I hate what these fucking diseases do to us. I'm so happy I'm so much further out of mine these days and I'm so sad you are so much further into yours. You need to break the cycle. Get out of the rut. I wish you could. You could you know. Please don't keep refusing help.
Gah. Fucking eating disorders. It's like banging your head against a brick wall. *many hugs* x
you give great love and care and support to others, I've seen it in your lj comments.
and you're suffering, and it is NOT your fault.
you are not your weight. you are not your disease, though it's hurting you so badly. there is so much more to you, struggling, fighting, waiting for recognition. you are strong. you are strong or this wouldn't hurt so much. you can survive, heal, get well - given time and lots of love, especially self-love.
self-love always starts with just a moment, just a moment of care for the self, one tiny gesture and the recognition of that gesture. if I had any sway I'd ask you to go find a beautiful leaf or flower to look at.
one little gesture you can record, tell yourself about, a tiny spark to fan into flame, the first handful of earth for a new structure of self - a self of love and care that flows in as well as out.
you're welcome! I felt like I wanted to reach out to you, reading your words. And yes, I am kind and loving to myself, too - not always, but regularly. it's a good way to foster love for other people!
you know what I'd really like to read here? Some of your reflections on name-calling, what it does for you, what you'd like it to do, what you've learnt about it. just a thought.
oh, and because I'm not really trying to be all super-mysterious and creepy, I'm Jen, I often read dear Johnny's journal, which is where I see your comments. :)
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I hate what these fucking diseases do to us. I'm so happy I'm so much further out of mine these days and I'm so sad you are so much further into yours. You need to break the cycle. Get out of the rut. I wish you could. You could you know. Please don't keep refusing help.
Gah. Fucking eating disorders. It's like banging your head against a brick wall. *many hugs* x
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you give great love and care and support to others, I've seen it in your lj comments.
and you're suffering, and it is NOT your fault.
you are not your weight. you are not your disease, though it's hurting you so badly. there is so much more to you, struggling, fighting, waiting for recognition. you are strong. you are strong or this wouldn't hurt so much. you can survive, heal, get well - given time and lots of love, especially self-love.
self-love always starts with just a moment, just a moment of care for the self, one tiny gesture and the recognition of that gesture. if I had any sway I'd ask you to go find a beautiful leaf or flower to look at.
one little gesture you can record, tell yourself about, a tiny spark to fan into flame, the first handful of earth for a new structure of self - a self of love and care that flows in as well as out.
you are so worthwhile.
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you know what I'd really like to read here? Some of your reflections on name-calling, what it does for you, what you'd like it to do, what you've learnt about it. just a thought.
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