It is now 1:47am and I keep trying and trying and trying to fall asleep because I am tired as all get out, but every time I am about to doze off, I start thinking about something or singing a song in my head. I literally laid in bed for an hour trying to FORCE myself to sleep and I started thinking about work . . . an idea for a youtube video ( Read more... )

I almost had a near death experience the other day . . . not really . . . my laptop stopped working and would not turn on and I thought I was going to go mental. LOL!!! But it turned back on hours later and all was right with the world again. It's sad how dependent I am on this thing but it is my only outlet to other people besides the family, who ( Read more... )

I LOVE this picture that my dad, Jaden "Peanut", and I took at Best Buy on a GORGEOUS iMac.


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Ashley texted me today and told me that her grandmother is in the ICU and is not breathing on her own. God, my heart sank. Ashley's grandmother is the SWEETEST woman on this Earth and I love her to pieces. She has battled, and won, breast cancer and I am hoping she can win this as well. She is a tough woman, I am telling you. So please . . . ( Read more... )

OMG, this band is SOOOOO WEIRD. It's just a guy and girl on drum and piano . . . and that's it. But, Lord their music is so weird and strange . . . that I actually really dig it. lol. The video I am putting is of their song called "Coin Operated Boy" and I swear it would fit into the musical CABARET with no problem whatsoever.

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I am in SUCH pain from doing the March of Dimes (March for Babies) walk yesterday. I am SOOOOO outta shape. Starting tomorrow, I am going back to the gym full time because I need to get this last 30 pounds off of me and I want most of it gone before I get to NYC so I can walk around and not get so tired out easily. OMG, it is going to suck the ( Read more... )

Well, as mentioned in the post below, it is my three year wedding anniversary today. Ugh! This day started out bad. I overslept and was about 10 minutes late to work and I thought the rest of the day was going to go straight to hell . . . but it didn't. I mean, it sucked like crazy but it wasn't the "worst day ever." I missed Ashley like crazy ( Read more... )

Happy 3 year Wedding Anniversary!

Okay, this is the last straw. I am sick and tired of being nice to her and trying my hardest to keep some kind of peace between the two of us but it is over. I have helped her out on so many occasions with money and moral support but I am tired of her being such a bitch to me. I am done with her.

Yesterday I came home from work, ate dinner and fell asleep around 7pm . . . woke up at 5am . . . went back to sleep about 6:30am . . . woke up at 12pm. Between those times of slumber I kept having dreams, like most people do every night. The difference between this night and many others, is that I kept having dreams of Ashley. Not funky dreams ( Read more... )