Makes me melt...

[perfecterror]

I'm so sick of waiting for him... but what else can I do. Theres no logic involved with us... at all. Our relationship doesnt make sense. He doesnt make sense. It's harder every day not to tell him just how deeply I feel for him

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[sleepdrunken]

I know you won't listen... because you didn't last time... but I will keep saying it for as long as you make me say it: You're good enough for anyone... and if anything you're too good for him. You can't totally disagree because there are a dozen ways to look at that statement and at least one will prove positive.
It amazes me everytime you get into one of your deep-thought fits... I sometimes forget if I'm reading something from you or myself. It's all kind of funny really...
I love you Crysta

[perfecterror]

Bambi, I'm not as perfect as you think I am. What I meant by that is I could never be so... resilient... I can’t be so positive all the time... and useful.... and quick thinking... He knows so much more than me. He needs someone who can keep up with him and challenge him from day to day.... not bring him down. Maybe I'm just making excuses for him.... I don’t know. Point is I'm not what he needs. Thanks for the compliment though. And, I love you too. I love that we think on the same frequency... makes me feel like I'm actually talking to someone when I write... not just myself.

[sleepdrunken]

And you must remember, my sweet, that he is also not as great as you think... but then you must know that, deep down I think. Perhaps, in settling for the fantasy, you'd like to not limit it and that's only fair so I won't say anything more of it. By the way... I know you isn't perfect... I'd be appalled and wouldn't speak to you. You are however, up there... and I think you lack giving yourself proper credit sometimes...
So there's my two cents... I'll throw in a haypenny for a kiss... :D heheh...

[perfecterror]

Thanks Bambi.

[efexzero]

hmmm... okay i think you should read what you wrote, especially the begining. think realisticly and by that i mean negatively. criticize yourself. You need to figure this one out yourself. Just think about it. I dont wanna get you all mad at me, so i'm not going to say anymore. Even if i did you most likely wont listen to me. I was in your position before. Trust me, You'll come out of this way better then i did. think about this, the way it sounds, If you did date, you'd fall for him even harder cause you'd open yourself up and let yourself be vulnerable, and when you do break up, (there's no doubt in my mind that you would just by hearing what you say) It will hurt more then you can imagine. you'd realize, there are worse things than death. belive me i know. sorry for this being so long. talk to me sometime! I'll explane.

[perfecterror]

I'm sure you're right... I dont think you realize that I know I cant date him... I dont actually see that happening... not even in the future... It's just not realistic. What I need you to understand is that this... love for him... is what's keeping me going. I've never been more motivated in my life. And, its not because I love him... its because he's who I love.. he's the most ambitious person Ive ever met.... he has incredible drive... and I admire him above all others... I need this Bobby... My head isnt as far in the clouds as you might be thinking... just take my word for it... I know where I stand. Thanks Bobby....

[demonicloser666]

damn you you always write sooo much!!!

[perfecterror]

Thats all you have to say about that entry........
Do me a favor... read it.

[demonicloser666]

im to lazy i have band projects to do this week sweetheart maybe sum other time ill commit that favor ok i love you!!! keep in touch !

[perfecterror]

Yeah...

[n3v3risapromis3]

Your welcome(I read EVERY word)

I don't know what your thing is because you certainly don't give yourself enough credit but that's another story - I think you probably already know what I think of everything you wrote about in here, but uhm i'm glad this is all you've found time to write about, I guess overall everything is going good on your part-hope you come to st.pete soon. love you &heart;

[perfecterror]

Thanks Becky... Im just trying to make sense of it all you know... It helps when I organize my thoughts by typing them as they come to me... thats what this journal is for right? I love you!