It's been a long time coming

[periculosa]

It is after seven in the morning and I have not yet slept. I'm exhausted--I had a full day of music, friends, booze, and boys--but I don't feel like sleeping. There has been something kicking around in my mind lately, something I've been telling to shut up for a very long time, and I feel the need to finally write about it. I cannot sleep until I

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[megyal]

I want you to write that book. I will read it and smile over it the way I'm grinning now. And maybe cry a little. You've possibly changed how I think about myself and that's awesome. I wish you had this unlocked so I could share it, but it's such a marvelous post.

I AM comfortable in my body. And it IS nice, damn straight.

Giiiirrrl you hot no lies.

[periculosa]

I was actually going to unlock it, and now I have definitely done so. Share away.

I'm really, REALLY glad this spoke to you. I think a whole lot of women need to read this (or something like it). If you're interested in further reading I'd recommend kateharding.net and Kate Harding's book "Lessons From the Fat-O-Sphere," which I have purchased but not yet read. I heard many good things about it though.

Thank you so, so much.

[megyal]

*HUGS* Thank you so much my dear.

[salixbabylon]

Thanks for leading the way here. :)

[forcedmovement]

This post makes my heart sing, seriously. I think it's really what I needed to hear right now. I have such body image issues and hearing this come from someone who is similar to me in size makes me feel pretty beautiful too.

AND SINCE I'VE MET YOU IN REAL LIFE AND SEEN THE HOT IN ACTION, I CAN ATTEST TO THE FACT THAT YOU'RE GORGEOUS.

So, I'm going to Disney World this summer and expect to be swimming a lot, and I need new swimsuits. What kind of flattering, non-grandmotherly swimsuits would you recommend?

[periculosa]

I'm so glad to hear that. Seriously, it makes me so glad to know that reading this is helping people out.

THANK YOU. SO ARE YOU!!! <3

[sirona_gs]

Hey, I'm here through megyal's rec, I hope you don't mind. This is a totally awesome post. Throughout my life, I have struggled with very similar issues as you. From the age of 5 on I have always been chubby. As I went through middle school, I got boobs first out of my circle of friends, so I went through the whole, "you can't hang out with us unless you let us touch your boobs". That by ~13-year-old girls, dude. So I started hanging out with boys much more often. I did get the odd "meatball" reference, but I learned to block it soon enough.

My Dad is utterly awesome. He is a doctor, however, and a lot of my self-esteem issues have to do with him criticising me for being overweight. As my sister is a perfectly slim little minx, I stood out even more in the family. And I used to do a fucking lot of physical exercise. You are totally right - fat just sometimes fucking happens; it doesn't affect your personality or your sense of humour, except to improve them. I know my Dad would be devastated if he knew how much his comments and prodding

[rsadelle]

I got here via megyal's link. If you haven't read it, my additional reading suggestion is Nomy Lamm's "It's A Big Fat Revolution." Reading it now, there are a lot of things that aren't me, but when I read it in college, it was the first piece of feminist literature that I ever read that made me say, "She's talking about my life."

And yay for your big fat revolution! Yay for you finding a world and a realization that how you are is not bad, that fat is not an insult. ♥

[salixbabylon]

You look fucking gorgeous and very happy in your skin, which is something 90% of all women can't say. Thanks for sharing your story.

(here via megyal, BTW)