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[perfection89]

God, sometimes I just wish I could die. I hate this so much. It's taking over my life. If I don't fit into clothes, what do I do? Stop eating and drink water and eat carrots (even then I feel yucky). I have dinner tonight with my family and cousins. I'm not eating anything today until dinner, I refuse to have that many calories in one day

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[jayamirri]

pretty girl i've seen your pictures and i know that you're thin and gorgeous. someday you'll see it too. ever considered recovery?

[perfection89]

The problem with recovery is that I'm not at a low enough weight, and I like it right now, if that makes any sense- I like pushing my own limits. Plus, going into recovery would mean I would have to tell my parents, and I can't deal with disappointing my parents, even from when I was at an early age. I think recovery might be an elusive thing for a while, at least, if that makes sense.