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So my father is coming to town...
A father doesn't and shouldn't abandon his children. I don't think I'm ready to forgive him for that. It does not matter just how many times he apologizes to me, I can't get beyond that point just yet. It hurts without a doubt that I could've been different from what I am today if I had been raised by him. Maybe I would've been happier, who knows?
But maybe it was for the better because I would have just wound up being exactly like him. He took sis from me and didn't say a thing to me. I just have this feeling that he was there that day when Ellone left.
... I just don't know what to do right now. I can't face him. I... don't wish to hurt him by the things I might say to him. I have no clue what I would say to Laguna my father even if we were to come face to face. It's difficult to say.
A father doesn't and shouldn't abandon his children. I don't think I'm ready to forgive him for that. It does not matter just how many times he apologizes to me, I can't get beyond that point just yet. It hurts without a doubt that I could've been different from what I am today if I had been raised by him. Maybe I would've been happier, who knows?
But maybe it was for the better because I would have just wound up being exactly like him. He took sis from me and didn't say a thing to me. I just have this feeling that he was there that day when Ellone left.
... I just don't know what to do right now. I can't face him. I... don't wish to hurt him by the things I might say to him. I have no clue what I would say to Laguna my father even if we were to come face to face. It's difficult to say.