0. Do you cut? cut, gash, slash, hack... yes.
1. Who do you hide SI from? no one. it's not something i'm ashamed of. plus i hardly ever see people i would need to hide it from... like family and stuff.
2. Who knows about it? my mum, my nana, my friends, some of my mums friends.
3. How long has it been since you last cut? an hour or so.
4. Have you ever tried to commit suicide before? several times.
5. Where do you usually cut? anywhere and everywhere.
6. When you cut, who's usually the first to find out? whoever i tell/see.
7. What's your worst experience with a fresh cut? oh, this is kinda funny really... i cut a huge gash in my leg (i've posted pictures before) and it was the deepest i'd done so far, and i kinda panicked and started running round the house in my underwear bleeding everywhere til my mum came in...
8. Do you have a fascination with scabs? i like to pick/scratch/cut them off.
9. Do you like scars, yes or no? i do. yes.
10. Do you name your razor? i have too many to name. but i have a heartshaped box i keep them in.
11. What other methods of SI do you use? burning, starving, making myself sick if i eat anything, scratching, banging my wrists on corners, banging my head off walls etc...
12. do you dislike the term "self mutilation"? not really. its what we're doing isnt it?
13. What various ways do you use to hide cuts? i dont really. but if its nessecary then long sleeves, thick black tights and clothes that cover my breasts and stomach.
14. Once cuts heal, do you still hide the scars? nope.
15. Ever been institutionalized/hospitalized for SI'ing? oh yes. many a time.
16. Do you ever run into problems with hiding cuts (i.e: gym change rooms)? not really. i guess i like to shock people sometimes.
17. What's the best part about cutting to you? the blood, the pain and the release.
18. Do you know of any songs that talk about SI? i dont care if it hurts, i want to have control, i want a perfect body, i want a perfect soul - radiohead, creep.
found a box full of sharp objects, what a beautiful day - the used, box full of sharp objects.
watch the blood run down her arms, please don't take notice - kittie, paperdoll.
The television screen is streaked with blood smeared from your knuckles as you were trying to punch it out but you underestimated its strength, or maybe you just weren't trying hard enough. Startled by a knock
at the door you rise for the first time in two days to answer, but you can only greet the visitor with one short statement. "Hello my first name is distance and I really don't care if I never wake up again" - mercury rising, from autumn to ashes.
She said kill me faster, With strawberry gashes all over, all over me - strawberry gashes, jack off jill
please forgive me for not being pretty or sexy, here's what you'll find next time you undress me, scars, wounds, i'm bruised, watch me bleed - beauty fiend, my ruin
19. Have you ever been caught cutting/burning, etc? hahaha, yes. my mum caught me razor blade in hand, mid hack, and asked what the fuck i was doing. i replied "nothing, FUCK OFF" and weilded the blade at her.
20. What instrument do you use to cut? double edged razorblades, razorblades for shaving razors that i've pulled apart, knives, scalpels, glass, craft knifes... anything sharp...
21. What causes you to cut? everyday life.
22. What do you feel afterwards? in pain, but good.
23. What is your closest Close Call? when i hacked a main vain in my wrist. i had to go to hospital. i squirted the nurse with blood.
24. How long have you been doing it? since i was 12.
25. Do you keep a razor in your bag? i keep one behind the battery in my phone.
26. Ever needed stitches for a cut so deep? many times.
27. Do you have someone like a therapist you talk to regularly? not really.
28. Are your parents divorced? yes. but that has nothing to do with it.