{one-shot} Use me, when you want to abuse me.
Use me, when you want to abuse me.
→ Jonghyun/Key; R
I just want to use your love.
He was at the budding age of 12 with medium, pin straight black hair. Defined cheekbones and luscious lips - what a wonderful sight. Always surrounded by girls, he was a bit feminine himself. But that doesn’t mean anything. He knew he looked good (and wanted to look even better). Often caught camwhoring during class, but with a “Kim Kibum! What are you doing?”, he slowly put his cell phone away.
It was not long until he met him.
“Good morning students. We have a new student this term. He just moved here. Please welcome him.”
“Hi. I’m Kim Jonghyun. I like to sing and read comics!” He gave a big, bright smile that was able to blind anyone in mile radius. That was Jonghyun at age 13. Innocent and lively.
It was during lunch time when Jonghyun found a spot for himself. Soon, the girls (usually around Key) came flocking over. The new boy always got the attention.
“Hi! Where are you from?”
“Where do you live?”
“What’s your favorite food?”
“Can you sing for us?”
Jonghyun just smiled and kindly answered all the questions the girls threw at him. Key didn’t like it. He wanted the attention.
One day afterschool, Key was on the swings, kicking the leaves. He noticed that there was a figure over him and looked up.
“Hi. I’m Jonghyun!” He flashed the same blinding smile he gave when he first came.
“I heard…” Key rolled his eyes, wondering what this boy wanted from him.
“You’re pretty. What’s your name?”
Pretty? Key never had anybody call him that before. “Um…thanks? I’m Kibum, people call me Key. Only close people call me Kibum.”
“Oh Kibum! Nice. Want some of my soda?” Jonghyun smiled, totally ignoring Key’s last sentence. He shoved his coke into Key’s hands. “It’s good!”
Key chuckled, laughing at Jonghyun. He took the soda in his hands and stood up. “You moved here right? I’ll show you around. I know the best ice cream place!” Key smiled, proud to show dominance over the older boy.
Soon they were inseparable. Always together and always laughing. Sleepovers almost every night, they shared their innermost secrets.
Unfortunately, Jonghyun was older and had to attend high school. “I won’t change, Kibum.” That’s what he told Key. Key heard all the evils high school will do to a person. Conflicted, Key made Jonghyun promise (cross your heart!) that he will be the same Jonghyun - the same one that gave Key piggyback rides when Key fell, the one that will always hand Key a bottle of coke when Key was feeling down.
They separated. Hardly together and hardly laughing. Sleepovers became less frequent, they soon became distant.
Jonghyun told Key that it was only because he was busy with work, busy adjusting himself.
Finally, it was Key’s turn to enter high school. Beaming with excitement, the first thing he did was to find Jonghyun during his lunch time. He found Jonghyun surrounded by girls, a scene familiar to him. But it wasn’t the same as the one 3 years ago. Jonghyun was sitting on the table, dressed in skinny jeans and name brand t-shirt. He had his left arm around a girl and his right hand under another girl’s chin. He pierced his ears and had an aura around him that was never there before.
He changed, but Key couldn’t blame him. Key stepped up to Jonghyun with a warm smile, hoping that the Jonghyun inside is still the same.
Jonghyun took a few seconds to register who the boy was standing in front of him. Then he grinned. “Hey you. About time you made an appearance.” He set his arms back down. “Sorry girls, that’s it for today. I’ll see you guys tomorrow.” The girls frowned and whined as they left.
“Wow…you’re quite popular. After a year, you look like you grew up a lot.” Key stared at Jonghyun, still shocked from the change.
“Yeah I know. Puberty.” Jonghyun noticed Key’s eyes on him, “Are you checking me out? Like what you see?”
“What?”
“Just kidding. I’ll show you around the school. Come to my house after school, you know, to catch up.” He led the younger boy around the school, cutting class for the whole day to show Key some of his favorite spots.
It was easier than Key thought it’d be to adjust to high school life. He befriended the guy sitting next to him with the name Choi Minho. A nice and quiet boy, though when he spoke, it was the wisest words. Key and Minho saw each other the most, being the same age as they were. But Key always found time to be with Jonghyun. Jonghyun started to climb through Key’s windows at night to spend time with him. At first, it totally freaked Key out, but soon Jonghyun became a regular guest through Key’s windows.
Things looked like they went back to what they used to be. Jonghyun and Key started to have sleepovers again, telling each other new secrets. They saw each other a little more since Key was in the singing department with Jonghyun.
Jonghyun had his head propped against Key’s bed. They were sitting on the ground after playing video games. “You’re still pretty, you know.”
“I don’t think ‘pretty’ is the right word to describe guys.” Key looked over, arms crossed, slightly annoyed.
Jonghyun smiled and pulled Key in. Their lips touched and Key flinched. “What was that for?”
“Nothing, I want to try.” Jonghyun stared at Key, waiting for a reaction. But Key was still confused so Jonghyun leaned in. “Stick your tongue out.” Before Key knew it, Jonghyun dived in. Lips locked once again, their tongues were dancing with each other. Jonghyun didn’t hesitate to explore Key’s mouth slowly, savoring everything. Key held on tight to Jonghyun’s arm as he became more flustered, red and hot.
Soon enough, kissing was added to their list of routines. Whether it’s in the hallways, sidewalks, or bathroom, they always found themselves lips locked and tongues tied. Key didn’t question Jonghyun about it and Jonghyun never brought it up. They didn’t speak much, kissing was their top priority.
“You guys kiss more than you talk?” Minho bit into his lunch, staring at Key.
“Don’t look at me like I’m some sort of freak. Yes, we do. I’m asking you what you think about it.”
Minho, still chewing, didn’t give Key an answer. Key pouted and nudged Minho for an answer. Minho sighed and put his food down. “I think, you’re going to fall in love with him.”
Panting, Key’s body was up against the lockers. Jonghyun’s tongue is exploring the undersides of Key’s wet lips. Key was drowning and didn’t want to be rescued. Jonghyun’s hand traveled down the slope of Key’s neck, not forgetting to stop and please the bump of Key’s collarbone. His hand made way under Key’s shirt, caressing Key’s hip bone. After so much making out, Jonghyun knew where Key liked to be touched. He knew every one of Key’s sensitive spots.
Key pulled away to breathe, staring into Jonghyun’s eyes. He softly whispered, “I love you.” Jonghyun didn’t respond, only blinked and pulled Key back possessively and continued to devour him. Key pressed his body against Jonghyun’s, as if he needs him more than anything in the world. At this point, both of them were hard and couldn’t stop. Jonghyun started to grind his covered erection against Key’s which caused both of them to moan.
The bell rang which caused Jonghyun to groan with disappoint. Annoyed and still hard, he pulled away from Key. “We’ll continue this later.” He ruffled his hair and walked away, leaving Key in a hot mess.
Jonghyun climbed through Key’s window, always exactly at 10:19PM. He walked over to Key, who was on his bed reading. Jonghyun smiled - Key was right where he wanted him to be. Without speaking, Jonghyun grabbed the magazine in Key’s hand and tossed it aside.
“Let’s continue. I’ve been thinking about you all day.” Jonghyun’s voice was filled with desire, something new to Key. He didn’t give Key a chance to speak because after his sentence, he pinned Key onto the bed and started to kiss him. The sucking of their saliva as they kiss filled the quiet room. Jonghyun was eager - forceful tongue traced the inside of Key’s mouth.
Jonghyun’s hands started to trail down Key’s body and found their way under Key’s shirt. He broke away from the kiss to lift Key’s shirt over his head, revealing smooth and pale skin. Jonghyun licked his lips and dived down to attack Key’s lips. His hands began to explore Key’s exposed body, rubbing his hands all over it.
Key’s mind was numb and his body filled with new pleasures that he never felt before. He rolled his hips into Jonghyun’s, causing the older boy to moan. His hands wrapped around Jonghyun’s neck, Key started mindlessly grind against Jonghyun. Jonghyun immediately reacted to Key’s prodding. He started to grind back, rough and fast as he sucked on Key neck. Key flung his head back with pleasure.
Jonghyun pressed one palm between Key’s legs, rubbing Key’s covered erection. He slipped his finger in front of Key’s jeans and started to unbutton it. Jonghyun broke the kiss and sat up on his knees. He pulled Key’s jeans off, then the boxers. Jonghyun smirked at the sight of a naked Key. He quickly unbutton his pants, pulling it down just enough to reveal his reveal his stiff cock.
“Spread your legs,” Jonghyun demanded. And Key did just what he was told. Jonghyun entered Key with one thrust, causing Key to groan. Key winced at the pain but as Jonghyun sped up his pace, Key felt the pleasure run throughout his whole body.
Jonghyun locked their lips again, still hungry for more. As Jonghyun pumped into Key, Key dug his fingers into Jonghyun’s back. He didn’t even bother to hold back his loud cries of pleasure. Key pleaded for Jonghyun to go faster as he gasped for air. He stared at Jonghyun, whose face was flushed and sweaty. Key was taken over by the realization that that he loved Jonghyun more than ever before as they both came together.
They both panted for air, Jonghyun lying on top of Key licking away what were either tears or sweat. Soon they fell asleep. But when morning came, Key found Jonghyun missing from his bed. No letter, no note. Gone.
Sex became a regular for Jonghyun and Key. Sadly, that was the only thing they did together. No more video games, no more jokes, no more fooling around. Every time Jonghyun had a chance, he’d fuck Key, anywhere, anytime.
“I saw you guys in the boys locker room,” Minho said without looking up from his book.
“Oh…” That was all Key could say.
“He just wants sex.”
Key rolled his eyes and glared at Minho. “No…we’re best friends. He cares about me.”
“He doesn’t love you.” Minho knew he was right when he saw Key flinch at the corner of his eye. “But you love him. Madly in love, deeply in love.”
“You don’t need to tell me that.” Key turned away, stung by the bitter truth.
“He’s just using your love.”
Key wanted Jonghyun like never before. His knees were on the ground and mouth clamped on Jonghyun’s cock. Key didn’t know what he’s doing anymore. A few months earlier, he’d never find himself on his knees in a stall of the boys bathroom, giving head to his best friend. But he was, because he needed to be satisfied. He needed to prove himself wrong, prove that Jonghyun actually loves him.
“Faster, Key,” Jonghyun whispers. His hand is on the back of Key’s head, pushing for more speed.
Key obeyed, sucking hungrily on Jonghyun’s cock. His tongue slid up and down Jonghyun’s member. Jonghyun threw his head back, moaning with pleasure. The sounds that escaped Jonghyun’s mouth sent shivers through Key’s body.
Key wanted to pleasure Jonghyun like this forever because this was the only time Jonghyun gave Key attention anymore.
Before Key knew it, Jonghyun came into his mouth. Key slumped down on the ground and leaned back against the wall of the stall, wiping his mouth.
Jonghyun zipped up quickly and leaned down to kiss Key. “Thanks, “ he whispered into Key’s ear. “I’ll see you tonight.” He walked out the bathroom stall and disappeared before Key’s eyes.
Key stood up and propped himself against the wall. He sighed, staring at the ground. He hated himself for being so stupid, feeling used and degraded. He started to tear up as he slowly dragged himself out of the stall. It was the same thing every afternoon.
But he couldn’t stop - he was still madly in love. He was still waiting for that ‘I love you’ from Jonghyun, even if that meant being abused like sex doll. Key still wanted to wait.
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Idek what I just wrote. A lot of ideas came to me all at once with this prompt and I wanted to piece them together in this fic.
I think I made the 'intro' a little bit too long, but I couldn't delete anything when I wanted to :\
My attempt at angst and smut. Was it too long? I hope you enjoyed it ♥
→ Jonghyun/Key; R
I just want to use your love.
He was at the budding age of 12 with medium, pin straight black hair. Defined cheekbones and luscious lips - what a wonderful sight. Always surrounded by girls, he was a bit feminine himself. But that doesn’t mean anything. He knew he looked good (and wanted to look even better). Often caught camwhoring during class, but with a “Kim Kibum! What are you doing?”, he slowly put his cell phone away.
It was not long until he met him.
“Good morning students. We have a new student this term. He just moved here. Please welcome him.”
“Hi. I’m Kim Jonghyun. I like to sing and read comics!” He gave a big, bright smile that was able to blind anyone in mile radius. That was Jonghyun at age 13. Innocent and lively.
It was during lunch time when Jonghyun found a spot for himself. Soon, the girls (usually around Key) came flocking over. The new boy always got the attention.
“Hi! Where are you from?”
“Where do you live?”
“What’s your favorite food?”
“Can you sing for us?”
Jonghyun just smiled and kindly answered all the questions the girls threw at him. Key didn’t like it. He wanted the attention.
One day afterschool, Key was on the swings, kicking the leaves. He noticed that there was a figure over him and looked up.
“Hi. I’m Jonghyun!” He flashed the same blinding smile he gave when he first came.
“I heard…” Key rolled his eyes, wondering what this boy wanted from him.
“You’re pretty. What’s your name?”
Pretty? Key never had anybody call him that before. “Um…thanks? I’m Kibum, people call me Key. Only close people call me Kibum.”
“Oh Kibum! Nice. Want some of my soda?” Jonghyun smiled, totally ignoring Key’s last sentence. He shoved his coke into Key’s hands. “It’s good!”
Key chuckled, laughing at Jonghyun. He took the soda in his hands and stood up. “You moved here right? I’ll show you around. I know the best ice cream place!” Key smiled, proud to show dominance over the older boy.
Soon they were inseparable. Always together and always laughing. Sleepovers almost every night, they shared their innermost secrets.
Unfortunately, Jonghyun was older and had to attend high school. “I won’t change, Kibum.” That’s what he told Key. Key heard all the evils high school will do to a person. Conflicted, Key made Jonghyun promise (cross your heart!) that he will be the same Jonghyun - the same one that gave Key piggyback rides when Key fell, the one that will always hand Key a bottle of coke when Key was feeling down.
They separated. Hardly together and hardly laughing. Sleepovers became less frequent, they soon became distant.
Jonghyun told Key that it was only because he was busy with work, busy adjusting himself.
Finally, it was Key’s turn to enter high school. Beaming with excitement, the first thing he did was to find Jonghyun during his lunch time. He found Jonghyun surrounded by girls, a scene familiar to him. But it wasn’t the same as the one 3 years ago. Jonghyun was sitting on the table, dressed in skinny jeans and name brand t-shirt. He had his left arm around a girl and his right hand under another girl’s chin. He pierced his ears and had an aura around him that was never there before.
He changed, but Key couldn’t blame him. Key stepped up to Jonghyun with a warm smile, hoping that the Jonghyun inside is still the same.
Jonghyun took a few seconds to register who the boy was standing in front of him. Then he grinned. “Hey you. About time you made an appearance.” He set his arms back down. “Sorry girls, that’s it for today. I’ll see you guys tomorrow.” The girls frowned and whined as they left.
“Wow…you’re quite popular. After a year, you look like you grew up a lot.” Key stared at Jonghyun, still shocked from the change.
“Yeah I know. Puberty.” Jonghyun noticed Key’s eyes on him, “Are you checking me out? Like what you see?”
“What?”
“Just kidding. I’ll show you around the school. Come to my house after school, you know, to catch up.” He led the younger boy around the school, cutting class for the whole day to show Key some of his favorite spots.
It was easier than Key thought it’d be to adjust to high school life. He befriended the guy sitting next to him with the name Choi Minho. A nice and quiet boy, though when he spoke, it was the wisest words. Key and Minho saw each other the most, being the same age as they were. But Key always found time to be with Jonghyun. Jonghyun started to climb through Key’s windows at night to spend time with him. At first, it totally freaked Key out, but soon Jonghyun became a regular guest through Key’s windows.
Things looked like they went back to what they used to be. Jonghyun and Key started to have sleepovers again, telling each other new secrets. They saw each other a little more since Key was in the singing department with Jonghyun.
Jonghyun had his head propped against Key’s bed. They were sitting on the ground after playing video games. “You’re still pretty, you know.”
“I don’t think ‘pretty’ is the right word to describe guys.” Key looked over, arms crossed, slightly annoyed.
Jonghyun smiled and pulled Key in. Their lips touched and Key flinched. “What was that for?”
“Nothing, I want to try.” Jonghyun stared at Key, waiting for a reaction. But Key was still confused so Jonghyun leaned in. “Stick your tongue out.” Before Key knew it, Jonghyun dived in. Lips locked once again, their tongues were dancing with each other. Jonghyun didn’t hesitate to explore Key’s mouth slowly, savoring everything. Key held on tight to Jonghyun’s arm as he became more flustered, red and hot.
Soon enough, kissing was added to their list of routines. Whether it’s in the hallways, sidewalks, or bathroom, they always found themselves lips locked and tongues tied. Key didn’t question Jonghyun about it and Jonghyun never brought it up. They didn’t speak much, kissing was their top priority.
“You guys kiss more than you talk?” Minho bit into his lunch, staring at Key.
“Don’t look at me like I’m some sort of freak. Yes, we do. I’m asking you what you think about it.”
Minho, still chewing, didn’t give Key an answer. Key pouted and nudged Minho for an answer. Minho sighed and put his food down. “I think, you’re going to fall in love with him.”
Panting, Key’s body was up against the lockers. Jonghyun’s tongue is exploring the undersides of Key’s wet lips. Key was drowning and didn’t want to be rescued. Jonghyun’s hand traveled down the slope of Key’s neck, not forgetting to stop and please the bump of Key’s collarbone. His hand made way under Key’s shirt, caressing Key’s hip bone. After so much making out, Jonghyun knew where Key liked to be touched. He knew every one of Key’s sensitive spots.
Key pulled away to breathe, staring into Jonghyun’s eyes. He softly whispered, “I love you.” Jonghyun didn’t respond, only blinked and pulled Key back possessively and continued to devour him. Key pressed his body against Jonghyun’s, as if he needs him more than anything in the world. At this point, both of them were hard and couldn’t stop. Jonghyun started to grind his covered erection against Key’s which caused both of them to moan.
The bell rang which caused Jonghyun to groan with disappoint. Annoyed and still hard, he pulled away from Key. “We’ll continue this later.” He ruffled his hair and walked away, leaving Key in a hot mess.
Jonghyun climbed through Key’s window, always exactly at 10:19PM. He walked over to Key, who was on his bed reading. Jonghyun smiled - Key was right where he wanted him to be. Without speaking, Jonghyun grabbed the magazine in Key’s hand and tossed it aside.
“Let’s continue. I’ve been thinking about you all day.” Jonghyun’s voice was filled with desire, something new to Key. He didn’t give Key a chance to speak because after his sentence, he pinned Key onto the bed and started to kiss him. The sucking of their saliva as they kiss filled the quiet room. Jonghyun was eager - forceful tongue traced the inside of Key’s mouth.
Jonghyun’s hands started to trail down Key’s body and found their way under Key’s shirt. He broke away from the kiss to lift Key’s shirt over his head, revealing smooth and pale skin. Jonghyun licked his lips and dived down to attack Key’s lips. His hands began to explore Key’s exposed body, rubbing his hands all over it.
Key’s mind was numb and his body filled with new pleasures that he never felt before. He rolled his hips into Jonghyun’s, causing the older boy to moan. His hands wrapped around Jonghyun’s neck, Key started mindlessly grind against Jonghyun. Jonghyun immediately reacted to Key’s prodding. He started to grind back, rough and fast as he sucked on Key neck. Key flung his head back with pleasure.
Jonghyun pressed one palm between Key’s legs, rubbing Key’s covered erection. He slipped his finger in front of Key’s jeans and started to unbutton it. Jonghyun broke the kiss and sat up on his knees. He pulled Key’s jeans off, then the boxers. Jonghyun smirked at the sight of a naked Key. He quickly unbutton his pants, pulling it down just enough to reveal his reveal his stiff cock.
“Spread your legs,” Jonghyun demanded. And Key did just what he was told. Jonghyun entered Key with one thrust, causing Key to groan. Key winced at the pain but as Jonghyun sped up his pace, Key felt the pleasure run throughout his whole body.
Jonghyun locked their lips again, still hungry for more. As Jonghyun pumped into Key, Key dug his fingers into Jonghyun’s back. He didn’t even bother to hold back his loud cries of pleasure. Key pleaded for Jonghyun to go faster as he gasped for air. He stared at Jonghyun, whose face was flushed and sweaty. Key was taken over by the realization that that he loved Jonghyun more than ever before as they both came together.
They both panted for air, Jonghyun lying on top of Key licking away what were either tears or sweat. Soon they fell asleep. But when morning came, Key found Jonghyun missing from his bed. No letter, no note. Gone.
Sex became a regular for Jonghyun and Key. Sadly, that was the only thing they did together. No more video games, no more jokes, no more fooling around. Every time Jonghyun had a chance, he’d fuck Key, anywhere, anytime.
“I saw you guys in the boys locker room,” Minho said without looking up from his book.
“Oh…” That was all Key could say.
“He just wants sex.”
Key rolled his eyes and glared at Minho. “No…we’re best friends. He cares about me.”
“He doesn’t love you.” Minho knew he was right when he saw Key flinch at the corner of his eye. “But you love him. Madly in love, deeply in love.”
“You don’t need to tell me that.” Key turned away, stung by the bitter truth.
“He’s just using your love.”
Key wanted Jonghyun like never before. His knees were on the ground and mouth clamped on Jonghyun’s cock. Key didn’t know what he’s doing anymore. A few months earlier, he’d never find himself on his knees in a stall of the boys bathroom, giving head to his best friend. But he was, because he needed to be satisfied. He needed to prove himself wrong, prove that Jonghyun actually loves him.
“Faster, Key,” Jonghyun whispers. His hand is on the back of Key’s head, pushing for more speed.
Key obeyed, sucking hungrily on Jonghyun’s cock. His tongue slid up and down Jonghyun’s member. Jonghyun threw his head back, moaning with pleasure. The sounds that escaped Jonghyun’s mouth sent shivers through Key’s body.
Key wanted to pleasure Jonghyun like this forever because this was the only time Jonghyun gave Key attention anymore.
Before Key knew it, Jonghyun came into his mouth. Key slumped down on the ground and leaned back against the wall of the stall, wiping his mouth.
Jonghyun zipped up quickly and leaned down to kiss Key. “Thanks, “ he whispered into Key’s ear. “I’ll see you tonight.” He walked out the bathroom stall and disappeared before Key’s eyes.
Key stood up and propped himself against the wall. He sighed, staring at the ground. He hated himself for being so stupid, feeling used and degraded. He started to tear up as he slowly dragged himself out of the stall. It was the same thing every afternoon.
But he couldn’t stop - he was still madly in love. He was still waiting for that ‘I love you’ from Jonghyun, even if that meant being abused like sex doll. Key still wanted to wait.
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Idek what I just wrote. A lot of ideas came to me all at once with this prompt and I wanted to piece them together in this fic.
I think I made the 'intro' a little bit too long, but I couldn't delete anything when I wanted to :\
My attempt at angst and smut. Was it too long? I hope you enjoyed it ♥