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[phatpatinthehat]

If I had eaten anything today, I think I would've puked it up. I'm almost definitely going to fail inorganic chemistry. That ain't too good when you keep in mind that I'm a chemical engineering major, and need a C in the class to take my first major-specific class in the fall. I also am probably going to fail my IChem Lab, thanks to my overly

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[sc24evr]

i prefer head, i have enough fucking cookies. The truth is all you have left in a world of lies... Stick with being honest to yourself and you'll always have a best friend. Remmember the only person that sticks with you your entire life is yourlife, might as well love that person you son of a bitch :) i love you too pat

[cloudbound]

At some point we all understand that not everyone is cut out for college or for the career/education path they thought they wanted or their parents wanted. I'm sure the statistics of how many people have changed majors at least twice won't surprise you or help your mood now, but be aware of it. What is it you really like to do? Find someone who will pay you to do it. If it's money you're after, to pay your parents back--because I'm sure it's not just that they want you to, I think you feel responsibility (at least a little)--you can find a way to make money. Enjoying what you do is a horse of another color

[phatpatinthehat]

I'm ChemE because my parents want me to make money. Shit, I'm here out of fucking spite for my parents. They were like "make lots of money so we can go to a good nursing home when we're old!" so I said, okay, what do I like that makes money? Chemistry seems like it'd make lots of money, oh, hey, Chemical Engineers only have to take like, 3 more classes than Chem majors (that was complete and utter bullshit by the way). okay so I'll be a ChE. now what school has a good program? Mom says "clemson's cheap and you can graduate easy!" Powell's like "dude go to Tech, you can get in" I think about it, realize that the whole reason I'm going to college is to help my parents out (last thing I feel like doing. Ever.) So I say, hey, I'll sacrifice my soul to Tech and come out with a ChE, a fuckton of money, and keep it for my car collection when I get old! Fuck my parents in their stingy assholes! Now I'm failing quite well and am afraid of the consequences. They think every fucking college is the same, they just don't get how hard Tech is. it

phatpat's issues

[cloudbound]

Pat,
I wanted to tell you that you might think about doing fewer courses at a time. Students tend to think they need to finish in such a rush,(gotta do it in four years) but no one cares twenty years from now if you took four or five or six years to get finished. You can always come up with something to tell people on interviews, and be happy anyway. So, I want to encourage you, IF THIS IS THE FIELD YOU WANT TO BE IN, to take the time to be comfortable doing the studies you want to do. AND IF THIS IS NOT THE FIELD YOU WANT TO BE IN, then, find something that makes you happy, and do that. Allison was much more effective in her comment, (and I absolutely agree with her) but I wanted to give you the "take your time" comment as well.

It will get better!
vAHSy

Re: phatpat's issues

[phatpatinthehat]

Well, I'm really worried about what my parents say because I'm kind of a part-time student this semester. I've never had a lighter course load. 13 hours first semester and 9 the second. And I'm taking 8 this summer because of the one I "failed" (Calc 2). I think my parents are gonna make me transfer to Clemson because I'm wasting their money. I really don't know.

[fussundgeist]

yep.

same situation. get fucked, it's lots of fun.
Calc II and beginner's CompSci for next year.
...but I don't feel as bad knowing 25% of the students retake it because they had to or just barely made it. Hell, they even dropped the required grade from a C to a D to go into Calc III.

as far as the the whole girl situation. GT is much better with the ratio, we've got the beach here to help out, but I'd prefer not to go around fucking random sluts...so I did the other thing...nothing, nothing at all.
Engieers suck at life while pilots don't know what a tread mill or a book is. and those that figured out the balance, forgot about/ don't need anyone else.
tip: don't try to get involved with independent girls, they don't need you.

oh, and stark: go fuck yourself you hypocritical arrogant asshole.

[silentcircut]

"It's only nothing,
when you say,
"it's gonna be alright"
cause you'll tell me anything
I want to hear

And it's only nothing
when you laugh at my jokes,
cause it's all nothing
when I fall apart"

Time for a breakdown. It's coming, trust me. Still out there on the horizon, but you're headed right for it.

Here's your way out: let it come.

You, my friend, you need to throw some things away. I don't know a single person who doesn't, neither you nor I, Allison nor Powell, Roy, Natasha, Tracey, Lauren, Sean, Tom, Jennifer, Jacqueline...

You, I, and Roy appear to have reached critical mass first though, and your performance in school is merely a outward sign of the inner conflict.

What the hell do you want from life?

Well? Can you honestly answer that question? Yes. Why aren't you fighting for it with everything you have? If you are like me, it's fear, and shame, and percieved responsibility. Tear it down. Break yourself if you have to. Do whatever you must to get to the point where you can see only what you want for your future. Fuck

[phatpatinthehat]

Awesome, I won a bronze medal. The whole problem is that what would make me happy in life has a high potential of failure and starvation, and the high probability of that is turning my thoughts away from my personal success. If anyone cares what this goal is, I want to make movies. That right there has given me more personal satisfaction ex post facto (I believe that's the right phrase) than any grade, any score, any performance in any competition. I said I was gonna make a fucking movie and make it I did. Sure it sucked, but that was the maiden voyage. I seek that or something like it, where the returns are worth it to me emotionally as much as the inputs are physically.

However, goal number one right now is to get my parents to shut the hell up about how well I should be doing. I'll do as well as I want to, most of the time. Goal number 2 is to fix myself so that goal number 2 can be accomplished. That's my problem right there. The cart's in front of the fucking horse. All day every day.

[steveandpowell]

"SUICIDE IS A PERMANENT SOLUTION TO A TEMPORARY PROBLEM." The one problem is when the problem isn't temporary (definitely have that problem). Lucky for you grades are temporary. You can always get a job somewhere (just please not McDonalds; not after watching Supersize Me) and be happy doing other things. If it makes you feel better you're not the only who does horribly in CompSci. I managed to fail the first time around and am taking it again in the Fall.

~Powell