please kill me ! Kill me now !

[phidelis07]

How I dread this life ! How assanine and pointless it all seems. I can find no hope in anyone or anything. God was suppose to be my rock, is he even there ? Or is he trying to teach me something ? Tonight I went out drinking, and i felt like i always do. I felt saddnened. I felt hopelessnes, and other sad feelings. You might ask, Cole why do you

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[littleali]

once we learn to accept the fact that life is meaningless, we can accept happiness. i think we refrain from being happy, being content, because we need to point blame. it's easier to point blame at someone other than yourself when you're unhappy. it's easier to find meaning for sadness.
i agree with a lot of what you're saying. maybe it's just a crazy phase. even if that's the case, i'm going to go on challenging everything i've ever believed.