Hmm i have conditioning today. Sucks. But its only for an hour and a half, how bad could it be? I dont even want to begin to think about it. So i actually have some stuff to write in my 'normal journal' thing when i find one. Its odd how easily i can write something private, probably because i know that not everyone can read it. Only the people i ( Read more... )

I got this great idea of starting a normal notebook/journal. I dont know why exactly but ive been spilling everything today. Its weird, i just started typing and by the time i finished i had like 4 paragraphs of things i wanted to say but never did. I liked it but just made me realize how much stuff i keep to myself. I need to open up i guess. I do ( Read more... )

One day i want to go down to the beach around 1:00 and spend the whole day down there. Then watch the sunset on the lifeguard stands while eating ice cream or drinking a tropical smoothie. Since its summer my other plan wouldnt work since the nights arent really cold but ill tell yall anyways. So as the day turns into night, snuggle with blanket or ( Read more... )

haha how nice

Well I'm home on a friday night. How lovely! I hate being home especially when my parents are fighting. Thats the worse that could ever happen. But they've calmed down a bit i guess, i wouldnt know since I'm trying to stay away from them. Its really hard since im all alone and home with them with nothing to do. I need to be out like every night now ( Read more... )

Hmm since my last update I've just been trying to figure myself out and stuff. Also trying to make up a new lj name. Any ideas?

Lets see Ive been trying to figure out why i can get mad so easy now. Its really weird i can be all happy then be really mad 10 seconds later. I hate it. Also I can get really bothered by alot of things now, that its not ( Read more... )

My title says alot to me. Alot has changed. And no, not the good change. Maybe I over re-act to everything. But if i said it was nothing, then I'd be lieing. Its deff something. But nothing worth losing.

its a tug-o-war------will we win? or will we lose?

^^^can you answer it? or will it be waited out?

is it worth all this?

is it worth getting mad/sad and everything every night?

if it is real then it hurts

i guess thats what its supposed to do

let our conversations kill us....because thats all we are doing....being killed

Well I'm back. But I havent updated because my brothers crashed all the computers while i was gone. What butts! Since I've been back its been ok. Not exactly good but not really bad. Confusing, yes. But i really dont want to get into it. So my trip was fine. Nothing big. I got really mad like every night and wanted to just cry, but i didnt. <
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I really dont know what to say but I'm just going to update anyways. So since my last entry nothing has really happened, just packing. I still havent figured out what I'm feeling yet. It might be love, I'm not sure. Its so hard to explain this. It's like i feel everything at once. Happiness and everything, everything you can imagine. So could you ( Read more... )