Drunk, again.

Hell.

"Everything is on backwards.
Fucking Dream Mirros.
Look what I can see!
Distort.
Deny.
Accept.
Resent.
Lament.
...Fear."

"Coward.
Afraid of a fun house mirror are we?
Give up, you're too weak."

...

"Accept it.
You know it's true."

"Fuck you."

"That all you can say?"

...

"Close your eyes then.
Run.
But you can't run forever.
You're gonna

man i just can't fucking do this anymore. im so sick of it all.

Being Drunk and Alone is definitely not a good combination.

I've been starting to pack my shit up all day. It's kind of exhilirating how many new oppurtunities to fuck my life up I'm going to be opening up. How will I screw things up this time I wonder?

Tonight, I am using alcohol to chase away my problems. E&J Brandy (my favorite) to be exact. Watch me as I spiral back down into addiction!!!

Cait, Timmy, Kristy and I went to see the Queers. It was okay. I hadn't really heard them much before. Oh this is pathetic. I get on here and try and write down all the good shit that happens. It's so self-deceptive. I'd look back and think that I was actually enjoying life at this point. Ha. So much shit just keeps getting piled up. Man I ( Read more... )

Man. I've been doing a lot of thinking. And it's not getting me anywhere. And ya know what this journal sucks. Great as a message board. Shitty as a journal. I always have to take into consideration that other people are reading it and that they will react to it. I'm hungry. Progressing to sleepy. I will focus on these two facts in an ( Read more... )

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Everything is falling the fuck apart. I don't know where I'm going or what I'm going to do i hope i don't end up back in jail don't have much more time to figure this out need to talk to krizzack brent sammy man fuck fuck