Why did you stop?” she asked.
He chuckled at her panicked look. “No worries, I have something better in mind.” And with that he laid down on his stomach, using his hands to part Veronica’s thighs.
When Veronica realized what he was doing, she started to object. “No, Logan, I don’t want you to do-” but then his tongue licked her clit and she was a goner. “Fucking hell, don’t stop.”
From his position, Logan smiled and continued to lick at her, switching between probing her opening with his tongue and swirling around her clit. When Veronica began to tense and he knew her climax was close, he moved two fingers inside of her, fingering that spot he knew would drive her crazy, and sucked on her clit simultaneously. It had the desired effect; within seconds Veronica was screaming out her climax. “Fuck, Logan, yes, yes, yes!
He continued lapping up her juices until her orgasm had receded and her breathing was back to normal. After inconspicuously wiping his mouth on the sheets, Logan moved up and kissed Veronica. “So was it as good as it sounded?”
Veronica hid her face in his shoulder. Her voice was small and horrified when she asked, “Was I really loud?”
Logan rubbed her back soothingly. “Well I’m glad my parents weren’t home, but I don’t think the neighbors heard.”
“I’m sorry. I’ll try not to be so loud anymore.” Veronica was nervously playing with the hair on Logan’s chest.
He took her hand in his and stared into her eyes. “You’re kidding right? The most amazing thing a guy can hear is how well he’s doing during sex. Don’t ever censor yourself. On the same note, don’t ever fake it with me. I want to know when I’m not doing it right.”
Veronica laughed at his statement. “Yeah that, what just happened, wasn’t anything but right. Thank you for that. You didn’t have to-”
“I wanted to,” Logan countered.
“I know, but maybe now we could work on you.”
“Work on me? Am I getting plastic surgery?”
Veronica slapped his chest and said saucily, “No, but if you want we can play doctor.”
Logan rolled back on top of her and said, “Oh, I definitely want.” He began to kiss her again, but Veronica stopped him. “What’s wrong?”
“I’m feeling a little cheated here. You’re going to have lose the clothing.”
Logan stood up and started undoing his belt, but Veronica took it from his hands and did it for him. Then she began unbuttoning and pulling down the zipper of his jeans, all while kissing his chest and stomach. When he was left with just his boxers, she reached out and palmed his dick through the soft cotton. Logan threw his head back and closed his eyes, “Damn that feels good, Veronica.” As he opened his eyes, he saw Veronica staring at his dick with her hand on it and licking her lips. He was going to say something, but she began pulling his boxers down.
When he was completely naked, Veronica just stared at him. At first he thought she was just admiring, but then Logan realized she was afraid. “Veronica?” No reply. “Baby, what’s wrong?”
She snapped out of her fear induced haze and looked him in the eye. “You’re so… big.”
Logan looked down at himself and then back to Veronica, “It will be fine, I promise I won’t hurt you.”
“Bu-but you’re huge! There’s no way that,” Veronica pointed to his hard cock and then to herself, “is going to fit inside of me!”
Logan didn’t want laugh, but she sounded so cute and innocent the way she had just spoken. “Veronica, I promise it will be okay and if it hurts too much we’ll stop. But you have to know, it might hurt a little bit. I mean I know you’re technically not a virgin, but you really are. You’ve never been with anyone in a real sense and even what happened was a long time ago. It’s most likely going to hurt a little…” Veronica was looking more and more frightened while he spoke. “But I promise I will make it feel good for you. Even if you can’t get there during, I’ll make sure that after, it feels amazing.”
Veronica steeled her shoulders and looked away from Logan’s erection long enough to answer him. “Okay.”
“Okay.” Logan got back on the bed with her. “We’ll start slow.”
Veronica lay down on the bed again and Logan hovered over her while they kissed. She wanted to feel his weight on top of her again so Veronica pulled him down. Logan’s erection was pushed against her stomach and Veronica was amazed that it could be so hard, but feel so soft. She reached down to stroke him and he moaned into her mouth. It felt like hard steel covered in the softest velvet. Even though Logan was barely even touching her, she could feel herself getting wetter with every stroke. Knowing she was getting Logan off was the best foreplay ever.
Logan was so turned on by Veronica touching him like this that he had to force himself not to thrust into her tiny hand. It felt so good to have her jerking him off, but he knew they had to stop so he took her hand off of his dick and brought it up to his shoulder. “You have to stop doing that before I lose it.” Logan used his fingers to test Veronica’s pussy. She was definitely wet enough for him now. “I think you’re ready now, so I’m going to get some protection.”
Veronica placed her hands on Logan’s shoulders to stop him. “Wait, just… have you been tested?”
“Yeah, I got tested a few months ago after Caitlin. I figured since she was cheating and everything…” Logan kind of trailed off not wanting to really bring this topic up.
“Okay, then I think… I don’t want you to wear a condom.” Veronica looked up into Logan’s shocked expression. “As long as it’s okay with you.”
“But… but Veronica, what about getting pregnant?” Logan had never even thought about having sex without a condom. There were just too many scary consequences out there.
“I’m on the pill. I have been since last year. This may not make sense to you; I just want my first real time to be a first for you also. I’m assuming you’ve never had sex without a condom before either. And this way it will be something that we both do for the first time together.”
Logan looked down at Veronica’s face and how nervous she was. He realized how much courage it must have taken for her to admit that and knew he was going to agree. Besides, the idea of fucking Veronica without a condom was about the hottest thing he had ever imagined. “I understand and if you’re sure that’s what you want to do, then it’s fine with me.”
“Yeah?” Veronica smiled up at him.
“Yeah.” Logan sealed the deal with a kiss and gently thrust his dick against her pelvis. He was pleasantly surprised when she thrust back. “Ready?”
“I think so,” Veronica answered nervously. When Logan smoothed her bangs off her forehead she felt a little bit better. He wasn’t going to hurt her.
“Just tell me if you need me to stop.”
“Okay.”
Logan reached down again and used his fingers to circle her clit a few times before spreading her legs. When his hips were surrounded by hers, he gently nudged her opening with the head of his cock. Looking up to make sure Veronica was okay, he began using just the head to rub from her clit to her opening and back up again.
He did this over and over again until she looked up at him with a pained expression on her face. “Logan, I need you now. Enough teasing.”
“Okay, baby, I’m sorry.” He kissed her mouth sweetly and guided himself inside her. Just a few inches at first, judging how much it hurt by Veronica’s facial expression. She tensed up at first, but after a few seconds was moving her hips in an invitation for him to go further. He started moving in and out, in and out until about half of his erection was inside her and he knew he had reached the point where it would hurt the most.
Logan began passionately kissing Veronica. She responded in kind and after a few moments he began trailing kisses down her throat towards her shoulder. Once he reached the fleshy part of her shoulder, he bit down on her skin and thrust all the way inside her.
Veronica wasn’t sure which startled her more, the bite or the fullness of Logan inside her. Neither one was actually painful, but more a feeling of tenderness. Logan whispered ‘sorry’ in her ear for the bite and began thrusting in and out of her. At first his movements were slow and easy, but then Veronica whispered in his ear, “Don’t hold back,” which spurred him on.
Logan began pumping his cock into Veronica harder and faster. She had never felt so full in her life; it was amazing and she didn’t want it ever to end. The harder he fucked her, the more she wanted him. The faster he went, the longer she wanted it to last. Veronica’s orgasm was quickly building and she could feel herself coming closer and closer to the edge. With one especially strong thrust, her whole world shattered and she screamed out his name. All she could see were the colors behind her eyelids and all she could feel was Logan long and hard inside her.
Fucking without a condom on was by far the best thing Logan had ever done. He had never felt anything as soft or tight as Veronica’s pussy. He was fine with his cock never leaving her hot core. After Logan felt Veronica’s climax, it wasn’t long before he had to give into his own. A few more thrusts and he filled her completely with his come. Once he was done, he slumped down on top of her and lightly kissed the spot he had bit earlier. He knew he was too heavy for her, so he tried to roll them over but Veronica locked her legs around his to prevent the movement.
“No, just stay where you are. I like feeling you on top of me, inside of me.” She kissed him all over his face, light butterfly kisses.
Logan let out a small chuckle. “Oh believe me, I like the feeling myself.”
A few minutes later they were both sound asleep.
*****
Around 5 o’clock in the morning, Logan awoke to Veronica tracing patterns on his back. Somehow he had ended up lying on his stomach and she was now on her side next to him. It took Logan a few seconds in his sleep fogged brain to realize what Veronica was doing. By the time it dawned on him that she was examining his scars, she had leaned down and was kissing each one.
Veronica knew the second that Logan had awoken and figured out what she was doing, but she didn’t care. She wanted him to know that she knew and still wanted to be with him. That she knew and wouldn’t ignore it like every other girl he had ever been with.
Logan didn’t cry about his abuse, not anymore. It wasn’t worth the time or the effort. He had stopped crying when he was a little boy; it only made everything worse. But right now, feeling Veronica’s soft lips lightly tracing the outlines of each scar, he wanted to cry. He knew he could and she would never judge him, but he didn’t want to. No use in ruining a perfectly good night/morning by bringing his father into it.
“So are you ever going to give me a real good morning kiss or do I have to steal one?” Logan turned over onto his back and smiled up at Veronica.
She was leaning on her elbow and quickly swooped down to plant a kiss on his mouth. “There. Happy now?” she asked, even though she knew the answer.
“Not even close. Come here,” Logan said while pulling Veronica on top of his body. Giving her a real kiss, he began running his hands all over her naked body. The skin to skin contact combined with his morning wood was going to drive him insane.
Veronica noticed it as well because she smiled against his mouth and rubbed herself against him. “Well at least I know some parts of you were thinking of me while we slept.”
“Baby, every part of me was thinking about you.” Logan winked at her.
“You know that’s like the fourth time that you’ve called me ‘baby’… I don’t remember you having pet names with Lilly.” Veronica hoped bringing up Lilly wasn’t a mistake.
Logan let out a little sigh. “No, Lilly called me a sentimental idiot when I tried using nicknames on her. After that I stopped even attempting it because no one mattered enough to have one. But then I don’t know, with you it just comes out naturally.”
“Just don’t call me ‘honey’,” Veronica said seriously.
“Umm… that’s an old person’s nickname so I never would, but why not?”
“Duncan used to call me that when we were together.” Veronica smiled when Logan started laughing. “…and I hated it.”
“I can understand that.” Logan kissed Veronica on the forehead and placed his hands on her lower back.
“Be careful mister, your hands are very close to dangerous territory,” Veronica warned playfully.
“What you mean here?” he asked while palming both cheeks and squeezing her ass.
“Logan!” Veronica pushed his hands back up. “Can I ask you something?”
“Anything.” Logan said seriously.
“Where does Aaron do it?” Veronica asked.
“Veronica, don’t ruin this by talking about him,” Logan admonished.
“No, we don’t have to actually talk about it just- does he always do it in the same room?”
Seeing that she wasn’t going to let this die Logan just answered her. “Yeah, his office.”
Trying to summon up her courage, Veronica sat up and took Logan’s hands into her own. “Then I want us to have sex in there.”
“What?” Logan was sure that if he had been drinking at that moment he would have spit it out like in the movies.
“I just- I was thinking about it and what better way to get revenge than to be in the room that is supposed to be hell for you and make it a room that you get to have sex with me in? I don’t know, it just seems like a way to fuck with Aaron without actually letting him know you’re fucking with him.”
“And I get to fuck you in the process?” Veronica slapped Logan’s chest and he chuckled in response. “I’m sorry that was just too good of a comment to pass up. But seriously, thank you for wanting to do that for me but you don’t have to.”
“I know I don’t have to- I thought of it. I want to do it. Logan let me do this for you.”
“Alright.”
*****
“So how do you want to do this?” Logan asked while looking around at the various furniture options in Aaron’s office. There was a desk, sofa and two chairs in the room and he was running through all the various ways they could do this.
“Anyway you want,” Veronica replied while looking at the gaudy display case with all of Aaron’s ridiculous and undeserved awards on them. She wanted to smash them all to smithereens.
“Veronica, you do not tell a 17-year-old boy that you will have sex with him anyway he wants. There are just far too many sick things going on in my head.” Logan glanced over at her and was awestruck by how amazingly beautiful she looked. Thankfully still naked, the sun was hitting her in just the right way to make it seem like she was glowing. If her statement hadn’t ensured his erection, the sight of her would have.
“Alright, that’s probably true.” Veronica turned towards him and listed her new amendment, “I’ll do anything you want that involves regular intercourse and doesn’t require pain of any kind.”
“Much better. I think you might have to come a little closer first though.” After he finished they both moved towards each other in the center of the room, automatically leaning towards the other to kiss. Logan ran his tongue along the seam of Veronica’s lips and she quickly opened her mouth for him. Logan palmed both of her breasts and she gasped into his mouth. He tugged on both her nipples and Veronica sucked on his tongue. Logan tested her boundaries and tugged even harder. Veronica threw her head back and cried out. When he was sure it wasn’t in pain, he bent down and sucked on her left nipple while continuously pulling on the other with index finger and thumb.
After a few minutes, Veronica needed more and removed Logan’s hand from her breast and placed it on her pussy. He got the hint and started finger fucking her. When she was close to climax Veronica pulled away and told Logan, “I want you to be inside me when I come.”
Logan could only nod his head and went back to kissing her. In his head he was questioning whether she would allow him to fuck her in the position he wanted to. It was the position that he always imagined them in whenever he jerked off. He would never admit how often when he was touching himself he was thinking of Veronica, even when they were pretending to hate each other. He figured if she could be brave enough to tell him all the things she had, he could ask her this. The worst that could happen is she said no.
Logan pulled away from her mouth slowly and asked, “Veronica, can we do it a little differently than last night?”
“Bored with me already?” Veronica quipped.
“No, it’s just that I kind of had this position I wanted to do with you and I don’t know if you’ll want to and if you don’t that’s fine. I just I figured I should ask since you did say anything I want, and I think it fits into your rules.”
Veronica found Logan’s rambling adorable. “Logan, I can’t do it if you don’t tell me what it is.”
“I was hoping that I could be behind you?” Logan’s voice sort of lifted at the end so that neither was sure if it was a statement or a question.
Veronica was more than a little turned on by his idea, but she had to clarify first. “You mean you want to do it doggie style?”
“If you want to call it that, sure.” Logan wasn’t sure if using the name would make it more or less appealing to Veronica.
“Okay, let’s do it.” Veronica began to move towards Logan again and he pulled her into a fierce kiss. When she lifted her hands around his neck he placed his hands on the backs of her thighs and picked her up. Veronica quickly wrapped her legs around Logan’s waist and licked the roof of his mouth. “Where do you want us to be?” she whispered in his ear.
Logan walked them over to the one arm chair. “Right here.” Veronica could tell by the look in his eyes there was a reason for this specific spot, but she didn’t want to press so she slid down his body, making sure to make contact with his hard shaft. Once she was standing again she wrapped her hand around Logan’s dick and began stroking. “Yeah, baby, harder. Squeeze me harder.” Veronica obliged and used her other hand to fondle his balls. “Fuck Veronica, that’s nice.”
Logan pulled Veronica closer and palmed her ass with both hands and slowly moved one hand down to her pussy. He pushed one digit in from behind just like his dick would be doing in a few minutes. She jumped in surprise and then moaned in appreciation. “I can’t wait anymore, I’m ready, Logan.”
“Okay, turn around for me.” Logan helped Veronica turn so that her back was to his chest and her front was facing the side of the chair. The arm of the chair came up to just below her stomach and she quickly saw how this was going to end up. Yesterday, she never would have thought the prospect of being fucked over the arm of a chair by Logan Echolls would be so arousing. But today her dripping core was proof that it was.
Logan stepped up even closer to Veronica and played with her breasts. Her head fell against his chest and she put her arms around his neck, which just served to push her cleavage further into his hands.
Slowly, Logan positioned his erection right near Veronica’s center and when she nodded slightly he surged inside her. Veronica fell forward with the force of it and Logan used his hands on her hips to steady her. “Was that too hard? I’m sorry.”
“No, it felt good, just a little unexpected.” Veronica turned around and smiled at him. “Keep going.”
Logan began thrusting in and out of Veronica, but it wasn’t as pleasurable as it could be because she was still standing and he had to strain to hit her spot. Running his hand from her hips up to her shoulders he gently pushed her so that she was leaning over the chair. Once he was sure she was comfortable, he began thrusting again. This time the feeling was amazing for the both of them and Veronica screamed his name.
“Oh god Veronica, I can’t believe how tight you are.” Logan was holding onto her hips again and pounding into her. Nothing had ever felt this good before.
“Logan,” Veronica panted out, “you feel so good, so long and hard inside me.” Veronica was sure that if Logan was any deeper he would come out her mouth, but it was the best feeling she had ever had.
Logan continued to pound into Veronica harder and harder; all the while she kept urging him on with her sexy words of encouragement. He knew she was saying those things because of where they were and it was a way to give him back a part of himself that he had lost in this room. But hearing her say things about how big his dick was or how much she loved feeling him inside her, was just about the most amazing present ever.
Veronica knew her orgasm was coming quickly so she started pushing back into Logan every time he thrust into her. When Logan reached around her hip and began using his fingers to play with her clit, she came hard. “Oh fuck, Logan, Logannnnnn.”
He had never felt a girl who came the way Veronica did. It was like the orgasm took over her whole body and all she could feel was it and him. Plus, her tight channel was amazing before, but after she came it was the wettest, hottest pussy he had ever felt.
Logan kept pounding into her for a few more minutes and wasn’t sure why, but his orgasm didn’t feel that close. He had always had staying power but now he wanted to let go because he would start hurting her soon, and it just wouldn’t happen. Veronica turned around and saw the anxiety on his face over the situation. “Do you want to change positions? We could sit or lay down if you want.”
“It would figure that the one time in my life I can’t come it would be his fault.” Logan slowly pulled out of Veronica and balled his hands into fists.
Veronica took his hands and uncurled them. She kissed each of his palms and then kissed him chastely on his mouth. Logan thought she was going to say something, but instead she abruptly got onto her knees in front of him. She was so quick that it took him a few seconds to register and by then she was already licking the head of his cock.
“Holy shit, Veronica.” He stared down as she licked the underside of his dick and then looked up into his eyes as she took him into her mouth. Logan just about died when she began to move slowly up and down. Veronica used her hand to hold the base of his cock and try to keep the same up-down rhythm with her hand and mouth. After she was able to figure out her rhythm, she began to suck on each upstroke.
Logan watched as the sweet, innocent Veronica he once knew sucked him off with all her might. It was one of the sexiest things he had ever seen in his whole life. He knew she had never done this before and that made it even better. She was a natural pro.
He placed his hands lightly on the back of her head and ran his hands through her short hair. Logan had realized very quickly last night and this morning that Veronica liked when he talked dirty. “Just a little bit harder baby… that’s it, suck me off just like that.” Within minutes he could feel that tingle in his lower back letting him know what was about to happen. He tried to warn Veronica, “I’m gonna come… sweetheart, you need to get up if you don’t want me to come in your mouth.”
But Veronica just kept sucking and stroking like she had been. A few seconds later Logan grabbed the sides of her face and held on while he came into her mouth. He was afraid that she would be mad, but she just kept sucking and didn’t stop until she had swallowed every last drop. Logan pulled her up and into his arms. “You didn’t have to do that. You could have stopped or spit. I wouldn’t have been offended.”
Veronica stood on her toes and kissed him. “I wanted to. You gave me plenty of chances to stop if I wanted to. Let’s go back to bed. I think we should get some more sleep.”
“Whatever you want, beautiful.” Logan kissed the top of Veronica’s head as he led her back to his room.
*****
While they were lying in bed spooning, Veronica started giggling. Logan ran his hand along her stomach and asked, “What’s so funny?”
“I can’t wait to see Dick’s face when we come back to school after break as a couple.”
Logan smiled into her hair. He didn’t want to be a girl and bring up the subject of whether they were a couple or not and was thankful she did it without it being a big drama-filled conversation. “I think Madison’s reaction will be even better.”
Veronica pulled his arm tighter around her body and nodded. They would deal with all the complicated stuff later. Right now she just wanted to lay in Logan’s arms and be happy.