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i had a dream last night that i had two daughters, young blonde daughters in pink bathing suits taking swimming lessons at a day camp while i worked all day at some office - not a nice, white-collar office, it was like i was a secretary for some lawyer slash mobster slash money launderer and the office was a total slum, a roach motel. and i wore

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I need me some editing help! okay, so for lack of a better option (because you do NOT have your EMAIL address VISIBLE, I'm going to send you the stuff I have qualms about and YOU are going to help me diSECT them and make them better, or just tell me what you like and don't like.
you know, the thing you're always asking people to do in undercoverbunny and which I never really do as I am ABYSMAL at it? which is why I'm asking for your HELP chere!
and from here on in I PROMISE to HELP with whatEVER you need. we can be WRITING BUDDIES (oh a michelle referenc ewhich you won't GET because I am so LAX about sending stuff I apologise)

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i have five cigarettes left, & two dollars. & some change. one of the dollars doesn’t really count because i’m gonna need it for bus fare. it’s spent already. i’m cold even though it’s august & i’m sitting on the porch roof, smoking. the shingles are holding heat from the sun, even though the it’s setting. i press my hands down on them and they’re all warm.

i wanted to smoke & write, but all that comes out is ‘mouth’. i’m going through a minor obsession with kissing, like i’ve just learned about it. i learned about it from looking at your mouth, which i think was made for my enjoyment.

TWO (one was the intro btw)

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This guy on the bus had a paper bag, I couldn’t see what was in it, but it smelled like glazed donuts. When I was little we called them honeydew donuts, I think. I think but I can’t really remember. I remember early early every morning, when it was still dark out, my dad would pick me up from my moms in Dorchester, to drive me to school. And he always stopped at dunkin donuts before he picked me up, and brought me a donut. it used to be I liked those chocolate glazed ones, I can’t even talk about it now because it’s so gross. I don’t know if I had to many of them back then, or if at some point I realised what I was eating, anyway, i hate chocolate glazed donuts. It probably was the overload factor, cause I still sometimes like glazed donuts. that shit is good!anyway. I got off the bus and hauled my books to the bookstore for the buyback. mostly there’s only my german texts left, the past three weeks have been so broke i’ve sold off every book i don’t desperately need, need it to survive. I’m taking german next term so really i

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I listened to cold cold water for the first time a month or so ago, not so long ago. My old housemate really loved Mirah, and so she played me some of her songs. Not cold cold water, but light the match and a few others, that I don’t remember now. I loved light the match. Later I looked for the cd that had it at Jackpot, bringing it up to the counter a bit surreptitiously because I was ashamed, the cd came out, what, two years ago, and I’m just buying it now. Michelle Tea wrote about having similar feelings and I was soothed, but still. Sometimes, often, I feel unworthy of living in Portland