bleh
grrrahhhhh!
i don't know...i'm just feeling...bleh.
apathetic
annoyed
bitchy
frustrated
lonely
overwhelmed
there's more, but i can't quite put a finger on it. and my nose is slightly stuffy like it's threatening to make me sick...i do not approve of this.
i don't know what's wrong with me tonight/today...all day i've been fiesty and quick to anger (as unlikely as that sounds, it does happen), even with one of my professors (granted the project we were meeting about isn't exactly helping the situation) i was almost short, very close to snapping at her and telling her what a bullshit project it was and why i shouldn't have to do it. fuck her and her stupid project.
i'm sick of researching primary literature on the effects of cocaine on dopaminurgic cells and the development of the brain. fuck it, it's not interesting nor do i give a shit. not even one tiny, microscopic little shit. but i'm doing it anyway because otherwise my grade will be compromised. i really wish that simple letters didn't mean so much to me.
and as cool as molecular genetics is, i'm really not looking forward to giving a fucking 40-50 minute presentation on genetic/dna vaccines (though at least the research is more interesting than the previous project). oh, and another poster for the gene that we cloned in lab...which was the purpose of all the lab work we were doing. i think senioritis is starting to set in...god help us all.
it could also be that being on the swim team with a bunch of other girls is messing up my cycle and i'm PMSing a week and a half too early. i'll spare the details, but i'm pretty sure i have other confirmation of this theory...we'll just have to wait a little bit to see. wtf-ever. (Ballard, 2005)
conference is next week. i'm not focusing on my swims like i ought to, i really would just like to get it over with and then get drunk at the party. i know it's bad, but what can i say? i'm just not in the mood.
at least i'm not in excrutiating pain like i was last week. just mild pain now. yay.
i don't know...i'm just feeling...bleh.
apathetic
annoyed
bitchy
frustrated
lonely
overwhelmed
there's more, but i can't quite put a finger on it. and my nose is slightly stuffy like it's threatening to make me sick...i do not approve of this.
i don't know what's wrong with me tonight/today...all day i've been fiesty and quick to anger (as unlikely as that sounds, it does happen), even with one of my professors (granted the project we were meeting about isn't exactly helping the situation) i was almost short, very close to snapping at her and telling her what a bullshit project it was and why i shouldn't have to do it. fuck her and her stupid project.
i'm sick of researching primary literature on the effects of cocaine on dopaminurgic cells and the development of the brain. fuck it, it's not interesting nor do i give a shit. not even one tiny, microscopic little shit. but i'm doing it anyway because otherwise my grade will be compromised. i really wish that simple letters didn't mean so much to me.
and as cool as molecular genetics is, i'm really not looking forward to giving a fucking 40-50 minute presentation on genetic/dna vaccines (though at least the research is more interesting than the previous project). oh, and another poster for the gene that we cloned in lab...which was the purpose of all the lab work we were doing. i think senioritis is starting to set in...god help us all.
it could also be that being on the swim team with a bunch of other girls is messing up my cycle and i'm PMSing a week and a half too early. i'll spare the details, but i'm pretty sure i have other confirmation of this theory...we'll just have to wait a little bit to see. wtf-ever. (Ballard, 2005)
conference is next week. i'm not focusing on my swims like i ought to, i really would just like to get it over with and then get drunk at the party. i know it's bad, but what can i say? i'm just not in the mood.
at least i'm not in excrutiating pain like i was last week. just mild pain now. yay.