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[phatpatinthehat]

I have never felt more rejected in my entire life. And I don't even know why. I didn't know that I was supposed to be there, 24/7, seeing if they wanted to go eat or hang out or play some games or something. Am I just weird, or do other people actually think that because you aren't invited doesn't mean that they don't want you there? Maybe you're

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[cloudbound]

:( What's going on?

[6tremor6christ6]

two triple shots of vodka and mountain dew taken on an empty stomach, and then a greasy chicken philly blunt hoagie three hours later is the worse feeling in the pit of my stomach that i've ever had.

[6tremor6christ6]

friends understand if you present the situation to them. however, friends do owe each other a sort of responsibility to not leave each other out from fun shit. always provide an invitation, because if you don't, you encourage a sense of abandonnment in your friend. at least let them know what's going on.

friendship means a collision of worlds, and it is best to keep the doors to each others' world open so neither feels rejection.

if i'm off, talk to me sometime, you speak in random directions.

[phatpatinthehat]

See that's the thing though. I didn't tell him I was going to go -eat-. Several times. I didn't ever know that it was supposed to be some responisbility of mine to go eat with him and do everything else with him if it could be remotely considered "fun". That does sound like a rather vicious feeling in one's stomach. Allison, basically a friend of mine I believe told me that I was a really really shitty friend and therefore didn't want to hang out with me anymore. The only thing that he said was that I kept dipping on him and not telling him when I was going to go do something, which to me just seems plain odd. I don't really have a problem flying solo and I'm used to being around people with the same characteristic. I don't really understand it well enough to talk to him about it. The one time I discussed it with him he kept saying that everything I did was bullshit and would not calm down to have a slightly more civil discussion. Amy, who made me aware of this in the first place because mike never came to me in person, in turn said

[fussundgeist]

my thought, fuck him then. not to be harsh or a dick, but you don't have to be attached to someone all the time. And if it's a friend of any of ours, they best be able to fly solo.

...and have you read my latest work? or the last 2 actually, although the newest should be understood by one someone.

no more mind games. kill em all and finish the story. will there be a masochistic jump?

[sc24evr]

I never once said i didn't want to hang with you anymore or anything like that. I was just very suprised that one minute i see you daily just to say wahts up and go eat or whatever, and the next week nothing. Sometimes, actually most of the time i want to be alone too, but i tell you. I didn't mean to start all this shit and whatnot, its just been a really really really boring dull annoying weekend and its killing me, i knw its my fault, yet i took it out on you. reminded me of how somedays kyra can be totaly into me, and somedays blow me off all together. What bothered me the most is that you didn't know that something was up after not seeing me for days, made me feel unimportant and shitty. I mean, i was the one that got u into MXO and u don't even tell me that u were playing?! I went looking for u just to tell you you could play. lol this is all stupid. I'm just depressed oout of my mind so ignore me lol, have a good one.

[a_girl_like_you]

call me. we still haven't hung out. I wish I could do something to make you feel better about this.

I can... beat someone up for you!

...because I'm so big buff and intimidating.

But yes, in all seriousness, we have much to catch up on kiddo, we need to talk.