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my cousin sabrina came down to visit me this weekend
this part is a rant, so turn away now
I am so tired of being let down by my friends and then me excusing it. I allow people to walk all over me and I don't know why I put up with it. Honestly right now I can only think of 2 people who actually treat me like a real friend. They don't mind taking a tiny second to call me every couple of days just to see how I am, or actually want to hang out with me and they actually call me! Fuck Fuck Fuck Shit Shit Shit Bastard Bastard Bastard Cunt Cunt Cunt Fuck Fuck Fuck. I have no meaning or purpose in my life. It's so hard to shut my eyes to this pityful world full of hate and so much pain, so much pain. Jesus, its almost ridiculous how alone I feel. But all I am is just some hormonal teenager whining about their so called problems and their oh so horrible life where there horrible parents dont let them stay out all night and do drugs and completely flunk out of school, oh woe is me. Shit, this is not that. That is not me. But words aren't enough to convince and I already cried for help, probably the biggest cry for help you could do. But no one seems to hear. Well Fuck I guess I'll just live in my head.