state of da Gira kittie =^..^=

[perse]

I keep meaning to post and then only getting to "journal - update" and feeling like a fool, so I don't. I write "tell me"s and post links to other things and don't write.

Well, it's time.

Comments

[droops]

Yep, most of what you said I've had myself, but on a milder basis. Hang in there.

[abnormal_apathy]

I think the fact that you're writing so clearly about the emotions and the processing is proof enough that you've come a long way. I can relate to the spankings...my mother used metal spoons, like the ones we use to stir giant pots of sauce. Horrid. I can't tell you how happy I was when my grandmother finally threw away these massive wooden spoons that used to hang in her kitchen for "decoration" but which my own mother was spanked with as a child. It was almost like a cycle was finally coming to an end for me.

Also, what you wrote about the feelings and emotions being suppressed by the medications is precisely why I'm so terrified of going on them in the first place.