Hope, give up on it. All it is is delusion, making reality crumble away into something more bearable, but reality never stays buried and it comes back to haunt. I feel like i never want to believe in anything again, never invest my soul in another thing. This is how things are, this is how i will feel for along time ( Read more... )

Well so far today i have given my pc a mac makeover and done one of those personality test things, how low can i go!? lol. Actually i suppose the makeover has made my comp look alot better than before, see what you think.... http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y130/ ( Read more... )

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well i poseted a reply so i broke my word to not use this site so i may aswell now post again. ive decided no matter how much shit happens in my life im always gunna be luckier than all of you out there! you know why? cause ive got joey and you dont :P hahahaha! now if i could write songs or poetry like him id probably write some and post them now ( Read more... )

im officially givin up usin this site for a while, anyone i wanna say stuff to i can jes say by email or msn. atleast this way i can stop postin a load of bollocks about which only one person really cares. peace yall

im jes writin this cause its summin to stop me jes sittin here doin nuthin at 2.39 in the mornin. fer the last two days ive supported ma mate sam through a break up and get together of a relationship which holds him together. all that i had left to support maself through what im goin through is jes gone. i feel like a shell, just movin and talkin ( Read more... )

jes failed ma exams!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wooot sounds fun as no? neway yeah basically fucked up one module of each exam so got 3 c's and a b! this shit sucks, neway bye fer now

jesus, what is this? like the shittest time of year ever! everyone i know is dying, even my pets die while im away in france. two of my best friends are fightin restlessly leavin one dangerously depressed. and at the moment i dont even have anyone to say this is gunna be fine and life aint that bad, cause the only person who i know who can do that ( Read more... )

ive managed to find a comp to go online with briefly, cept its french so the keys are in wierd places! i dont have long so ill just say whats on my mind right now, i miss joey. thats about all i can think of, so this kinda sucks. also unlike him i dont have a cut to cuddle up to as a kind of cuddle replacement! :( neway hope everyones havin a good ( Read more... )