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dont you hate it when you get a crush on a boy and you know you shouldnt. either hes a jackass, or a friends ex or an ex's friend, or has a girlfriend, or you are kinda seeing someone, or is your step brother. despite having at least 2 or 3 of these qualities, which crush your possibilites of ever doing anything, you find yourself crushing like a school girl for them.
but i mean that step brother thing worked out in clueless, so that one shouldnt even count, right?
im just playing.
i do kinda have a crush on a boy, a sexual crush, as opposed to my typical 5-a-day nonsexual crushes, but its totally stupid. i think its just my overactive hormones getting the best of me. i know nothing is going to happen, its just yet another thing mocking me in my face, teasing me, and making the next two weeks even more difficult to survive than they are already going to be. i think thats whats bothering me about it. i dont want to, and never would, do anything about it. but its there. like a tic.
damn you hormones. they say that when you are on the rag you are hornier than usual. this is proof that this is, in fact, true.
i mean, seriously, when the hell was the last time i had a sexual crush????? i never have, and never will, even have a NONsexual crush on this boy, and i don't think i have EVER had a sexual crush on a boy without having a NONsexual crush first.
well maybe thats not true, because i was 17 once.
but anyway, i just dont do that. im ALWAYS drawn to personality first.
there is honestly not even that much that makes this boy sexually attractive. hes not my type and ive never found him attractive before. hes not paul rudd or anything. side note: if i had paul rudd for a step brother, i would definitley tap that ass.
i blame it on the hormones. that is all. $100 says this crush is gone tomorrow.