For some reason I feel incredibly alone today. I shouldn't but I do. Of the two most important people in my life, one has pretty much yelled at me every time I've seen her lately. We're not "not talking" but we haven't talked alot lately, and now shes flying east to meet up with her boyfriend and drive back here with him ( Read more... )

I was given the opportunity to betray the trust of a friend. To be honest I was tempted to do so. I made up a fictional scenario with a similar moral question, and of the 3 people I asked all three would betray that trust ( Read more... )

Well, Im done double posting. I dont think anybody even reads this but if they do my posts are on myspace... if you read them on a regular basis and dont know my myspace... well... thats creepy but leave a message and maybe ill tell you my myspace name.

Im done. Ive tried pushing my life forward as a stronger person. Ive tried following the demands placed on me by those in my life. Ive tried being everything for everyone. Ive tried being nothing to anybody but myself. And it gets me nowhere. Im done. Im gonna just tie the rope around my neck and let the world drag me where it wants me. At least it ( Read more... )

Ok, so I've been on time 2 days in a row now. Its kind of exciting, though i dont know whats different. I mean I know i havent used my snooze, so i know that must have been my problem cause thats the only difference but i dont know why im waking up as easily. Has Andrea been waking up earlier so it kinda starts me waking up earlier? Does it have to ( Read more... )

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

× I miss somebody right now.
✓ I don't watch much TV these days.  (though ive been watching more then i used to)
✓ I own lots of books.  (maybe not LOTS but enough)

✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.
✓ I love to play video games.
× I've tried marijuana.

✓ I've watched ( Read more... )

I wish i could say something like "i cant go on like this". But its not really true. I can go on, i am going on, and ive been going on "like this" for years. I just am tired of feeling like the last moving box that nobody wants to unpack, just getting in the way until i get shoved in a closet or something where i sit in the dark till i get in the ( Read more... )

Ok, so this weekend was simply exhausting. I went and picked up Andrea on Friday, and to be honest I dont remember much of Friday, the weekend was so busy... we went and picked up some food for Amber, then stopped by Andrea's house to pick up some clothes and things and then headed up to Vancouver. We stopped by the storage space to drop off a few ( Read more... )

Ive only been at my parents' house for 3 days and im already sick of being there and ready to leave. I love my mom, but she is constantly criticizing me. Constantly saying things in such a way to make you feel guilty or stupid for even thinking about doing something ( Read more... )

Ok, so ive been away from this site long enough for people to stop reading it i think. So while I am going to continue using my other blog for the day to day stuff i think im going to start using this one instead for my personal ones. I have a hard time keeping my blogs private. I tell friends because even though I am writing for me, sometimes i ( Read more... )