impromptu writing: on not being spiritually bankrupt

[pervymalfoy]

I thought that when I returned to home, new york, I would be so invigorated with carefree joy; not depressed, drained, and unhappy with the world. I felt gutted-- I was consumed by myself and my awful incurable loneliness (which, in retrospect, I could've changed that by calling someone, but I just wanted to wallow). I didn't have anything at that

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[sceneisobscene]

tl;dr.

summer classes sucx.

[darkicephoenix]

Perhaps love isn't complicated, but I wouldn't know for sure. No one will. Sometimes if you never loved then you wouldn't be hurt. Some people are fine without "true love." Kudos to whatever makes them happy. We have our own standards for these things. My standard is simple. If I won't face a near death experience for you, then chances are it might not true love. There are many different types of love as there is hatred and every other emotion. I would say that I love my friends enough that I'd care for the feelings, but let's be honest. Would you die for any of your friends or face a near death experience for them without question

[darkicephoenix]

Anyway.... I'm happier alone than with people most of the time these days. Lmao. Not being around people when I'm not happy is a hell of a lot better than being around people when I'm not happy. It's less of an emotional burden on others even if they're willing to bear it. Might sound bitter or whatever but I shrug to that.