Wow how long has it been since I’ve done a entry… like a year and some change or something. Pretty sure that most people don’t be checking this any, less they have me on their friends page or something. Well since last time I actually wrote something its been kinda hectic and I suppose that’s mostly why I haven’t written anything. Well that and ( Read more... )

Another month another Journal entry. Well I usually don't keep up with this blogging trend as well as most of my contemparies I do, but I am starting to rack up the entries. what am I at now number 14, in two years its not that bad is it? okay so that makes it what on average bi monthly? A little better than that. and really I don't know what ( Read more... )

So I'm sitting here looking at a blank panel, trying to will myself to work on the Decypher and I am so getting into that familar lazy place again. Sometimes I forget that my body sometimes needs to relax. I don't know if its how I live, or if most people have relaxing portions of the days. I spend my days going from one thing to another. ( Read more... )

Some things said.. or even thought tend to be hard to fathom once you realize what you've said... or realize what you thought. Concepts of the mind do totall dictate speech life and of course consiquence. Sometimes speech defies everything you've lived for up until the undeniable concept litters your brain not unlike a cancer. I suppose that ( Read more... )

Well its been forever since I've written in my real journal. So many things have been going on that I haven't really had the chance to even update on somthing realativly moderate or surcumstancial. Though I've never been one to write short posts. I don't really see the point of saying that I spent my day watching TV or somthing. Seems ( Read more... )

Sometimes I just have to sit and reflect. Wondering whats really worth it in the big picture. Sure having fun with a paintbrush, or a camera in hand is a great way to spend your time, but when you get down to it. How far can hobbies really take us? I often debate to myself, about that I'll never be good enough to ever get payed for it, or even ( Read more... )

Well I have been trying to keep myself busy the last month or so, to try to forget about all these things going on in my head, and getting away from life. It appears to me more times than not that people know when something bad happens and they get together to pounce you. Maybe the whole dream state is in part your mind hooking up with other ( Read more... )

Well after a lot of asking and well, feeling a little better about myself than I had been, I decided I'd go ahead and do a little recap about my life here on my on-line journals. I guess I've been sort of out of the loop at typing here the last few months, deleted my homepage planning on coming back to it at some point. Real life just got really ( Read more... )

So I guess I haven't written in this in a while, and well I've got this over whelming strange sense of failure embracing me, and where I only have myself I thought I'd share my thoughts once again. Just some strange things.. I feel so claustrophobic in my life. Like nothing I say or do has any lasting value ( Read more... )

Stories. Most of our memories can be seen as stories to tell, with names changed to protect the innocent, and a bit of exageration to protect the pride of the storyteller. Though some stories are just whispered tales that are only known to the storyteller. Memories that are tried to be forgotten, and the remeberance is in the shadows with warm ( Read more... )