Disclaimer, so no one calls the police: this is the fictional diary of Sir Guy of Gisborne from the Robin Hood BBC TV series. This season he basically has two settings: homicidal or suicidal, so please also consider this a trigger warning.
Disclaimer 2: Guy is an idiot.
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September 1194
Dear Diary,
Winter is beginning to bite. I have no shelter, no food - nothing but a stolen bow and sword, and the clothes on my back. The fire in me burns low, but I am too cold to sleep. I do not care. I will sleep soon enough.
I thought there was someone following me today, but no one appeared. If it had been Hood or his men, they would have attacked by now. When dawn comes, I will continue searching.
I will go after Hood, and if I survive, Isabella. And then Prince John. I will put an end to this torment, one way or another. Isabella has betrayed me, time and again. It is her fault that Meg is dead. Hood... I cannot even remember all the reasons why he is my enemy.
I do not think I can win - I am in no state to fight. It will be a relief. I am so weary of this world, where the good and innocent die, and animals like myself must live on in pain and fear and anger.
I have lost everything - my love, my home, my hopes. Even when my intentions are good, I cause death and destruction to those around me. I seem to be born to fail, and to cause pain and unhappiness. Well, I will not trouble this world for much longer.
I stalk Nottingham like a wolf. I am waiting for my moment. I am waiting for the end.