i love you ashley, thanks for making my life beautiful!!!

i love you soooooooooo much.

i dont mean to sound like the world revolvs around me, but everyone is agenst me. everyone. one of these days i am either going to kill someone else or myself. just not my ashy, i love her.

life is so abrupt. im such a horrible speller. i fucked up what time i have, forever. i will NEVER be happy ever again. its all gone, i murdered myself. im a worthless fucking loser.there is nothing you can do to ever make me feel different. i will never live again, ever. i am nothing, i dont diserve air, to bad thats involentary. food isnt though ( Read more... )

i am a failur, i am nothing. im sorry i love you. i will die soon, i feel it, i love you and do want to be with you bad. i love you. forever. fuck me.

please be ok, please be ok, please be ok, please be ok...

love you.

I love you Ashley McDermott!!! forever

and im not going anywhere! sowwie i will update later.

I love you Ashley McDermott!!! forever

and im not going anywhere! sowwie i will update later.

I love you Ashley McDermott!!! forever

and im not going anywhere! sowwie i will update later.

well after one and a half years, i finally slept over ashleys lol. she slept over my house allot of times, i have always been allowed on her side to sleep over her house, just, not with my parents. dunno why but they did last night. we had a Very nice night. long convo's thanksgiving dinner... twice. allot of pie, and still so full. i dunno ( Read more... )

well, i guess there is a good reason why i havnt been ranting on in my journal. its cause im happy. everything is getting better, about 7 months ago i guess things rapidly were falling, but latly things have been recovering. and all the nice words prove it. if only you knew how happy i was, and how happy we sound... i feel so much better. ( Read more... )