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“Undelivered love letter”
It was our first summer together
I wore my best Sunday dress
Colored my plump cherry lips
And stole my mother's new shoes
I remember we laid by the river of Cleveland
You put your head on my stomach
And twisted grass in your fingers
Saying you couldn't live without me
By autumn robbed
By winter chilled
Your letter went
Through so many hands
But never reached mine
By spring warmed
By summer burnt
Your letter went
Through so many hearts
But never reached mine
We've been kissing till our lips were sore
Then we've sat on the swings in the backyard
Looking at the sheep-shaped clouds upon
And the sun warmed my feet
I remember we were both seventeen
You flied paper planes in the skies
Writing my name on their wings
Saying there were no you without me
By autumn robbed
By winter chilled
Your letter went
Through so many hands
But never reached mine
By spring warmed
By summer burnt
Your letter went
Through so many hearts
But never reached mine
It was our last summer together...
“Angry with the sun”
And I can’t take another look at you
Just the way I can't look at the sun
But I know you are there
Just the way I can feel the sun
And I’m angry
Angry
Angry with the sun
Don’t you feel sorry for me, baby
When sand gets in-between your toes?
I’ve progressed from thinking of you daily
To never at all
I might not know what love is
But I have learned what love isn’t
I still shudder whenever I come across you
But that’s okay,
It’s okay to remember
Never thought you would get tired of me, baby
When I could last forever more
I’ve found myself with all the tears and pain
Of loosing you
I bet you took her
I bet she laughed
I wish I was her
But that’s okay,
It’s okay to remember
"Woman"
His eyes looked down and I laid there
Feeling oddly
Happy under the stars
My naked backside against a car
Pushing the
Drivers side mirror
It was definitely wrong
But we kissed until I swallowed
Swallowed up the sky and the summer air
Enough guilt for two
Needy, lonely people
Not enough for two
People in love
How many roads
Should a boy walk
Till he
Becomes a man?
How many times
Should a heart break
Till I
Become a
Woman?
I like it when it's four in the morning
And face is
Illuminated by the street light
And as you tuck my hair behind the ears
I sigh
So new day laughs at me
It was definitely wrong
But we kissed until I swallowed
Swallowed up the sky and the summer air
Enough guilt for two
Needy, lonely people
Not enough for two
People in love
How many roads
Should a boy walk
Till he
Becomes a man?
How many times
Should a heart break
Till I
Become a
Woman?
“Casual tears”
You've asked me if I've loved another
What can I say but that I have
Poor you, that knowledge hurts you darling
to know that someone else is sleeping in my head
Casual tears cross my eyes and then
Blur my vision from seeing
I used to trade love and then
After renting it for a while
I’m leaving
We've never made those verbal vows
and didn’t stick our hearts so to be broken
we’ve run dry out of our well without
a smile, a touch, or poems as a token
Casual tears cross my eyes and then
Blur my vision from seeing
I used to trade love and then
After renting it for a while
I’m leaving
“Virginia girls grow up”
Ceiling stars…
the telescope eyepiece
please softly….
The taste of love…
Tantalizes my tongue
Please slowly…
Trapped into female body
I’m nineteen tonight
For every man who seduced me
I’m nineteen tonight
Coffeine rock…
Footprints in carpet
Please quietly…
Both too young
The cigarettes’ smoke
Please….
“Tightrope walkers”
Some have more
And some have less
But by loving you I know I have more than anybody else
I have learned
To be grateful
For what we have and had and what we have not yet
He had strength
And she had none
But yet they both reached for the love
On a tightrope when I’m up
I’m always half way down
Can’t be tempted by those
Who’s standing on firm ground.
You’re the only thing that hasn’t
Broken, failed or lost
Love still stands
When everything else falls
Love leads us by
The paths unknown
And we cannot turn back we can only move forward
If I had
One thing to tell
I would say I’m glad I’ve known you in this life so well
He had strength
And she had none
But yet they both reached for the love
On a tightrope when I’m up
I’m always half way down
Can’t be tempted by those
Who’s standing on firm ground.
You’re the only thing that hasn’t
Broken, failed or lost
Love still stands
When everything else falls
"Last year queen"
Take my hand and see
I am still the same
After crashing down
I’m not scared to start over again
But you touched my face
Put your fingers in my hair
And wiped that black spot from mascara on my cheek
Just like shooting star
Never rise again I felt
Looking into your eyes
I have never been that sick
The crown is broken
And my eyes are red from the tears I’ve cried
The throne is stolen
And flowers are dead
No reason to fight
I have known glory
So many smiles I’ve seen
No happy ending in my story
What am I doing here?
Last year queen
Say that you still care
And that I’m forgotten by everyone
Doesn’t make you laugh over there
It’s easy to ignore me
But you would be a real man
If you just hold me in your arms again
"Girl like that"
She drinks her cold coffee
And listens to “hey Jude” on the radio
Tanned, blonde and blue-eyed girl
She doesn’t care that you’ve fallen for her
She’s got too much of attention
To sink it in her cup
Her fingers bump the melody
For all the broken hearts
Her red lipstick seduces you
And you just can’t take your eyes away
Every girl like that
Isn’t forgotten yet
You give them different names
But they won’t take my place
She holds a cheap novel
And some coins in her hand
You feel her fragrance
Of the flowers she was sent
You may think she’s a goddess
The greatest of all
But I’m the person you love and
You are my boy
"Umbrellas follow the rain"
So tired
Such a good reason to be
So in love
So in love with you
Leaves fall at your feet
So do I; In infinite
Laces of days
You happened to me
Happened to me
Tangerine umbrellas follow the rain
To a bird-filled coasts and bays
Two pressed into each other
Under morning paper sky
Wearing nothing but raindrops
The wetness winding up desire
So stranded
Such a good reason to feel
Stranded
I am so aware of your presence
So I forget mine sometimes
I cannot point
Where me end
And you begin
My clothes went soaking wet
Will you saturate me?
"Afterthoughts"
I should start coming home more
But you've necked me like a bird
It was routine, routine, routine, routine
Till I've ended up in the bed you're sleeping in
I’ll leave the water run to hide
The sound of my crying
Will morning ever remit my sins?
Will morning ever recover my dreams?
You've made your way
Through my clothes to my skin
This time I didn't hesitate to let you in
You were good last night
You have never ever been that close
To figure me out