i'm tired.

that's all.

it's all getting to be too much. everything. all of it. too much for me ( Read more... )

keep it all inside. all inside. all of it. everything.

and the cookie crumbles.

i had something so perfect, so clever, to write. it was but two or three words long, and impecably described what it is i feel.

but i forgot it. i lost it.

i wish i had written it down.

[and perhaps that's just as great a description of this mood.]

and today, i let myself go. i let myself feel. i let it out for the world.
i couldn't have made a better decision.

it makes me happy now.

i made a promise to myself to make a change.. and i asked whomever it is who listens to my prayers to make me a trade: grant me this one wish and i would make the necessary changes. well. i didn't get it. and so maybe the change isn't supposed to happen...yet. so the promise will have to wait. and i am kind of glad for that ( Read more... )

is someone getting the best of you?

I know somebody and they cry for you.
They lie awake at night and dream of you.
I bet you never even know they do, but somebody's crying.

I know somebody and they called your name.
A million times and still you never came.
They go on loving you just the same, I know that somebody's trying...

this song's been eating at me for days now...

and we go. and we go on. because we are adults. because that is the way of things. because we must...
and i learn. and i grow and i get better at this game. because it's essential. because i want to survive. but more than that, because i want to live. more than anything, i want to live..

free.